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Hi I'm Lily; 15 year-old Amercian girl. My friends have called me a fortune cookie...I don't know why ;) . I love to help, inbox me, if you like to. I specialize in Relationship & Friendship. I love my best friend Seth, I couldn't ask for a better friend (and hopefully one day boyfriend). He's quite the inspiration for me, I couldn't thank him enough for everything he's done for me. So I decided to help other likes he's helped me.-Lily
advice
ive been dating this guy for 3-4 weeks now. I go on my facebook this morning and he changed his relationship statues to single, and changed his myspace. I called him two times and he didn't answer either. He took me of his tops (i was his number one) and that was yesterday, and now he has some other chick as his top 3. and on his statues it says m.w. (like the girls initials).what is going on? he is like ignoring me, i don't get it. i just didn't think he was like that. can some one please give me advice?
Oh, er... Yeah, he moved on& or is a cheater! Sorry to break it but he totally doesn't care about for him to move on- so I say dump him before he dumps you. And if it will make you feel better send a angry coment or something on 'her' profile.
-lily
14/f
1. I'm turning 15 in 3 weeks. I knew this guy, and he's a (graduating) senior, but he's still 17. We used to have a thing, we really were attracted to each other, and we talked a lot but we stopped a few months ago. And I'm gonna see him this summer. And I'll be blunt. I want him again. I've never had a boyfriend/kissed and honestly I just miss him. If things turn out right, I want to hook up with him. I'll be 15, and he'll be 17. Is that..illegal? If we hooked up? But absolutely nothing more...just making out. I just don't want to make trouble or anything.
2. I feel stupid and desperate. I haven't been waiting for him, and staying away from guys at MY school because of him. But the summer is coming up, and I never got to really be with him. I feel like a loser for wanting to get with him again. I'm scared he'll just be like, oh you had your chance. But it's not my fault, we lived in separate towns and it was impossible to meet up with him. I just need opinions on whether I should flirt with him again or keep away and act like he's old news to me. And if I do decide to go for it, how do I go about it? How do I make him want ME so I don't have to chase him and seem really desperate?
The only way it'd be illegal is if you jumped to far (sex)- that being U.S. rule. Though to be on the safe side you might wanna look it up, if it helps my friend she was only 12 & dated a 19 year-old- for like a week. You said you've had a thing, maybe he might miss you. I say go for it be a Subtle Flirt. What's your heart say? Follow it! Hope I helped.
-lily :)
This is gonna sound like a stupid question, but do guys really care about how much a girl weighs? i'm definiely not the skinniest person but i think i am really pretty. im also a really nice person, with a great sense of humor. but im 21 years old, and ive never had a boyfriend. so do guys really only care about looks?
I can understand were your coming from. I'm not the skinniest either, Im also nice, sweet & careing. Even though I don't have that much confidence *very good thing to have*
It just seems like all guys care about is the outside not at all about the inside, which the inside is what matters. Guys can be quite the b****
sometimes- but that doesn't mean you won't find Mister Right one day!
Don't give up! - look at me I'm only 15 & given up which has got me No dates, boyfriends, ect.- Don't give up! Have hope!And if you want wear less covering clothing. Maybe try asking a guy instead of waiting for them to ask you for a realationship.
Hope I helped.
-Lily
Well i really like this guy i told him i liked him he said he didnt like me just only as a friend but i really like him. I always have and i dont think ill stop liking him.
What should i do?
Been there, And somewhat still there. I've stayed friends with him for awhile. Trust me, you'll get over it- I think I did... I don't know this guy, but he might turn out to be a player, like mine.
Inbox me on details, I could probally help better.
-Lily
okay. so i know this is gona sound werid, but i just dont know what to do. theres this guy, i've known him for like 6months? idk. but bottem lines hes so crazy, sometimes a little to excessive but, i love it. hes not afraid of what anyone thinks and doesnt let anything stop him. hes completely off the wall when we hang out w/ a bunch of ppl. but when its just us, its so much different, he can be crazy but he can also be serious. i feel like im falling for him, even though i know i shouldnt. sometimes i think he is too, but heres the catch. hes told me before, in general terms not about us, that hes gona wait until he has his life straight before he dates anyone. and i get that. but the thing is, is that he's prob. going to be moving like 500 miles away soon. and its killing me, knowing im not gona be able to see him. its not the best thing for me to tell him how i feel, because that will just bring more hurt, and mix up everything. i just dont know what to do. he's all i think about. and its killing me. help please. i wanna cry it hurts so much. we relate on so many levels & i dont know what imma do without him if he actually does move. =/.
I can somewhat relate to your problem. If he acts completely different around you then anyone else he probally does like you back, now wether are not he knows that, is well unknowen. What I did, Knowing that it could mess are friendship- I told him. According to the entire world I was extremely lucky that he is still friends with me. I say it wasn't luck...But who knows as for me, my guys a player.
That probally didn't I appologize for that. Point is I say tell him! You never now what's around the corner tell you go around the corner.
Good Luck!
-Lily
16/f
Right, so i really like this guy(who is 16), but the problem is he has a girlfriend, but liek two weeks before he started dating her he asked me to be his girlfriend and i said no cause i didn't think i lieked him liek that, anyway now i do. Would it be so dreadful for me to flirt with him a little and try n win him back? Any tips are useful, ty.
:3
You are not being bitchy, just jealousy maybe.
I say bring your Flirt on!
Go for it Girl, make him your own!
-Lily :)
alright, well me and my boyfriend brokre up because of alot of random things. But he says that i am his bestfriend still? Yet the inly time he talks to me is when he either is bored orr needsd somethiing. its never "hey ____, how're you". ughh i dont know anymore
Hmm... Well, that's most deffinately is fishy. He might still like you and doesn't know how to deal, I know the pieces you have to put the puzzel together: Him, You, Friendship, Like, Hate, Horphomnes.
The more I know the better I can give advice, for now I totally say wether he 'likes' you or not he's not sure how to act ('approach') you anymore.
-Lily :)
hi. 17/m.
whenever i get close to a girl..i always enter the "friend zone". And once i enter said zone..i cant leave. So basically, there's this girl that i like. We recently have been getting close, and i asked her out...she said "i dont want to ruin our friendship...." etc etc, and that maybe one day there may be something ( i told her it was a dare after she said no..so it wouldnt be awkward later on).
The next day, i see her and her two friends, and she walks away. When her friends see me..they just look at me...i asked the girl i like, why she was looking..she said, "nothing...dont worry...it was good..."
i think she's got here eye on another guy, but what my question iss...is...is she brushing be off politely, or does she actually think that there may be something oneday. how do i know? like body signals, etc. thanks.
Some signals: you'll catch her starring at you, nerviously talk to you maybe even do-up her outfit or somethin like that it sounds like shes nervious about talking to you again, if shes natrauly shy then she does like you- I know that because I'm a shy type... If you really like her, don't look back ask her for a relationship/date if she says that friendship thing again give her your honest oppion. Girls love honestity & (90% of them) prefer guys to ask them out.
Hope I helped,
Lily
I have been dating bill for eight months. We are both 16 years old. We wrote notes to each other every day which we often exchanged at lunchtime and bought each other little gifts. But i just found out that the last two months he has been spending with another girl. I had no idea this was going on until bill told me he thought we should break up. At first i was stunned. Now i just cry every night. I'm not interested in meeting any other guys. I cant study and i don't want to anywhere with my friends what should i do ?
I say if your really upset, try jealousy or act like you forgot about him completely- that should drive him insane- basiclly just do what you did before you met him. Trust me, I know it's upsetting, frustraining maybe even confusing. Sad fact, guys will do whatever they can to get what they want- My friend Kyle said "Guys find it extremely cute when girls mess up, exspeacially when they like that guy." Frustrating right? Well, ask your-self this do you wanna let bill controll your life? Don't let some guy controll you. Hope I helped
-lily
Bill you have a bill- bill
P.S. sorry couldn't help it.
Hey everyone. 19/male here.
My girlfriend (18) and I have been going out for almost 8 months, and so far we have mostly had fun. This has been my first serious relationship and I am completely in love with her. We do fight somewhat often, but we usually manage to work it out and make up. Unfortunately, we both have different goals for both the summer and for the future... she wants to move out by the end of the summer because she can't stand her family and needs to get her own space and be her own person. She says this is a necessity and she has to do it with or without me. I originally told her I was on board, but after really thinking about that I don't know if i'm ready, or if I can take a semester off of college to work to make the money to move out. I've already told her this and she became extremely upset, and we both don't know what to do. We both love each other very much and are extremely attached but have different goals. I know if we broke up we both would be devastated severely. While I have considered it I feel like I could never do it because I care and love her so much. I guess my question is basically, what should I do....?
First I wanna say, True love ALWAYS finds a way.
That is tough, maybe she could help?
Rent a appartment share it- I heard from cuz appartments are the cheapest thing right now. If you do get a place try to something that could be payed maybe chick-fil-a is hiring they have VERY felixable hours maybe you and or her could work there. I'm not sure, but if she doesn't already have a job, she could get one. As for the college...
The best thing for right now, I say is hold that plan save up some funds.
Let her now that you love her and would like to move with her but you wanna wait. If she loves you she'll understand.
Good luck-
lilly
18- female. so i've been friends for this guy joe for about four years now. we were like best friends until his girlfriend came between us for three years. i see him like once a month now when i use to be with him all the time. i was talking to him last night and i poured my heart out to him. this is what i said:
today i was really mad and so i went out with matt. well he wanted to know what was wrong and i realized that i couldnt let myself tell him and it made me reazlie that you really the only guy that i could tell everything to before but now i pretty much feel like i can't tell you anything. its like were not even friends anymore and that scared the sh*t out of me because i cant trust any other guy. and now that i dont talk to you anymore, especially when i needed you the most, everything is messed up now and i seriously really do neeed you like how we use to be before. your the only one i can tell anything to or do anything with without it being awkward at all.
and this is what he said back:
well dont worry linds, i got you.
and i was like are you sure about that? and he was like of course.
i was just wondering, when he told me "i got you" what do you think he meant by that? im guessing there could be many meanings but i dont really understand? like he will always be there or what?
And that sitch. I'd say he ment he has your back, he'll protect you.
Like any TRUE friend would.
Ok... I basically just led some guy on... I met him on myspace and he added me because he was just adding random people and I live in the same town as him. Well I always talk to everyone who adds me... I don't like adding people as friends until I at least have one conversation with them. So we started talking and all and he was nice and then we were texting. Today is saturday and we've only been texting since about tuesday. Apparently I'm his girlfriend now :/ I'm sooo confused because I told him I didn't want him to call me his girlfriend yet because I had only agreed to go on ONE date just to MEET him. I told him I'd just gotten out of a bad relationship and everything and he said he understood and would wait and stuff. Then he started being really sweet and he put up on his myspace how I make him happy and stuff :/ I didn't want to seem mean so I did the same. Yeah I know, I'm stupid to have done that... So now, after the "date" which was TERRIBLE because I'm really shy and so was he, he thinks we're boyfriend and girlfriend??? :/ I mean... I didn't tell him the date was terrible... I actually told him it was amazing -_- he asked me to my face how it went for me and I panicked... so yeah I've basically led this poor guy on and I DON'T WANT TO DATE HIM. I'm pretty much avoiding him right now. He doesn't go to my school so the only way I'd ever see him is if him and I planned a date or something... but I just really don't like being supposedly taken :/ I hate getting boyfriends because I seriously suck at committing... please help me :( I know I should have just told him the truth and not encouraging him by returning his sweetness... but I just really don't want to date anyone right now :/ plus he's like 17 which is about 3 years older then me because I JUST turned 15 about a week ago. I feel really bad :( help please?
One, I wanna say YOUR NOT A IDIOT!!
Unfortanitely, us teenagers are full of misstakes. Probally, most of are teen years will be spending making misstakes. It's just how life is. Sad fact really...being I'm also 15, I feel your pain.
As for 'Mr.MySpace', if you will.
Sounds like he took it wrong. Just some ideas and what'll happen: Avode him= he'll think your cheating which'll lead to (90% chance of) no friendship at all, Repeat…basiclly myspace/text him tell'in him you don't want a realationship & are still get'in over your last one- but in a more less emotional, short run-by way=he probally will have a fit about talking about feelings, like a semi-normal guy. If anything just repeat over&over "I'm sorry,not interrested" or pretend he never exsisted maybe even mean, when someone asks act clueless that kinda thing... Sorry, if I didn't help.
•_• lily
15/F
Okay so me and my boyfriend have been dating for 9 months ago yesterday. And for those 9 months I feel like im the ONLY ONE trying to make any effort keeping us together. For example im usually the one to call him I call him when I wake up and before I go to sleep. I see him over the weekends and sometimes at my house during the week. I think the reason he doesnt call me so much is because my parents told me I cant see him so I have to keep our relationship a complete secret from my family for 9 months. He says he loves me but I mean I talk to him maybe 3 times a day MAX and maybe 5 mins each if even that. And he says stuuff like this when I call "Hey , yeah Im doing chores right now ill call you when im done." Thats his excuse right now he said that at 11 this morning and its now 5:30 and still no call from him. I highly doubt it takes him that long too do a couple chores. And then that makes me have mixed feelings, like I try to hard to keep us together. I told him yesterday about how it makes me mad that he doesnt call me after he says "ill call you in like 10 mins" and it takes him hours or I just end up calling him. He makes me feeel like im the only one trying to keep us together and he doesnt care about us. I do want to stay with him so dont say break up with him. Do you think just not calling him for a while and see if he makes the effort to call me would be the best thing to do? Thannnks(:
Sorry it was so longggg.
Jealousy. With-out breaking up with him, make him feel that if he doesn't try hold up his part in the relation-ship he'll lose you. Don't call him/ talk to him inless he calls/talks to you first (“hey” or “hi” are acceptable). Do you know where I'm getting at? Give him a taste of his own medicine. That's what I think though, Good luck.
-lily
Alright so this was 2 months ago, me (15/f) and my basically almost boyfriend (16/m) were at a hockey game for our highschool, and after it he said he was staying at a friends house, well i got a weird feeling but i trusted him. The next day after my basketball game, i get a text from his friend saying its coming directly from my boyfriend that he made out with a nother girl, but he was super drunk. I hear different things all the time, it was his fault, it was the girls, it was his friends fault, but it still makes me feel terrible and ugly and useless and makes me want to vomit just thinking about it. And when i do think about it, i just wanna cry and get mad at my boyfriend cause it bugs me. I could never do something like that to him, drunk or sober. I know he's really sorry but sometimes i wonder if i was stupid enough to forgive him. I know he cares about me like crazy and said he would never do anything like that again. But i just can't get the thought out of my head like i go crazy thinking about it. Blah i just wish it would have never happened, life would be easier, any ideas would help, i apologize that it's long:/
He's a minor? I'm sorry but that right there is your sign. Big drinkers, usally have a reason. He's the one that should at least behave when hes drunk! If his friends are there, whats stoping them from stoping him? Somethings most defeintally up, he probally: just doesn't care and not sure how to tell you, a family issuse he doesn't wanna talk about or likes you on a more emotional level he has yet to quite understand himself. What's your heart say about all this?
Did I help? Hope I did.
-lily
Hey, i was the girl that asked this question - http://www.advicenators.com/qview.php?q=561649
Well, now ryan is complaining that i have been hooking up with half of the guys in my school, which isnt true at all. i have only hooked up with about 8 guys since he has broken up with me. and most of them out of depression.. he starts SCREAMING at me, that im a slut.
i didnt state this in my last question but i am 16 and i am a sophmore, and he is 18 and is a senior.
Ryan-
lol ur rediculous....go ahead hook up with every1 and be slut
he imed that to me this morning on ichat. i got a text from him at 1 am last night
"Ryan- soo.. you hook up with jake 45 minutes after i broke up with you. coool."
like, mature much?
heres another one-- ryan: "you say you wanna get back together. you say your waiting. but all i see is you hooking up with one guy after the other. i dont like being lied to. ontop of that, you get mad and upset whenever you hear im getting with someone else.. when your getting with like half the school."
me: "im not getting with half the school. i cant talk now im out with people"
ryan: "laura, dont even try to deny anything. just stop lying its pathetic. have fun mackin it with whoever you are with."
me: "erite,, maybe i will"
ryan: "goodbye"
me: "oh, im pretty sure i never said i was waiting, i said the opposite. and then im pretty sure you were never going to ask for me backkk sooo... whatever"
ryan: "maybe i was... ever think of that?"
me: "HAHAHA nope"
he texts me later that night
ryan: "im gunna ask you something right now, and if you dont answer it truthfully ill know. dont bother trying to cover your ass so im not mad.. because if you lie i promise you its over for good and ill never talk to you ever again. just tell me the truth and maybe ill still talk to you. how many people have you hooked up with since we broke up?"
me: i told you.. im over my texting. call me if you care that much.
ryan: for 50 cents i think this is worth it.
me: alright.. 5 or 6... maybe 8 guys..
ryan: why do you find it necessiary to lie to me?
me: im not....
ryan: cuz i remember asking you 10 mins ago and you said HAAHA no. this right here laura.. is why we cant get back together anytime soon. all i keep hearing is im sorry. and you lying constantly.
me: well, sory is all i can say at this point. you have NO buisness in who im with and shit now, you broke up with me.
ryan: you act like i dumped you for no reason. i was always willing to work things out. and one thing led to another and you hook up with all of these people and tell me all these lies. blah blah blah. apparently you had other plans.."
today. my friend katie calls me up and says "ryan had sex with the girl he cheated on you with"
i go.. really? tahts cool. i dont care. i dont have the tears for it anymore. i dont know how. i just dont... it doesnt hurt me anymore. he is yelling at ME for hooking up with guys.. HOOKING UP? i should punch him in the face for having sex with that girl!
he texts my firend christie saying "BEING SINGLE IS AMAZING I CAN FUCK WHOEVER I WANT! i had no idea what i was missing. im sooo glad i broke up with her." ...immature much? he knew i was with her, thankfully i just droppd her off at her house 10 mins before he texted her....
i dont know what to say to him. but i want to make a closure... a nice, straight forward, a little bit bitchy closure. i deleted him off of facebook already... so, thats a start. i think im just gunna make a huge closure. but i need your help...telling him that i am done.
thank you in advance! :)
Alright, I say just go up to him and yell maddly something like “I'M THE SLUT, YEAH RIGHT! I KNOW WHAT YOU DID YOU B****! YOU HAVE NO F***ING RIGHT TO BE MAD AT ME I'M NOT THE ONE WHO CHEATED! WHO DO YOU THINK YOU ARE, PRINCE CHARMING? GET A GRIP! DO YOU EVEN REALIZE WHAT YOU'RE DOING WITH YOUR LIFE?! AND YOU STILL YELL AT ME FOR TRING TO GET OVER YOUR A$$ FOR LIEING TO ME!!” maybe kick him were the sun don't shine....Sorry if that was to bitchy ,but I'd thought my advice would be as good as it was before. Stick it to him good!
～lily
ive been dating some boy for lik 1month and a half. all thee sudden hes acting really wierd hess ignoring me not writing back to me but hes writing back to my bestfriend. what should i do? should i ask him whats going on or just let it go?:/ im a girl btw
help please
He might have lost his ''love'' for you, and doesn't know how to tell you. I would definatly talk to him.
Do what you think is right! ^^ Good luck -lily
16/f
Sorry it’s so long but I’m so confused!
So me and my ex(jack) had broken up about two weeks ago. We remained friends but I still had feelings for him but he didn’t want a relationship anymore so I said ok lets still be friends. So when ever he was down he would txt me and we would talk about it and even if it was just to talk we‘d text all day. Me and his best friend(dave) are also really close. Me and dave tell each other everything any anything and I can completely trust him. I realized i wasn’t over jack and jack said that he still had the urg to kiss me but he felt like it wasn’t the right time to go out again. I took the chance and he came over one night and things happened. My feelings got stronger but all of my friends said to stop because if he really wanted me he would ask me out again. So I tried but I couldn’t stay away.
Then one night me and dave were talking on the phone and somehow the conversation led on to me and jack. He spilt everything out about jack. Like how jack was always saying how unattractive my face is to him and that jack compared me to his ex saying I’m a 2 and shes a 10. Dave told me that Jack actually cheated on me within just a few days of us going out and that he only went out with me because he felt like it was a good deed. I knew something was up but I didn’t know it was this bad. Jack said that I made him so happy to his other friends and he said that I was soo beautiful and soo important to him but it was all just a lie? Everyday after the break up and even that night he would still give me long hugs and text for hours. I also knew that everything dave told me was true because a couple of our mutual friends said the same thing. I was soo mad because I don’t believe he had any right to do that to me. So I avoided him the day after I found out and the next day when he tried to give me a hug I pushed him away and told him not to touch me. I had a lot of people backing me up and I was happy to have the support. Then at lunch he said hi to me when the bell rang but I just rolled my eyes shook my head and walked away. I’ve always had bad relationships so I’m a bit use to this but however I don’t think he had any right. I haven’t told him why I’m mad but hes still asking for forgiveness. Should I give it to him and did i do the right thing?
Thanks!!!
Well, guys will do ANYTHING to get to something they want like a so called ''Hottie'' or the ''TV'' guys can be EXTREMELY self-fish, but it's best to do the right thing! What's your heart say? Best advice I can give you is follow your heart! Good luck!^^
Hi there. I'm an 18/M.
I have a big self esteem problem when it comes to girls. Normally, I am a really confident guy. Not scared to meet new people or speak to large crowds. But I have this problem when it comes to girls. See, when I meet a girl I like, instead of asking her out like a normal person would, I quickly idealize her in my mind to the point where I have convinced myself that she is way too amazing to ever want to talk to me. Then, because I have made her out to be so perfect, flawless, I stay in love with her for a year, or more, until I have completely destroyed my friendship and my chances with the girl. This problem has followed me through 13 years of school.
Now, I'm a Senior. Never had a girlfriend, and I'm doing it again with this amazing girl. How do I fix myself?
If your really nervous, try little things compliment her & then walk away (depends on the type of girl), wink at her, leave her notes, give her a flower! Try little things! Giver her more & different attention then anyone else! She'll catch on! The better I know her: description & or how she acts. I can give the better advice.^^ Best wishes & Good luck! -Lily
http://www.advicenators.com/qview.php?q=561630
Well that was the question I submitted before. The thing is that me and this girl used to be good friends until a week ago when I supposedly "played" her friend around. I spoke to her, apologised to her in a large manner (writing a large essay!), she said everything was cool and told me that she's "willing" to talk to me IF I put in the effort, but when we used to talk, our conversations were dry, so I got rather annoyed and told her that "if I'm wasting my time trying to build back this friendship, let me know" and she told me, "there's no point in wasting your time, I don't want to talk to you".
I don't know what to do, I wanna get back with her, but she treats me like shit, so I want to get over her...help? thanks!
Owch! That's rough. One NEVER I repeat NEVER mess with any girls' friends, they'll 'kill' you! She sounds pretty mad at you, I don't know exsactly what went on but this could mean alot of things, if you still have feelings for her, she probbly just exspected better from you she'll warm back up you might wanna give her a little room till then. Build your friendship back up first, earning a girls trust again isn't easy be on your toes! Also remember: all girls are sisters they look out for each other, they hate cheaters; the less they've dated & younger they are the more/higher there exspectations are and lastly girls hate losing friendships. Sorry I know theres more I was gonna say ,but right now I'm little brain-dead, I'll do my best to remember! But then again with girls theres alot to remember...^^ Hope I help'd best wishes, Good luck!! -lily
P.S. you can always ask me! After all I am a teenaged girl.
So, i went out with Ryan for 6 months. We broke up last month, the day after our 6 month on the 25th :/.
A while back, in the beginning of our relationship.. he cheated on me with a girl. Well, this girl lives pretty far.. about 500 miles away. She comes down here sometimes with her friend. So, she was down one weekend and i decided to hang out with her. I have been talking to her for a long time, just trying to keep peace with her. Supposeably Ryan knew i was hanging out with her and got mad, well.. if i want to get to know the girl and just keep peace with her.. and talk to her about what really happened.. im allowed to as Ryans girlfriend..right?
Well, he got reallyreally mad and broke up with me because "he was no longer happy"... i dont understand?
we were takling on sunday, and this is what i said to him...
Me-
i have been thinking about our 6 months together.. i thought about how we both made some mistakes, but you made the bigger ones. I gave you about 2 chances.. like after you cheated on me and broke up with me in january. After those happened, i took you back after consideration.. i screw one thing up, (a pretty big thing, but not AS big as the things you did) and you break up with me.. i dunno... i just have been thinking about that lately.. almost all break. i know i lied to you about what i was doing, but not necessarily, i left her out of the plans because i was not 100% sure if it was gunna actually happen till we got to her house. i know i was talking to her but anthony kept changing his mind and everything.. but thats not what this is about. its about how i gave you alot of chances, and i do something wrong and you just end it. you dont consider giving me another chance.. idunno. i just was thinking about that, i thought you should know what was on my mind.
Ryan-
well i knew ud bring this up eventually
and i havnt figured out a way to tell you this...i tried but i guess you didnt see it how i was trying to say it
i didnt break up with you because of some unforgivable mistake
i didnt break up with you out of anger.
but after that happened. nothing felt right. and i still dont know why
i wasnt happy
and i dont know why
i couldnt stay in a relationship that i wasnt hhappy in .
and i couldnt pretend to be happy when i wasnt. i just couldnt. not around you
this isnt about forgiving you. ive already done that. it wasnt that big of a deal what happened. i mean you lied but w.e i got past it
its just i wasnt happy
laura i wasnt happy wen i went to bed everynight. and i wasnt happy wen i woke up
id have nightmares every single night. EVERY NIGHT
somenights id wake up crying .or sweating. or out of breath
i just love this kid soo much. i dont know what to do...
i got in a fake facebook open relationship. he texted me at 1 am "YOU CAN GO FUCK YOURSELF, fuckin goin out with brandon. u have some fucking nerve" i texted him back like.. ry its fake.. and he was like "this is so redicilous i cant believe u would ever do that."
ever since he snapped on me.. (that was sunday night/monday morning).. i didnt talk to him. it is now wednesday and today he tried to pull me out of my 8th period class.. and i saw him. my mouth dropped. i was like WHAT THE HELL. i didnt leave my class. i learned to have some dicipline for myself.
and he doesnt understand why i cant be friends iwth him, its hard to be in love and friends with someone. its terrible.
Lately, i havent been thinking much of it. but, i know deep down i am not over this and i really need to get back with him. after everything that has happened, i still love him. and i need him. he keeps telling me taht he loves me. i dont know what to do! im in such a messy situation. i just need help. i need something that i can say to him, that will get him back maybe? i dont konw. i just want him back. i want him to come chasing for me. i want to be in his arms. i want to kiss him. i miss him so much:/
the other day. i was at my friends house. we were talking and in mid sentance it came out "i miss ryan.." i almost went hysterical. it was the first time i admitted to it.
i hung out with him thursday night. i snuck out and slept over his house. we had sex. it felt like the good old times. im just so DESPERATE for him! i need him!!!!
if you guys can feel my pain.. i dont nkow. but i hope you do. maybe someone with experiance with something like that will help?
btw ever since we broke up he hasnt been the same, hes been getting drunk with other girls.. and he isnt a drinker and driver. he did. i screamed at him. i lost all respect for him after that. i couldnt believe he drove drunk after HIS FRIEND died from it! the guy he used to be would say "nah, sorry i gotta drive"... i dont know what is going on with him. he isnt the same person anymore.
Wow-that was long! But descriptive. Did you have sex with Ryan? Before or After?～anyway sounds like you got your-self a Fairytale!^^ Just my suspiction ,but sounds like love. TALK TO HIM! Get your courage up tell him how you feel/think about all that. Goood luck! -lily