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I'm really in love with my bf(21 and im 20). we have been dating 3 years off and on. but are long distance.

since weve been so off and on i feel like i cant trust him. i dont mean with other people. hes never been with anyone else. i just mean with him going away for weeks without hearing from him.

recently i left town again and told him i really didnt want to be used and was nervous about having sex if i wasnt gonna hear from him. he assured me that he was so in love with me and would make the distance easier.

Its been 3 days now that i havent heard from him..i know eventually i will hear from him but this is such a tough time in my life that i really wish i would hear from him sooner. (he doesnt have a phone)

Ive been feeling really lonely lately and feeling like if i dont find someone who treats me better i will always feel this way. but i cant move on because i want so badly to be with him i almost always put up with it.

Im just kind of wondering if anyone else had a similar situation: where they feel like the person they are with isnt fully there? they feel like theres nothing they can really do cause the pain of walking away is so hard? and if they lose them then everything will be lost? :/ I know this is super depressing. but im just trying to be honest so i can get some good advice :[ thanks for your guys time!

I can relate to your pain, and it's really excruciating. When my exboyfriend didn't call me for days (he claimed he didn't have a phone) I would feel such dark despair and awful longing. After a few times of dealing with it, I asked myself if it was worth it to stay in the relationship if he never made himself available to me. Everyone suggested that I break up with him, but I didn't have the heart to do it because I was so deeply in love. I highly suggest that the next time you talk with him, you tell him exactly what you feel, and if he isn't understanding I don't think it will work out. You need lots of love, and he should be there for you. My ex broke up with me out of the blue, and it was excruciatingly painful for me because I ignored all the warning signals. Ask yourself the same question I did. If he was really in love with me would he be there for me so little of his time? If indeed he is in love with you, then he'll understand you, and try to work out a solution. Either way, telling him how you feel will be beneficial to you both. Good luck :)

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Can someone please help me, I have been really depressed for the past couple years, im 16 years old im really poor I have a dad who hits my mom, im 230 pounds ive been joining sports to lose weight( not working) my girlfriend cheats on me. I get into fights, I have hardly no friends, i have an anger problem and i pick fights with my dad. Lately after I found out my gf has been cheating on me, my depression has hit an all time high, I have been alienating my self from everyone for the past month. I had been having really bad suicidle thoughts lately, but I cant get myself to do it. Im not afraid to die, its just thought of how im going to die. Is there an afterlife, im I going to hell if I kill myself, will anybody care?. I just need someone to help me, because I have been driving myself crazy lately and im afraid I might do something ad. Can someone help me?

Your situation is really really unbearable, and I don't blame you for being depressed. I could only imagine myself going crazy if I were in your situation, and I'm really proud of you that you were able to hang in there. A 16 year old should not be dealing with so much pain. No one should. You are a really special guy, and you deserve to live a wonderful life. You do not deserve to die! You are struggling in so many areas, and you shouldn't be dealing with this on your own. You should be out there enjoying your life, and having a dedicated girlfriend. If you're 100% sure your girlfriend is cheating on you, you should break up with her. She doesn't deserve to be with you! You should have the best girl out there, someone who will love and respect you no matter what. You need to get help. You'll be a new person! Please e-mail me at alexisgirlie@gmail.com and I can try to find you people in your area who can help you, and help your mom and dad resolve their conflicts. It is very painful to watch parents fight, but if your dad is hitting your mom, I believe someone needs to step in. Start living again! Don't cut your life short! With the right treatment, you will be happy again! Good luck :)

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Father:

My husband donbt love me anymore, I really want to leave from his life.
I am fed up with his anger, his hate his silence.

Help me
I have a son of 3 years, I want to kill myself but whenever I look at his face, I cant do it.

But I cant live such life .
Help me

I would suggest that you leave your husband immediately. You are a wonderful person, and you deserve much better than him. It may seem very scary, and you may be afraid to leave him, but he is very harmful to your mental health, and you need to be strong at least for your son's sake. He needs you to be there for him! Please go get help for your depression. Why should you feel that you are living against your will? I remember when I was really suicidal, but decided that I had to live for my family's sake. Every day was murder, and whenever my family hurt me, I felt so betrayed, because I only lived for their sake! This is no way to live! You'll be surprised to hear that you can love your life with all your heart even after severe depression and strong suicidal feelings! Your life is really unbearable right now, and I understand your emotional state, because I've been there. I've held the mountain of pills in my hand, I've nearly jumped down 10 floors to the ground, I've held destructive items in my hand so many times, all those times I was alone. I realize today that alone it's not possible to survive, no matter how strong you are. You say that you can't live like this, and guess what, you shouldn't live like this! Fight for your rights! You deserve the best life you can have, and anyone who brings you down, does not deserve to be with you. It's very scary to leave your husband, especially if he's the one to provide for you. My dad was behaving similiar to your husband, and my mom was really afraid to leave him. Because of that, she and all her kids suffered unimaginably. One day she finally found the courage, and that's what led us all on the path to true healing. Take a look for yourself. When he lived with us, I was a broken, suicidal, severely depressed girl. Today I'm glowing. Do it for yourself. Do it for your son. You deserve the right to be happy, and you light up this world. With the right treatment, you'll have a new lease on life, and be able to be a stronger and better mommy to your son! I know that you won't disappoint him! Good luck :)

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what do i do if one ofmy freinds are very suicidal and it scares me alot kill himseat do i donnt know if i can stop him anymore considering thapretty depressed my self

It's great that you care so much about your friend, and I experienced your situation first hand. It's really really awful. While I was suffering from awful depression and bereavement, I had a friend that was very suicidal and kept on hurting herself. During that time, there were two very big mistakes that I made. One was that I didn't acknowledge that I was severely depressed and couldn't deal with my loved one's death, and the other one was that I didn't take her seriously, and I believed she only wanted my attention, because she was really smothering me. Thankfully, you're not making those huge mistakes, and I'm proud of you. But you are young and aren't trained to deal with suicidal people. Do your friend the biggest favor you can do him, and tell a responible adult immediately. This will save his life! He might really hate you for a while, but ultimately one day he'll thank you for not letting him commit suicide. The professionals trained in dealing with suicidal people will help your friend overcome this awful challenge. Depending on the exact situation, it might be better to urge your friend to tell an adult or you will have to, or it might be better not to clue him in, since he might kill himself before anyone can do anything. You know the situation, so you'll make the decision. But no matter how you do it, you need to tell a responsible adult who will know how to handle the situation. I also strongly urge you to get help for your own depression, and start enjoying life again. I wish both you and your friend the most incredible lives you can have, because you deserve it. Let your friend know how much you care about him, and that is the only reason you told someone. Good luck and love life!

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I don't want to live anymore. What's the point of it all? I've been running around in circles getting nowhere. I feel I've given out but not received much back. I'm divorced after my husband couldn't stand me anymore. I couldn't do anything right. I became repulsive to him. I married him because I thought noone else would marry me. Even he became repulsed by me. I tried to start my life over again but I don't seem to getting anywhere. I'm in debt and have applied for job after job but have not been successful. I don't know why because they never give me any feedback. I went back to uni to improve my education but I don't know if I'm getting anywhere with that either. I found out today I have just over $20 to survive on. What am I supposed to do? My family only talks to me when they want something and when I'm in need they are always busy and have no time. I've had suicidal thoughts before but now I realise this is my only option. I've got nothing anyway.

Let me answer you by correcting the last line in you're question which seems to be the underlying reason for your awful despair. You do have something. You have a wonderful future. This may sound like the most ridiculous thing right now, but I've been in that awful place, and I've climbed out of the abyss. You're in a really tough place right now, but suicide is not the solution. Don't you rather want everything to work out in your life? How about giving your life another chance? You seem to have very low self esteem, and due to that you are settling in relationships, and feeling awful. Let's start by working on that. You have to start believing in yourself and your greatness. You may say, well there's nothing great about me, but you're wrong! You're a queen, and anyone who treats you any less than one, including your ex, does not deserve to be with you. Just by being in this world, you are making it a more beautiful place. This is not crap or pity talk. This is real. You are really strong to have survived this far on your own, but now it's time you get help, because it's impossible to deal with all that alone. You deserve the best care, a loving and dedicated mate, and above all you have the right to be here and be happy. You do not deserve to die! You are much stronger than you think you are. Reach out to someone who can help you. I care about you and your happiness, and there are many others who do too. Get help immediately or call 911 if you ever feel you cannot maintain your own safety. Life can be really really awesome, and you should never settle for anything other than the best, because you deserve it! I hope you find happiness again, and your soulmate who will love you for who you are. First you need to do that! Good luck and take care of a very special you! I admire your strength :)

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Don't worry, I'm not going to do it, as the cons greatly outweigh the pros, and I know suicide is a permanent solution for a temporary problem. but ever since I've put myself in more stress the more I think about it. I don't even have any methods planned or anything, it's just when I feel really sad and ashamed I want to just melt into the ground and not be seen, and not try and reach out for help. i've started seeing a therapist but I hate how it's only once a week, I feel like I have so much to get off my chest. I think all my problems revolve around me being a perfectionist, so it's like because I haven't been perfect I don't deserve to exist. I'm so much harder on myself than others. I accept others when they fail but I feel like I need to be extremely successful when I'm older, and know that I can, but being a perfectionist just gets in the way because it immobilizes me, makes me procrastinate, and then makes me feel guilty. it's an endless cycle. it's so hard to break out of it, and i know it's wrong but I still feel like I have to do even do more perfect work to make up for my f*** ups in the past. it's like i'm trapped in a hell of my mind. why can't i just let the past go so I can start working on reaching my dreams? why am I doing this to myself when it's stupid and doesn't get me anywhere? I want to be a high achiever instead of a perfectionist, so I can accept my mistakes and still work hard. but how do I do this? I still have many perfectionistic tendencies..


sometimes I'm afraid of a loss of control, though. like i have to go to the bathroom before going anywhere, like the bus or in a car, or i'll have anxiety over suddenly needing to use the bathroom. and train stations scare me cause i'm afraid something will make me want to run and jump on the tracks.. i don't know why i'm afraid of this when it's never something i'd want to do and yet it's like i'm afraid of myself. i also put walls between me and most people. one benefit is that they aren't close enough to really hurt me at my core, but the cons are a lot worse as it's prevented me from having meaningful relationships, really, if i can't even trust others with my problems. i like to help out others and am open minded with them and yet i think they'll think negatively of me and leave me if i tell them my closest feelings. ugh why have i allowed myself to be this stupid. i wish i could just snap out of it, maybe if i did a long time ago my teenage years wouln't have sucked so bad and i'd actually be going to a great college right now on full scholarship. now im going to community college and i want to transfer later with great grades but i need to get a drive to do it and believe in myself or i'll just end up doing the same BS I've been doing in high school. i know i'm smart enough to do well in this world, but how can i get out of my rut??

I used to be similiar to what you're describing. I judged others favorably, and didn't mind when they weren't perfect, but I was really tough on myself and it drove me crazy. I think you should get more help than seeing a therapist once a week, and start working on improving your self esteem. It took me a long time until I've reached the level of accepting my imperfections and actually embracing it. Here are some tips that really helped me. First of all, no one is perfect, and we can't always have it together. You also need to believe that you are already wonderful, without changing anything. Embrace your awesomeness, and write down things that make you special. Try putting on your favorite dress and perfume, apply makeup and make your hair nice. Looking great makes you feel great. Make some pictures, and save them for a day you're feeling down. Look how beautiful you are, and start to feel beautiful inside. The Woman's World magazine has two incredible sections "a moment for you" and "seven days of inspiration" which really brings out the uniqueness and beauty in everyone. I find it very helpful, and you may too. Start applying compliments you give others to yourself. In the beginning your brain will protest, but eventually it'll start accepting it, and you'll feel much more confident. You might have to be put on medication, and you'll be surprised how you'll become a new person! Sometimes you don't even know what your missing! Good luck! Take care of yourself and feel better :)

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Hi im a 23 year old guy, I used to be life and soul of the party, always out, always one of the jokers of the pack etc. The last 3 or 4 years things have been slowly going down hill, sometime i work like 15 hours a day, and dont get overtime for it but i do it to help out family, im currently off work due to depression, and im really scared i wont be able to provide for my fiance and 6 month old son. Things are really bad for me at the moment, and I feel so useless and worthless, I dont even like being around people anymore, and am a compete mess, twice this week ive picked up a knife and gone to slice my wrists and bottled it at the last minute, I have coucelling in the next few weeks, but if that doesn't work then I dont think ill be able to get through this, someone please help me

First of all I really admire you strength, and your ability to overcome your urges to harm yourself. That takes a lot of courage. You are in a really awful situation right now, and there is a way to overcome the unbearable despair. I strongly urge you to go see a psychiatrist. You won't believe how the right medication can change you completely from feeling suicidal to feeling happy again and enjoying life. Therapy is also a big factor in healing. I know it as a fact, because those things saved my life many times over. You were born with the strength to survive this, so I know you will. You're life sucks right now, but remember that it's temporary. One day this awful predicament will be over, and aside from feeling happy again, you'll also be a better daddy to your son. You owe to yourself to get the right treatment. As for the feelings of worthlessness, that's a big part of depression, and can be combatted as well. Start working on your self esteem by writing a list of 10 good things about yourself. It may sound foolish, but it really helps! Write a separate list of reasons you need to take care of yourself, and read it whenever you feel down. Writing poems and songs about your feelings really helps as well, or simply take some time out. Try to laugh often, push yourself to get out of the house, and listen to your favorite songs. Remember that there are so many dreams you still need to pursue, and you're not ever going to give up on yourself or your dreams. Constantly repeat in your mind that when it comes to battling challenges, you're a natural, and whenever any negative or despairing thoughts come to your mind, tell those thoughts that they have no place in your brain. You're a fighter, and taken from the way you phrased your question, there's no doubt in my mind that you're going to emerge triumphant! Always believe in yourself, your uniqueness, and your ability to make this world a more beautiful place just by being here! Good luck :)

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how to commit suiside the easyiest way.

There's no easy way to commit suicide. Committing suicide is very painful, and is not the solution. You are in an unbearable place right now, and the only thing you can think of is committing suicide to bring an end to your awful pain. Your heart is aching so badly, but you are a good person, and you deserve to be taken care of. You deserve love, great friends, and a wonderful life. I have lots of friends that wanted to commit suicide or have attempted suicide, plus I myself was suicidal a lot, and nearly committed suicide once. Today we're all so grateful to be alive, and find so much more meaning in life, because we fought so hard against our instincts. Your life is unbearable the way it is currently being lived, and you seem to be dead inside. Please go get help. You owe it to yourself. There's a way to survive suicidal feelings; I am a living example of it! Tell an adult immediately or call 911 if you feel you cannot maintain your own safety. You light up this world, and it will never be the same without you. You don't deserve to die, you deserve the best life possible. Don't ever give up on yourself, don't ever lose hope, and always dream big! If you give those dreams the chance to come true, they will! Know that there are many people out there who really really care about you, including me. Stay strong, and reach out to those who can help you, and always stand up for your rights! Good luck, and feel better soon :)

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If I am over-weight and know that being overweight is bad for my health is eating chocolate suicide? If I smoke is smoking suicide? Why is this different that shooting myself? Where does it say in the bible don't kill yourself? I don't know the bible but I don't think God ever dealt with suicide.

I don't like my life, or myself and want out. I have a long list of why but it really doesn't matter. I think living is hell and death is peace.

The thought that "living is hell and death is peace" is a common suicide thought. I always used to say that when I was suicidal. Living isn't supposed to be hell, and if you feel that way, you're not living. You may not want to get help for your depression, but if you do, with the right treatment, you'll be surprised how awesome life can be. You may think I'm talking crap, but believe me, a few months ago I was in that awful terrifying place, and I believed that suicide was the only solution, and no one understood my pain. People would always tell me that I have a future, but I didn't believe them. But guess what! They were right! My life is really awesome right now! I'm on medication, and it evens out my brain, and even though I'm doing so great now, I still know that without the medication I would be dead. I strongly urge you to get help for your own sake. Suicidal feelings are so unbearable to deal with. Please get help so you could feel better and love your life! You deserve the most incredible life you can have! Don't let your depression get the better of you, there is a way to get over it. But there's no way you can do it alone. Always remember that you are irreplacable and the world cannot afford to lose you. You are in terrible pain right now, but I believe in you, and I believe you are going to survive it and have a wonderful life! You need to believe that too :) Good luck. Hope you feel better soon :)

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you see im reallly on the edge of commoting suicide (gottin bulllied all my life and by my grandpa as well....btw im only 13) iv been depresssed for a long long time thought and tried hanging myself i dont know what to do anymore i dont wanna die but i dont know what else to do please help i need some one to talk too!or just need some help please!

You are in a really tough despairing situation right now, which I've been in many many times, so I can relate to that. I know how that feels, but I'm also a living example that it's possible to survive it, and be really happy one day and love life! I know that it sounds so far off, but if you get help for your awful depression, one day you're going to be really happy you chose life. You're only 13, and you have your whole life ahead of you! Right now you're not even living! That's not life! Life is really good, and you deserve to experience that joy! I strongly urge you to get help, and let an adult know if you feel you cannot maintain your own safety. Always live by this motto: the world is a better place because of you! If you're not here, the world will be dark and dreary, because all that awesomeness you could've contributed won't be here, and no one will be able to replace you. It's not your fault that you're depressed, but unfortunately, you have to deal with all that. It's impossible to deal with it alone! No matter how strong you are! Try avoiding stressful situations by getting out there, going to the park, library, or volunteering for your community. Another thing you should know is that bullies are very weak insecure people, who are trying to bring others down because of that. But don't let them! Stand up for yourself! It takes a lot of hard work, but it's worth it. I was bullied a lot in school, and never stood up for myself, because I was afraid. That's probably a big reason I became so depressed. Today, whenever a bully tries to bring me down, I give him a piece of my mind, and he's speechless! Show those bullies the tough side of you! You're an amazing person with so much potential! Fight to reclaim your place in the world, at the very top! That's where you belong! Good luck! I hope you feel better soon :)

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My girlfriend has depression, it's not as severe as it could be, but it often worries me as I can't always be there to see how she's coping when she is having a 'down' day as we're both at university. I don't know how I can help to make her feel better when she is feeling like this, she has self-harmed before and neither of us want it to get to that point again. She says that I am helping, but as I'm not there I don't know if she's just saying that to make me feel at ease...I also know that depression is an illness that isn't going to disappear overnight, I just wondered if anyone had any tips on how I could help her to cope? Just to make her day a little better? Anything.
Thanks.

First of all, a message from me to your girlfriend, she is really really blessed to have you in her life! I'm really proud of you that you care so much about her. Since I am suffering from depression, I can try to give you some pointers as to what to do. These things really work for me, but might not work for her. A very big healing factor is laughing. If you leave her a funny note or text, it might really bring her out of the depression for a while. She also needs to feel that people really care about and love her. She needs to hear how strong she is, because depression is not anyone's fault. Battling depression is excruciating, and I would strongly urge you to encourage her to get help for it. With the right therapy and medication, she'll be a new person! Encourage her to write her feelings down. It really helps! Tell her how proud you are of her, and how you can't imagine what she's going through, and you're blown away by her strength. She needs to hear that. When you are with her, give her lots of love and attention. She needs your support!

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I want to end up in the hospital beacouse i just found out that my bff does bot want to be my friend il show her wat ill do for her please help how end out in th hospital something that wont heart that much and that waont couse me to die thx

I'm sure you are hurting very badly right now, and want your friend back. Being hospitalized is not the solution though. My best friend landed me in the hospital, and when I was released she didn't want anything to do with me. It really crushed me, and I felt really sad. It might even be that your friend will totally distance herself from you if you put yourself in a hospital, since she hasn't proven herself to be a very dedicated friend. Right now it may feel like she's the only bff you want, but if she doesn't realize how special you are and hurts your feelings so badly, I think you should find a new bff.

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I want to kill myself...I've been getting bullied since middle school & my family hates me?

I really want to kill myself. I'm always depressed because I get picked on at school & my family members treat me like I'm a piece of crap. they think I'm a weirdo because I'm quiet & they tell me I don't have any friends, but if I told them I was getting picked on in school they probally wouldn't care or believe me. My family always fusses at me & talks about me like I'm worthless, they don't understand me & I don't want to talk to them because they never will understand.They say a lot of things to hurt my feelings & then I go to school & get picked on by kids because of the way I look. I have been being picked on since the 6th grade. If they found out that I cry in my room they probally wouldn't care or think I'm serious. I'probablyslapped before by a kid just because they didn't like me. I'm tired of being picked on at school & my family always putting me down. I'm not a ad kid. I make good grades, but I hate my life...When I get depressed I just go in my room and cry because if I talk to family about it they probally won't care. I don't even want to talk to anyone I just want to kill myself. I don't have a gun so I think the best way is to just use a knife.

You're facing some rough times right now, and it really sucks. It looks like you're really depressed and need guidance and support. You are very strong, even though you may not know it. A big reason people are bringing you down is because you seem to accept all the trash they feed you. Start by telling yourself over and over again that you are NOT a garbage truck! You are not going to collect all the trash people feed you. A lot of people are really evil, and a lot of times they are people we can't avoid. You always have to stand up for your rights, and one of those rights is the right to live a happy and peaceful life, and no one has the right to treat you like crap. Think about this, do you rather want an incredible life, with lots of love, wonderful friends, an awesome career, and tons of fun, or do you want to cut your life short? I can guarantee you that if you get out there, and get help, one day you're going to be really happy, plus a huge inspiration to others. Try listening to some inspiring music, escape to the library, get out there and get a life! Be tough and stand up for yourself! You can also try to work off some of that stress in the gym. I know I've climbed out of the deepest abyss. I've survived multiple suicide urges, a near suicide attempt, and long spells of dark terrifying depression. I'm so glad I'm alive today, and so proud of myself. Give your life another chance! You deserve to be happy! Good luck, and please take care of yourself :)

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Ok so my first question for this site is.. I am never loved or accepted by friends, boyfriends or anyone except my family.. I always try to make others happy before myself, but for some reason no one likes me.. I take care of my self, I'm a little over weight and insecure depressed a lot but don't let it show... Question is what can make everyone hate me or not want me, why do they run?

It sounds like you're suffering from low self esteem, and that may be a big reason why you feel so down. I can totally relate to your situation, since I used to feel like that too, and my mom has a similar problem. The most important thing is to build up your self esteem, and always put yourself first. This may sound very foreign to you, but putting others needs before yours will ultimately harm you and those you love, because you will be so dedicated to others, that you will start neglecting your own needs, and when people will depreciate your kindness, you might start feeling so awful, that you'll start acting really selfish, and nobody will understand what happened, and they'll be really mad. You have to know that you deserve wonderful friends and a loving dedicated boyfriend, and no matter what anyone tells you, or what you tell yourself, you know that you are an incredible person who deserves the best life she can have. If your friends haven't realized that, they don't deserve to be with you. Building up your self confidence will attract people to you. Always stand up for your rights, and don't let anyone treat you any lower than a queen, because you are one! Good luck and hope you find your true love soon!!! He's around somewhere looking for you :)

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how can i drive myself to move on and be motivated to reach my dreams when no matter how good i become i'll just be alone. doesn't matter if i get straight As or fail. i want to help others, because i think i am good, but why should i feel like helping others when they don't even truly care about me? always alone, while everyone else hangs with their friends, sharing fun high school memories. and then when i don't do anything, and don't reach my high expectations, because i don't have the fuel to progress, the guilt wears me away until i dissolve. and then everybody acts like they didn't see it coming. i only find true love, understanding, and acceptance from music, but i can't take a record out for a movie. if friendship is so difficult how could i even find romantic love, when i crave that also. crushing on a guy everyday, but not being able to do anything about it. he wouldn't really want someone like me. i guess if you saw me you wouldn't know what's hidden under my plastic smile, and nice clothes, cause if you did you'd probably just run away to someone else not as f***ed

You sound so much like me, and your situation is mine exactly. I genuinely believe I'm a very good person, and I really care for others and know how to make them feel better. Yet somehow I've never been able to keep a single friend. I've had three boyfriends in the past year. Now I'm single and the reasons for my breakups were totally not within my control. My first bf turned out to be gay, the second sexually abused me, and the third decided he didn't want a girlfriend right after we were making out! The ways I lost my friends are crazy. I believed that I was cursed in relationships. It really sucks. My advice would be to take something you're really good at, and makes you feel better like drawing, writing, etc. and really pursue it. People will be amazed and hopefully you'll make new friends. Also building up your self esteem helps a lot and people will take notice and treat you better. Be confident with who you are as a person, and be real. Good luck! Hope you find your true love!

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I have been battling suicide for as long as i can remember. It started because i was being abused by my brother and i had parents who didnt help me or support me when i tried seeking help.
My only outlet was self harm and taking my friends left over valium.
Neither seem to help block it out anymore. I have no coping resources and ive always felt like i dont belong here, like im an alien. I have wanted to kill myself for a while but i always chicken out. How do i do this?

I can totally understand what you're going through. I too have battled suicide for over a year, and was hospitalized twice and put on suicide watch 4 times. Today, only thanks to the tremendous help I've received, I'm doing much better. I'm still very depressed but I know that my life will turn out all right, because I'm willing to give it a chance. I highly recommend seeing a professional and making new friends to get you out of your predicament. I admire you for reaching this point without suicide, but no one can deal with these unbearable emotions alone. You deserve to be taken care of, and hopefully with the right treatment, you'll be a new person, with a new lease on life! Whenever you feel awful, write your feelings down, and remember how strong you are! Right now you're not alive, and life is the solution, not suicide. Think about all your dreams. Give them a chance to come true, because they will! Take care of yourself, and give yourself love, not cuts. You deserve the best life you can have, and no one has the right to abuse you. Good luck!

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