I work as a Customer Laison Complaints Case Officer at a major insurance company, where I have worked for 3 years. I left school when I was 17, as I had some very bad experiences at school and wanted to see what the real world had to offer.
I now live with my boyfriend of 3 years and spend my spare time reading, writing, socialising with friends or just watching some TV.
Times are still hard and I'm trying to cope with various health problems on a daily basis but I'm working my way through things and really want to stop it from getting me down.
I dream of some day going to America and watching a real baseball game (we don't have that at all in the UK) and perhaps finding a job I find creatively fulfilling. Until then, I'm happy trying to be me and making the best of what I have.
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hey everyone. well, here's my question. My daddy moved out of our house (( my parents aren't divorced he just got a job somewhere else and my mom couldn't get out of her contract)) anyway, ever since, i've been sleeping in my moms bed with her, i dont know why, i just do. and if she wont let me, i'll stay up all night until she wakes up to get in her bed. does anyone have an idea whats wrong with me? (link)
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It sounds to me like anxiety. I went through exactly the same thing when I was 12. I used to be trying to sleep alone in my bed and I just couldn't, so I snuck into my parents room and climbed into bed with my Mum. The fact was, I was going through some bad stuff at the time and was suffering with bad anxiety, although I didn't realise it at the time.
I suspect that with your Dad gone, you're probably experiencing a lot of anxiety yourself. You're worried about your Dad, your Mum and yourself and sometimes that gets on top of you so it's natural that you wouldn't want to be alone.
Try talking to your Mum and see what happens. It might be that acknowledging your anxiety helps you to control it.
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What is the difference between body spray, like secret body spray, and deodorant? (link)
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Basically, body spray is a scented spray that you can apply all over your body. It doesn't really mask smells but it can make you smell nice.
Deoderant helps to mask the smell of bad body odour caused by stale sweat. You can also get perfumed deoderants, which are meant to mask the smell of body odour and make you smell nice at the same time, although I find it is better to buy deoderant that is unperfumed and then use body spray.
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Walking down a very busy street today, I saw a gentleman talking to himself and pausing to hear an answer. He was talking to himself but I truly believe, that he believed, there was someone there. Who can say that there wasn't? Could he be talking to the dead or to someone else that lives on a different plain then we do? Maybe, he is the "normal one" and we aren't because we can't see what he is seeing? Has anyone else ever thought of this theory before or am I not "normal"? (link)
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Technically, it is a possibility. Scientists have proven that humans only use approximately 10% of their brain so there have been many theories that perhaps people who are considered 'psychic' or some who are considered 'mentally unstable' and so on, might actually be accessing other, usually untapped, parts of the brain.
In theory, it's perfectly feasible. I think it would just be very difficult to prove.
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My mom told my dad three days ago that she wants a divorce. My mom is unhappy and our family is nothing but fighting. My mom told my little brother who is 13 about this today. he is taking it pretty hard. He is also blaming me when i have nothing to do with it. it rally upets me because my brother is saying this whole thing is my fault. well my dad wants to do counsling. he thinks he can change everything but he cant. my mom doesnt want to live like this. so im supose to move out with my mom and my brothers supose to move out with my dad. Im not sure what the question in this is but ive never moved before. my dad mentioned couple years ago that he was going to leave and me my mom and my older brother cried about it. my little brother was to young to understand. im just looking for advice please help (link)
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You poor thing. Divorce is always a very difficult situation and a lot of people understimate the effect it actually has on the children in the family.
Your brother isn't really mad at you. My guess is that he is concerned in some way that he might be to blame for the split and because he doesn't want to admit to this, he is projecting his anger on to you and trying to make you feel the guilt he currently feels.
I know this is an awful time for you all but you need to speak to your brother about this. You haven't mentioned whether your Mother told him that your Father had an affair but if she feels he's old enough to cope with it then I really think she should tell him. The fact is that this is affecting him very badly and he needs to know the reason it is all happening so that he doesn't keep blaming himself.
Even though things are difficult now, please try to keep thinking of the future. I'm not sure whether you are ready to think of the idea of your parents meeting other people and I don't want you to think about that yet if you aren't ready. However, try to think of the divorce as a way for them both to find some of the happiness that has gone frm their marriage. Yes, marriage is supposed to be a holy union but there are so many reasons why it may break down and the fact is that couples who used to be happy together sometimes don't work out. It's awful and terrible and heartbreaking but it happens and although it's a devestating event, the thing is that in going their separate ways, your parents won't be fighting any more, there won't be more of the hatred and anger all the time. Who knows? Maybe in the future you will be able to do things as a family again.
Most importantly, please bear in mind that a divorce does NOT mean that you are no longer a family. You all have shared that family bond and you will ALWAYS be a family. Just make sure you remember that if someone new comes into your parents' lives. Your family won't be changing, it will just be getting bigger.
However tough it is, try talking to your brother because he's probably bottling up some pretty strong emotions right now and at 13, he probably feels he can't show it. Give him a chance to show it to you and let him know you won't tell anyone what he says. It's okay to be upset and hurt and angry right now. Just try to stick together because you will get through it and there are happier times ahead.
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if someone is smoking downstairs in front of the stove is it better to be upstairs or downstairs to not breathe it in as much?
also what is the thing on top of the stove called-it sucks the smoke or whatever but doesnt work that well (link)
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It really depends where the vent above the stove leads to. If there are no outlets in the upper part of your home (often the case) then it's better to be upstairs. Although smoke does rise, if it is trapped in the venting system, you won't be breathing it in. However, if you are concerned, the best thing to do would be to open a window and stay by it for a while.
The fan above a stove is called an Extractor Fan, by the way.
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if i masterbate will i get pregnate im 17 (link)
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The only way you can conceive is by the sperm produced by a man getting inside you (NOT orally).
Therefore, you can only conceive through sexual intercourse (regardless of whether or not the man in question climaxes, as he produces sperm when aroused) or in other circumstances when sperm is able to get inside your body (again, NOT orally).
So as long as you have no sperm on your hands at the time, no you cannot get pregnant for masturbation.
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I'm 13 and I'm skinny and I have chubby cheeks. Is it possible that I could still have baby fat on my cheeks even though I'm 13? When does baby fat go away? (link)
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Baby fat should really be almost gone by the time you start puberty. However, if you are skinny and still have chubby cheeks then it's unlikely that this is still baby fat.
I know you probably aren't happy with the way it looks but a lot of guys really like girls with cheeks like that. I have the same problem and I always hated my cheeks because when i smile, I look like a hamster. Thankfully, my other half really likes my 'hamster pouches' and I don't worry as much these days.
It really won't put anyone off and it is mostly considered quite attractive so please don't worry.
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i've had my period a lot lately. like i'll have it all month, then have a couple days of not having it. so, my mom said she might put me on the pill.... what are the short term & long term side affects of the pill? do you have to go to a gynocologist to get this? =[ and what will it do for me (like, how often will i have my period & what will it be like, etc.) do you recomend this, or no? thanks. (link)
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It mostly depends on what pill you use. For example, I am on Microgynon 30. It has made my boobs grow a little bit (actually quite a common one for any pill, due to the hormone adjustment) but on the downside, I do think I have been moodier since then.
A lot of people say that the Pill can make you put on weight. This is half true. Actually, some people find that certain pills cause their appetite to increase and this is the cause of the weight gain. It can also cause acne to worsen or get better and can cause headaches or sickness around that time of the month. However, some people with bad cramps and heavy periods find that it can reduce the pain and lighten the periods.
There has been scientific research into the theory that the Pill can increase the chances or you developing heart problems or breast cancer. As yet, there is no clear evidence one way or the other so try not to get to hung up on that.
Unfortunately, there is no real way to tell how a pill will affect you. Plenty of people take it and experience no side effects and those that do have side effects will probably get different ones to other users. There really is no way of knowing until you take it so the best thing to do is try one and then if you find there are problems, move onto the next.
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sometimes, when my period is really heavy blood comes out and it kind of looks like red jelly. is this normal? or should i be concerned? what is it? (link)
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If it's very small clumps then yes, that could be a blood clot. If what you are talking about is fairly large red jelly like clumps then this will be the lining of your uterus. Basically, when a woman produces an egg, the uterus wall thickens, in order to provide a cushion for the egg. If the egg remains unfertilised then the lining falls away and comes out during your period. If you are talking about the larger clumps, this is what it will be.
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I have been friends with this guy since i was 12 im now 17 in the past year n a half we became really close to the point where he will stay at my house and stuff... he went to college but every weekend he would come home and stay here... I used to like him and i told him and he told me that he didn't wanna ruin the friendship and that he didn't feel the same way... One day we were layin in my bed watchin tv and we started messin around and ended up havin sex. It only happen the one time but now he like comes over more and we are always together and everyone thinks we are a couple but were not. All my close friends tells me that he likes me he just won't admit it and i don't kno what to do or think Help
sorry its soo long (link)
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You really need to sit down with this guy and talk about all of this. You say that you have spoken with your friends about this and you have their opinion but what about his?
I know that there has been some feeling so far that he might have used you. I'm not going to deny that as a possibility but it isn't the only possibility. It might be that he likes you too but can't admit it.
However, he shouldn't be having sex with you if he can't tell you how he feels and you shouldn't be having sex with him as long as you don't know where you both stand.
Next time you see him, try and talk to him about this. Tell him that you really like him but you don't know how he feels and you need to know. I would recommend staying away from any phrases that might suggest you can have sex again if he says he likes you, just to be on the safe side. However, do tell him that you have liked him for a long time and you have a right to know how he feels about you. Wait and see what he says to this and then you will have to work out what to do. If he says he doesn't really feel anything beyond friendship for you or if he says he doesn't know how he feels, do NOT have sex with him again, at the very least until he is sure he has feelings for you.
The fact is that although most men don't see it that way, sex is actually quite emotional for most women and if you get into a sexual relationship with him when his heart isn't in it, you will come out feeling the fool and your poor heart will badly broken. So make sure you know how he feels first and then take it from there.
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I'm 13/f
For some reason I have a lot of trouble going to sleep at night. Since my dad is a doctor, he could easily call in a prescription for some mild sleeping medication, but both he and my mom don't think I should be taking anything like that. My mom does give me something VERY mild called melatonin, but once I stop using it I still can't go to sleep. I'm getting worried because school is starting soon and I won't be able to go to sleep early enough to get 8 hours. Does anyone have any advice on techniques I could use to help me get sleepy and then be able to fall asleep? Thanks! (link)
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I went through a similar stage when I was 15 and you have my sympathies because it truly is AWFUL.
Part of the reason you can't sleep is because your body is in the habit now. Basically, if you wake up once or twice around the same time or if you can't sleep a few nights in a row, your body adjusts to that and it becomes more and more difficult to sleep and/or stay asleep.
When I went through a big bout of insomnia, I had a search on the internet for natural ways to get to sleep and I found this website:
http://www.well.com/~mick/insomnia/
I worked through them one at a time and eventually I did find one that helped. Unfortunately, I can't remember which one it was (this was 6 years ago) but as cures will differ from person to person, I would recommend you start from the top and work your way down. Some of them are a little 'out there' but if you're that tired, you have nothing to lose and you never know, the first one might just be the one!
By the way, one method not mentioned on there is Lavender oil. If you can burn some in an oil burner or spray some on your pillow (a lot of pharmacies will have lavender scented pillow spray), it's a relaxant so it might just help drift you off to sleep.
Good luck and I really hope you get some sleep soon.
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You ever feel like your wasted space? Just waiting for someone to prove you wrong. Like you want to hurt yourself but you don't want to feel the pain. What do you do then? (link)
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I actually think that most people have felt like that from time to time.
However, if you are feeling numb and lost and like the whole of you has already died, it's possible you are suffering with depression. The good news is that you CAN beat it. The bad news is that it's very hard to do.
I used to be exactly the same when I was 15 and 16. For two years, I felt nothing. I never laughed, I never cried, I never felt excited. One of my Grandparents died when I was 15 and I cried for about 30 seconds. After that...nothing. Sounds awful doesn't it? I did love her but the truth is, I just couldn't feel anything when it happened. I was in a very bad place and when I was 16, I tried to cut my wrists. I just wanted it all to stop.
It was somewhere around this time my doctor offered me anti-depressents but you know what? I never took them. I know a lot of people recommend them but I'm firmly against them for myself because I want to know what I'm feeling when I'm feeling it. I don't want pills to do it for me.
My break through was a while after this, when my sister and her friend were having a pillow fight in the living room while I was trying to watch TV and they were trying to get me to join in. I refused at first but then I thought about it. I used to LOVE doing things like that and would have jumped at the chance. Okay, I didn't really want to now but I didn't want to do anything, so what was the harm in trying it? The most amazing thing happened. I actually had FUN! I was laughing so much my sides hurt and I was breathless and felt twinges of happiness I thought I'd never feel again.
After that I made up my mind. If anyone wanted me to do something that I just didn't want to do because I was feeling too miserable or numb to want to but would otherwise have enjoyed, I MADE myself do it. It was REALLY hard but it worked and so far, I'm 21 and have never been happier!
Don't get me wrong, I still have 'down days', where I feel so miserable and like there's this thing inside me, eating away at my happiness. I have no friends, I hate my job, sure my boyfriend can't stand me, etc, etc, etc. But these days, it passes and life goes on and I truly think that it is an example of what CAN happen, if you really make yourself do things. It's very difficult but it's worth it in the end. By all means, if you are suffering severe suicidal thoughts or think medication could help then speak to your doctor. But if you think it might be worth a shot at trying to deal with it yourself then please do try. It's a rough ride but it's so worth it when you have a breakthrough. The point I'm making is that life WILL be worth living again so you can't give up. There are so many opportunities you don't even know you're going to get! Twenty years frm now, you could be happily married with 2.5 children in a job you love, or you could be living abroad somewhere and having the time of your life or any other fantastic possibilities! If you give in now, you will never know and belive me, THAT will be the only waste.
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thanks 4 the advice you really helped me!!
i will definatly talk 2 her
depressed girl (link)
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No problem at all! Although I'm not sure which question it was! Sorry....I answer quite a few!
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dear Vikki27
My best mate a i had a fight at school over whos sheose they were mine or hers. At breack she came over and tried to say sorry, but i ignord her. Then at home i felt bad and called her up to say sorry but her mum said she was out with a girl from school Rosie!!!![ she had just stopped bulling me].
At school she was hanging around with her and when i came over to her she said she liked Rosie as a best mate and not me.
what do i do from
bumed out
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Hi there,
First of all, I'm really sorry for the delay in getting back to you.
The problem is that the arguments that cause the most problems are usually over the oddest of things, like this! Unfortunately, it means that they can be very difficult to resolve.
I think the issue over the shoes needs to be kicked out of the door for the minute, because the thing you sound most bothered about is your friend deciding to be best friends with the girl who was tormenting you.
I highly suspect that the main reason for this particular friendship is to make sure you feel jealous and hurt. After all, if you wanted to upset a friend after an argument, who would be more hurtful to befriend? A random girl or the person who made your ex best friend miserable? The good news of this is that it means she shouldn't be as close to this girl as she was to you.
The best thing you can do now is to swallow the whole lot and apologise again. Say you're sorry for the argument and it doesn't matter whose shoes they were because you miss being friends with her and that's more important. Whatever you do, stay away from the topic of this Rosie girl. If she's just friends with her to make you jealous, the worst thing you could do would be to mention her in any way. I know you won't want to hear this...but if she actually does want to be friends with Rosie, you can't say or do anything about it because anything you say will come across wrong. You can be friends with anyone you like, but you can never tell them who to be friends with because it is a surefire way to lose friends.
After you have apologised, see what she says. If she says she is sorry too and wants to be friends then all is well and good and hopefully things will go back to the way they were before. You have these little arguments so that you can eventually find ways to not have them as you get older. For example, should the same situation rise again, you just share them or you make sure neither of you have them or you go out and find another pair of shoes you like and split the cost 50/50 to even the score.
However, if she doesn't want to be friends yet, then effectively you have put the ball back in her court by apologising and after this, it is up to her. Just tell her you wanted to say you were sorry and if she doesn't want to accept your apology or still doesn't want to be friends then it's entirely up to her, but at least she knows where you stand. Then walk away and leave it to her.
Whatever happens, I assure you that there will be other friends and other best friends. Occasionally arguments like this will arise but if that dissolves the friendship then you have to ask yourself, was the friendship ever that strong in the first place if it couldn't survive a fight over something so small?
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Ok....i am really addicted to pop....but i wana stop drinking it and i was wonderin if you know how much weight i would lose in a month from just not drinking pop? (link)
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Unfortunately, this would be impossible to predict because weight loss is down to a number of other factors. For example, your metabolism, weight, height, age, activity levels and more can affect the speed of weight loss.
However, I do support the idea of not drinking fizzy drinks for a month. I know how hard it is to try to give up something you feel addicted to (I tried giving up chocolate and failed miserabley!!!!) so if you do decide to stop drinking it, make sure you have something else to drink/eat/do when the cravings kick in because if you're sat in front of the TV or shuffling your feet round anywhere, it will get very difficult!
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my best friend has bein with her boyfriend for 5 months rite they have had sex about 17 times...
He doesnt believe in using a condom,and they havent once. 4 times shes put me under pressure saying shes pregnet and i have bein with her through it no matter what. She lost the baby the last time and the last 3 times was jus a miss hab. But now you see its happeing again she she hasnt come on here periods 4 2 months and can feel movement in her womb what shall i do?? Shes only 14 and her mom will kill her but i think she wants to keep it Please help me!! (link)
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I used to have a friend who was much the same and it took a long time but eventually, you just have to learn that you can tell them what they should and shouldn;t do for their own good and have them complain to you after they don't listen only so many times.
The fact of the matter is, this 'boyfriend' of hers is completely disrespecting her rights and she isn't standing up for herself. I know what it's like when you find someone you truly care about and you want to do anything to make them happy. But you don't jeapordise your own wellbeing and future to do it and if this guy truly cared about her, he either wouldn't have sex with her at all (especially considering she is underage)or he would ensure that she is protected against pregnany, Sexually Transmitted Diseases and Sexually Transmitted Infections.
You need to tell her that you will stand by her this one last time but after this, you just can't keep supporting her allowing this guy to put her through all this! Yes, she's your friend and you care but if she doesn't listen to reasonable advice and take care of herself, regardless of what her boyfriend says, you can't do anything more to help her and therefore, why should you have to always pick up the pieces following the consequences of her actions? Her boyfriend is acting very selfishly right now and it's not fair on you or your friend.
After this, she HAS to make sure she gets a check done to ensure she has no infections or diseases. If his normal attitude towards sex is not to use contraceptives then there's a good chance he could be carrying something and might have infected your friend so she needs to get checked out right away. Not all of them show symptoms.
Please, please don't let this get to you too much. Your friend needs to start taking responsibility for her actions rather than depending on you and more importantly, she needs to stand up to her boyfriend and stop having sex with him unless he is willing to stop putting her through this and just put a condom on.
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14/f
all of my friends drink and ive never even tried or got drunk. they all want me too and everything but im afaird and i dont know if i should.. and if it really is that bad..i know soooooo many people who have drank and they seem alright. but just scared and i need advice ! (link)
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You know what? I'm 21 now and I didn't start drinking til I was 18. I actually started drinking my first alcohol on my 18th birthday.
I know peer preassure is tough but you have to stay strong against it because if you give in once, it's easier to give in time and time again.
I've never given in to peer pressure in my life. Yes, it can make you lonely sometimes but I have NO REGRETS about not giving in. I've never done drugs, never even touched a cigarette, I've only ever been hungover once (trust me, it's a HORRIBLE experience and I don't understand why people keep trying to give themselves them!!)and I've never stolen from or tormented people just because the people I was with thought it would be funny.
You only get one shot at life. What do YOU want to do with it?
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I know this is dumb, but I want to see a ghost. Are there any techniques to find a spirit or something other than a Ouji board? I won't use another Ouji board again...we were at my friend's birthday party and she got an Ouji board and we used it..and a spirit came out and pushed my friend and she broke her arm...I'm droning on, sorry, but yeah..thanks. (link)
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What you need to do is get a copy of a book by a man called Peter Underwood. He is *the* authority on spirits and the paranormal and the book is called Ghosts and How To See Them.
You need to make sure you read the book carefully, as it tells you how to carry out a professional ghost hunt, without getting into trouble, legally or otherwise. It also provides a list of the equipment you need.
In the meantime, the only other thing you can do is start tracking down some haunted areas. Here in the UK, we apparently have a ridiculous number of ghosts per square mile in places like York, so it's fairly easy. I don't know how easy or hard it will be unfortunately but you could try a Google search for haunted locations in your local area.
Lastly, always take a responsible adult as most vigils take place at night time in the dark and you need to ensure you are safe at all times.
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i have diarreah all the time. whats wrong with me ? (link)
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I used to have a similar problem so I am hoping I can help you.
If you are getting diarrhora and/or constipation sporadically, accompanied with bad wind and bowel cramps then it might be you suffer from Irritable Bowel Syndrome. This is a condition where the bowel becomes spasmodic, making you either have to go to the loo very urgently or bunging you up so you can't go at all. I suffer from this condition myself and can tell you it can often be accompanied by a stomach ache and a fever so you really can feel quite poorly when an attack strikes.
Although a lot is known about IBS, it's very difficult to pin down a precise cause, as many sufferers find that they have different triggers. For example, some people can't eat certain foods, some people get it when they are very stressed and so on. There are treatments available which can help but you should always see a doctor to be on the safe side.
Another alternative is a food allergy or intolerance. The two are not to be confused.When you eat a food or drink something you are allergic to (such as gluten in sufferers of Coeliac Disease), your immune system goes into 'attack' mode. This means if you eat something you are allergic to on a regular basis, your immune system becomes weak and you may notice some malnourishment (again, as is common with an allergy like Coeliac Disease) or that you get ill much more often.
An intolerance is basically where your body is unable to digest particular items of food or drink. For example, one of the most common foods for intolerance is lactos, a sugar protein found in cows milk, used in ice cream, cheese, chocolate and so on. Reactions to a food you are intolerant to can vary from headaches and migraines to nausea, stomach cramps and very commonly, diarrhoea.
Allergies and intolerances can be quite tricky to diagnose, as the most common approach is an elimination diet, where you take out one of the most common foods for such reactions at a time for a period of time, to see if your symptoms improve. However, some allergies can be tested with pin-prick tests or endoscopies.
Again, if you think you may suffer from an allergy or food intolerance, you should always speak to your doctor before taking any action. I know when it's making you feel ill, it can be tempting to try the elimination diet yourself but you should never under any circumstances cut staple foods from your diet without medical advice. If you have a chat with your doctor as soon as possible, s/he might be able to advise you as to what it is that is causing you to be ill so often and provide you with a course of action to get better.
If you need any more information, feel free to ask.
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22 Female.
I have been with my boyfriend for a year and a half, we are very much in love with eachother and fancy eachother. Sex has always been very difficult and painful for me, and such a huge struggle, but earlier this year it did become easier.
It's just this year, i haven't wanted anything sexual, a few times this year ive gone through spells of 3-4 days when all i've wanted to do is sexual things with him, but the rest of the time i always knock him back or if he touches me i move his hand away.
I do want to have sex, it's just such an ordeal with the pain and the time it takes for my body to be ready, and i dont get turned on during sex and it takes a while for me to be turned on in foreplay and i really aren't giving it enough time because i keep pushing him away.
i dont know whats wrong with me, i do suffer terribly with depression so we think it could be that, aswell as everyday on-going physical and mental illnesses.
I know he gets frustrated and has though it's because i dont famcy him but i do, i think he's gorgeous and i love him so much.
i just want to understand why i do this, and if there are anyways to get me "in the mood" and find my labido and just enjoy it without turning him down all the time.
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You have my sympathies. I actually have exactly the same problem. It's not that you don't enjoy it at all, it's just that it REALLY hurts and it puts you off doing it!!
I expect the reason you don't really enjoy it as much as you should is because you're so geared up towards expecting it to hurt that you can't relax into it. After all, it's hard to enjoy something when you know it will be painful. Perhaps the depression does play a part but I have to admit, your problem sounds more physical than it does mental. I suspect that if you weren't in pain every time you had sex, you would be able to enjoy the whole bedroom experience much more.
I would recommend you try lube but if it really hurts that much, I don't think that would help enough.
Now, I have heard of a condition called Vaginismus, which may well be what is causing you problems. It's not uncommon by any means and after doing a quick Google search I found the following website:
http://www.vaginismus.com/
It might be a good idea if you and your boyfriend have a look through the information. It's important also that you note under the "What Is It?" page that it says "It is not triggered deliberately or intentionally by the woman but rather happens unconsciously."
Please don't worry about this. According to the website, there is treatment available and it gives you hints as to how to make sex easier.
If you need to talk about it at all, please feel free to send me a message.
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