I'm a 23 year old f and I'm a complete sexual virgin. Never kissed or did anything sexual, ever. There are two main reasons. I grew up in a religious community with the belief that sex is for marriage, and I've accepted that until now. Also, during my late teens, I experienced a serious illness and didn't respond well. So I was distracted from most normal things dating and friendships for a few years. I'm better physically but since I've come to college, I haven't moved on with dating.
I still like the idea of saving sex for serious relationships, but I'm so sexually frustrated, it's ridiculous. When I see an attractive guy, I feel kind of crazy and like a pervert. When I see a hot scene in a movie, it really turns me on. I feel so weird because I never dated and all my friends (who are all girls) are into bar hopping, boyfriends or married. I kind of want to start dating but I have no experience. I went to a girls school so I started off being not used to talking normally with guys and I never picked it up in college. I wouldn't say I'm ugly or completely socially inept, but I do react oddly to some normal situations. I don't know how to start having normal guy friends. And the other week, my friend's friend took me to a bar and drunk guys started hitting on me, but it was seedy so I freaked out and left. She thought it was weird I didn't give my number because she has a boyfriend and 2 sex buddies.
Help, I don't know what to do. Any advice is appreciated
Unfortunately, some religions make you feel guilt or shame to be sexual or have those desires. Sexuality and sexual desires are perfectly normal. It'd be much worse if you didn't have those desires. Sexual repression can lead to other psychological issues. If you don't believe me? Look it up.
That doesn't mean you should be like your slutty friend. Don't give into peer pressure and into doing something you don't wanna do. You were smart to leave that place.
Don't compare yourself to your friends. Just because they are married or have boyfriends doesn't mean they're happier than you, or even happy at all. No need to feel bad about yourself cause you don't have that.
I assume you don't. But maybe you should try to please yourself to get some release/relief. Its not weird, its not gross, you won't go to hell. You're not gonna be a disgusting human being for doing it. Nor should you feel guilt or shame.
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How do i do it. I cannot live on this earth anymore. My family hates me and I only have my friends and coaches to love. I got home today and I came home to drying my lacrosse gear and my dad told me I was a mistake. My mom is in drugs and I can't do this anymore. What is a less painful way to end this. I'm sorry
Unintentional pregnancy is pretty common. So don't think you're alone on that. There's 24/7 suicide hotlines with people trained to help people like you. 1-800-273-TALK (8255). When you call, it says it'll play music while it reroutes you. You'll find a lot more help by talking with them as opposed to just asking for advice here. Life can be hard sometimes. Don't give up. 2 years ago, I was thinking the same as you. Just wanted it to end, quickly and painlessly. I'm glad I didn't try harder. Call them. There are other numbers too. You gotta look online, there's plenty of help out there. Call them.
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I am already working and I have this boss. He texts me even though it is work time and he always greets me and teases me. I think I am starting to like him. What should I do? Does he like me? He's only doing those things to me. I am afraid. I haven't had any boyfriend since birth. Please tell me what to do.
Don't date your boss. Very bad idea. Maybe you can date him if you find another job. If you do try dating and it doesn't work out, you still have to see him when you go to work, and that'll be uncomfortable and awkward. ( Assuming he doesn't fire you so he doesn't have to see you all the time). I dated a girl I worked with, didn't work out and it sucked having to be around her every day. It would have been way worse if she was my boss.
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my brain is very dysfunctional,
also, sometimes i wait for like half a year to talk about something. being direct is rare for me (in a normal conversation).
when ever i see people function properly, i get SO jealous. and whenever someone talks very directly i get intimidated and also a little jealous too.
when people tell me about their issues i get mad because i have issues too.
it's like if someone said 'im lonely', inside i'm like 'i'm lonely too, but you have all your friends to comfort you. dont bother me' but i say 'aw'
and i feel i turn the subject to myself a lot
how do i stop being jealous of peopl whose brain works better? and how to stop being angry at other peoples issues?
You constantly compare yourself to others. When you compare yourself to others, someone is gonna come out on top and its usually not gonna be you.
This will lead to jealousy and envy. It might also lead to you deciding that you're better than some people. Which is not good either.
You have to accept yourself as you are, faults and all. Accept others as they are, faults and all. Nobody is perfect. When you do that, the need to compare yourself to others will fade cause it won't be important anymore.
The mentality that "something is wrong with you" (your brain more specifically). Is very bad because it makes you feel inferior to others with "normal" brains. This mentality can only lead to bad things. Something is wrong with ALL OF US. Nobody is perfect. Sometimes the people we envy are not happy or nice people. No need to beat yourself up cause you are not someone else.
I'm thinking you get angry at other people's issues cause you feel YOUR issues are bigger and don't really care to hear about their so called "problems". Like a person complaining that their clothes don't fit cause they lost so much weight. Meanwhile his fat friends might wanna tell them to shut the hell up. While other people's problems may seem small compared to our own problems, they are still their problems to them and don't really care about yours. (as much as you care about theirs). But to them, they're real. As real as yours are to you.
So stop comparing yourself to others. Accept yourself as you are and stop comparing other people's issues with yours.
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I just got a laptop & I have absolutely no idea what to do with it. What are some cool programs to download? 24 year old female.
If someone does suggest programs, do some research and make sure you know what you're getting into. Some people may try to troll you.
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I moved away from my best friend, and was devastated. I had a lot of trouble coping with that. Although we really missed and wanted to see eachother, we luckily both had phones. On my last day at the same school as her, got her phone number so we could still text and keep in touch. We would text for hours on end every day. This continued for a while. But then she started getting depressed- her family didn't love her and was abusive towards her. I tried to help her cope, but it didn't work. Later on, she became even more depressed when HER best friend committed suicide. And, to top it off, she went to a concert of her favorite band. When she got the phone number of her favorite member in the band. She called him a few nights later and asked him out. He said yes. She was overjoyed, and they had a good relationship for a while. However, after a few weeks of dating, he told her that the reason he had said yes that one night was because he was drunk. They broke up and she was devastated. All of her discomforts added up together made her make the one move that she could never, ever, undo. She committed suicide. However, I didn't know at the time. I texted her over and over for weeks, and she never responded. I begged her to text back, and asked why she didn't. And then, on one perfectly normal day, my day- and currently my life- was ruined. I finally got a response from her contact. However, it wasn't from her. It was from her mother. It said, "I'm sorry, but she committed suicide a while ago. I'm sorry that I didn't tell you sooner." So, now I'm devastated... I can't believe it... I will never see her again, and I don't know how to cope with it. Please help me.
You have to mourn, grieve, cry. Let it all out. Let yourself feel that pain and loss and let it out. Mourn your friend and honor her memory.
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I am a senior at high school and told my friend I liked him. It got awkward but we talked it out and he told me he kind of likes me too but doesn't want to date because of differences (religion) and the awkwardness went away. Now a couple of months later he seems distant and won't contact me. I asked if he is upset at me and he said no. Do guys eventually end up saying how they actually feel? Or will be never tell and just ignore me forever? Any other way to find out? Thanks.
I'd have to say its kinda normal for that to happen. Distancing themselves after making things awkward. Might just be that he feels awkward still. As dudes, we're "trained" not to talk about emotions and feelings. So if its something else, he probably won't come clean willingly. Maybe drunk.
I read that the way to get people to open up to you, if for you to open up first. I know this is how this whole thing got started, but it seems like you're losing this friend anyway. So maybe opening up and telling him in person that you take back what you said and you just want things to go back how they were. If they refuse to maintain eye contact, then there's probably something wrong. Hmmm, maybe telling him you're interested in someone (else) will take the pressure off you liking him.
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So, it seems as if I'm never able to please my family members. I always end up disappointment them. I'm 14/f and the school year is almost over and I'm under a lot of stress and pressure of getting my grades up and finishing final projects and regions too. My mom doesn't understand that all I want to do when I get home is just sleep and calm down. My older brother said that I'm a lazy bastard that just abuses my mom and grandmas assistance around the house. My mom calls me names like pig, useless, a disappointment, and I can never make her happy no matter what I do. I want to tell everybody how I feel about their hurtful remarks (at times I end up crying but they don't care) but I'm a shy person who's kept to herself and I fear that they'll just laugh at me and look at me even lower then they do now. They even tell me what would my dad think of me and that just makes me want to just die in a hole because he was a good man and he died from cancer. I just want to die and maybe everybody would be happier and not have to stress about "The disappointment" of the family. I don't know what to do anymore. I'm just physically and emotionally exhausted of it all. I'm slowly giving up on everything and nobody notices or cares anymore.
I'm sorry that this is so long but i didn't know how to fit this into a few sentences
In response to what adviceman said. You can tell a counselor or trusted teacher. I don't know if that will really make them stop and treat you better unless they feel threatened somehow. Kinda like why its so hard to tell on bullies, cause lots of times telling on them will only make things worse. (hopefully this changed nowadays)
If you decide you don't want to go that route, maybe you can find an activity or club or something where you spend time with people you like, instead of having to be at home.
I lived with someone who was verbally abusive and what I had to learn is that. Nobody can make you feel bad without your permission. Meaning, if you don't care what they say, their words can't hurt you. 2 things that facilitated this is "forgive them, for they do not know what they do." I decided to forgive them for being a-holes and that they are sick in the head and don't know any better. They can't help themselves. I know they don't deserve forgiveness, but its for you, not for them. If you forgive them and accept that they are sick and are not aware of how much they hurt you, it becomes much easier to deal with them.
Maybe talk to your grama? You didn't say she was mean too. Or maybe an uncle or aunt you trust.
Bullies like your mom and brother are psychologically broken. They make themselves feel better by degrading someone else. If you forgive them for their crappy personality traits and you see them as being mentally ill and don't know what they're doing, the things they say won't hurt you. If they do hurt you, Forgive them. It's not their fault. They're sick. They don't know anything else.
Another 2 things, I'd like to suggest, is the audiobook, "the power of now" you can find it on youtube. It will help you remain calm in the chaos and help you understand what your mom and brother are doing and why they do it. Also, "the 4 agreements" This book talks about words being like magic. You can use your words to help and heal. Or you can use your magic words for evil like your bro and mom do. Thing is, you have to let their black magic affect you. If you don't let their poisonous words reach your feelings about yourself, then they lose their power.
Lastly, meditation is a great escape from reality. It will make you feel more empowered and let you brush off black magic cause you'll be more in a state of peace. There's guided meditations on youtube. Try some out, see which ones you like. Meditation takes practice, so don't be discouraged if you don't feel anything initially.
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My friends did the challenge but we didn't know we had to say charlie charlie can we stop? before we could stop playing! Are we all going to be haunted until we die or just the person who first asked to summon the demon?
SCARED PLEASE HELP!
Did you see the pencils move without anyone blowing on them or moving them some other way? If you believe its real and you wanna be on the safe side. Maybe you can ask it to play, then ask him if you can stop playing? Or the person that did it, should do it. If you weren't even around, then I guess you're ok. I've seen videos on youtube that say how you're supposed to get rid of it. I'm sure there's other info on the internet about how to get rid of it if you forgot to ask permission to leave.
The worst thing you can do is worry about it. Your mind will make it real even if its not. Do the research to get rid of it and you'll probably feel better once you did it. Just be careful that these people are not trolling you.
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I don't know what to do! Me and my mom have a bad relationship, she always compares me to my dad and gets angry at me for little things. Some of my friends like to hurt me and just make me feel like I'm a piece of crap. I'm not doing well in school, I just can't make myself concentrate. I always lose myself in my mind, thinking about who I wish to be. I'm not the healthiest person in my house, I need braces, I have eye problems, I have diabetes, and I get frequent migraines. I get really angry and just feel like I want to punch myself, and sometimes I do. I think really dark thoughts and sometimes enjoy it. I can't talk to my family about it, because they always think I'm exaggerating. I feel like I have only a little sanity left. Please help, I can't take it anymore!
You can stop hanging out with those friends that make you feel bad. For as much bombardment you're getting the only escape I can think of that'll help cope is meditation. In meditation, you escape from your mind. Which causes most of the distress. There's guided meditations on youtube and even ones that are supposed to help with headaches. It'll also enable you to more easily brush off comments from others, you'll be more at peace. It won't happen overnight, it takes some practice, but I think its worth the shot considering your situation. You have nothing to lose and a lot to gain. Besides giving you some much needed sanity, it also has physical benefits.
With meditation, your self hate (why you hit yourself and enjoy it) will also go away. I HIGHLY recommend listening to the audiobook called "the power of now" by eckhart tolle. This will help you understand how to meditate without having to meditate (by being in the present moment) and it also goes into the dark thoughts and why you enjoying them. Perfect book for you. You can find the whole book on youtube.
Also, I've seen many articles online about people reversing diabetes by changing their diet. You can find information about how what causes migraines and how to prevent them online. Worth looking into, cause screw migraines. Life is hard enough without them.
Sometimes life treats us the same way a baby treats a diaper. Its important to always keep in mind that "this too shall pass". I've had points in my life where I thought things just couldn't get any worse and I hit rock bottom. But that passed, then something else happened, then that passed, then something even worse happened, then that passed. This shitty phase in your life shall also pass. Meditation and the book will be a big help. You can't change others, you can only change yourself.
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I have started meditating, but it does not feel like I have selective hearing and my senses are so much higher than the average human's. It is very hard to cope with, I can only relate this to a lesser version of the Daredevil's senses. Do any of you have any advice on how I can manage my senses, please?
I've never heard of this coming from meditation. Have you tried not meditating and see if it still happens? If it only happens when you meditate. During your meditation, maybe intending to get an answer as to why this happens or "ask" for it not to happen might yield results. This is the first bad thing I've heard from someone meditating. If your hearing is too sensitive all the time, then maybe an ear doctor can figure it out. Noise canceling headphones (turned off) will help muffle out sounds if its too much. With them powered on gives me a headache, but just the padding is enough.
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Hi I'm a 31 year old male, and about 6 months ago I ended a 4 year relationship, And about 6 weeks ago I met another young lady, thing is with my last relationship, we had the biggest connection ever, Like we were inseparable... And with the new girl, she's attractive, have a nice career... but it's too demanding, and some days we barely talk, she goes to bed to early, we mainly communicate via text message, because we live in two separate states, so when we do communicate, it's always so many time lapse between texts, and I like her, but she bores me, are conversations never have any real foundation, and she's just seems too busy for a relationship... Yet she makes the effort to text message me daily, multiple times a day, Were barely together, because like I said her career is way to demanding, and she travels a lot... But for some reason, I've been trying my best to hold on, and make it better... but everyday is the same... I mean I love advice from ppl who have no attachment to me whatsoever, it's more honest that way... What should I do? I want to remain the good guy here
Sounds like its not much of a relationship. The distance both physically and emotionally is too great for it to work. There's no communication. You don't even talk on the phone, just text. No point keeping fighting for a relationship that's holding on by a thread. That's worse than just ending it and moving on with your lives.
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So i have a crush from last year, i confessed and fucked things up and but i still have feelings for him. we dont talk to each other anymore so we are basically enemies i think. i really want to get him outta my mind but somehow i cant. any advice for getting over someone? whenever i see him at skl i just feel so sad gusdhfkjl xthanks
I've found a pretty easy way. Find songs you like that talk shit about your ex or her or him. It has a strange "empowering" effect. Try it and see for yourself.
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Hi,
I'm usually pretty good at giving advice, but this I can't help myself with. I'm 13 and I just got transferred to a new place. I've been here for two months now. As many people here are teens they love to act all grown up and I'm not comfortable with the kind of things they do and the language they use, so I'm not friends with anyone, I tried to adjust and get used to them but without a friend I just can't manage. I'm kind of shy but I can make friends easily, but no one is like me (a little kiddish and crazy) everyone loves to act all grown up. I'm having a tough time making friends, please give me some advice on how I can adjust or I'll end up a lonely girl who talks to herself
If you're not comfortable being around certain people, then don't be around them. Better to be alone than with bad company. I'm sure you're not the ONLY one that's like you. Maybe you can join some club or something where you meet people and you can make friends there. The club doesn't necessarily have to be a school one. When I was 14, I moved to a different country and barely spoke the language. I didn't fit in at all and it really sucked. My parents put me in karate and I loved it. Not so much cause of the martial art, but because I made a lot of friends there and there was a lot of good people. It also helped me with my confidence. After that, it didn't matter so much that I was an outcast at school. Maybe joining something will help you the same way. You can try some and quit if you don't like it or like the people. Better to be your genuine self than be phony to surround yourself with people you don't even like.
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For starters, my sister and I are both in our 30's. She is an alcoholic/drug addict and not mentally well. During her binges, she will often blow up my phone with abusive/harassing text messages. I usually just ignore her but addicts are creatures of habit so she does this fairly routinely.
I cannot get a restraining order against her because she is close with our parents (whom I currently live with) and she relies on me for transportation to/from work fairly often so seeing her is mandatory.
I have recently started saving screenshots of the awful things she texts me as evidence in case I decide to report her to the police or phone company.
Of course I realize that I cannot make her stop drinking or using, but can I get her to stop text bullying me?
clearly she has some issues with you. Sometimes open communication and saying what's in your heart (talking about your sister) can help. When drunks blow up on people, its usually about something underneath that's been bubbling. Not just something new. So maybe having her tell you ALL of her problems with you. Just come clean, let it all out will clear the air, so to speak. One time in a drunken stupor I told someone "how it is" and some deep dark thing that only surfaces when I'm very drunk. I let it out and things were a lot mellower after that. I'd guess, you'd have to do it sober. or at least start sober. Otherwise she might get too drunk and forget the conversation. Worth a shot tho, repressed resentment can be a real pain. Better to just let it out in the open and let the steam out.
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When I [15/f] get mad I go off, but does that make it right for my step dad to tackle me, and steal my stuff, and break them? I tried to call the cops, they said he had those rights. I can't stand him, so what should I do?
Learn to control your temper. If you don't go off, he won't either. Dunno about the stolen and broken stuff tho. Something tells me there's more to this story...
But yeah, you can't just go mouthing off to people with authority. That has consequences. Its eventually gonna be the cops and you'll spend the night in jail if you can't control yourself. Freaking out and throwing tantrums doesn't really work in the real world. As awful as it sounds, you're gonna have to deal with your fair share of people you don't like to be around. Doing things you don't really wanna be doing. Unfortunately, that's something most of us have to deal with on a pretty regular basis. Our daily lives, even. You'll have to become ok with not getting your way in life. Otherwise, you're gonna make life very hard for yourself.
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I have always had a wacky personality and loved to make people laugh, but everybody hates me now. Ok ok I know I might be overreacting, but it's kind of hard to not feel that way when your friends are calling you crazy and stupid. I'm starting to think I'm really going insane! I have started crying a lot more and acting really shy. I just want the old me back! I just want somebody that understands me. I am a 13 year old female if that helps.
What really will drive you insane is trying to please everybody. People around your age are very confused. And can be very cruel. Some think being mean and bullying might be funny or cool. But they're just A-holes. Playing a prank or being funny at the expense of others is not welcome either. Treat others how you would want to be treated. Wanting to have people like you is normal and understandable. Its a normal human need. But you gotta think about what's more important. Being fake and make some fake friends with your fake self? Or being yourself and have some true friends. Being your age can be very hard sometimes. Being phony to please people who you can't be yourself with is pointless. More importantly, you have to let yourself shine even if you just want to hide away. If you hide and make yourself invisible it will probably only make your pain and loneliness worse. I had a similar experience growing up. I was a real happy kid. Then I moved and wasn't accepted. I also became shy and just wanted to be left alone. Now I can tell you that was way worse, than just being myself even if some people didn't like me. Being shy just made things worse for many years. So be yourself, you can't please everybody anyway, so why try? Be your happy self, the world needs more happy people to spread laughter and smiles.
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OK so I'm in high school and I have a best friend(let's call her Donna). Donna and I are super close, see each other several times a week, if not everyday, and I have very little that happens in my life that doesn't involve or isn't influenced by her in some way.
So, whenever I'm talking to people, naturally most(if not all) the stories I tell involve her.
Well, about a year ago now, a close family friend, Amy, came back after a few years of little to no contact(she was really sick so she couldn't come visit). And a couple months ago, I got caught drinking by my parents.
(I know it's not a good thing, and I really don't do it that often and I rarely ever drink enough to feel more than slightly buzzed. It was just this time for some reason it hit me a lot harder than I thought it would..plus where I live it is literally impossible not to be around it)
But anyway, Amy helped me with stuff during that situation, so I started trusting her with things and talking to her a lot more.
But my problem is...I have a problem where I tell a story or say something that happened to someone then stop and think "crap..I probably shouldn't have said that..." then feel terrible after. I wont for peoples deepest secrets or anything people tell me not to tell anyone. But just things that are just common sense that it shouldn't be shared...especially about someone else(meaning Donna as explained above)...
And the thing is, recently Donna told me not to tell Amy certain things, and some specific things we have done and stuff. And half of them I already told her, or at least I wasn't sure if I did or not... And that got me thinking and I've told Amy a lot of things I probably shouldn't of...and I feel terrible... But if I tell Donna that she'll be, well... not pleased.(she's really hot headed and stubborn...)
And if I tell Amy just not to bring any of it up to Donna, I'm worried she might forget and slip up or confront Donna about something I was worried about(the later of which she's done before.)
I don't know...just does anyone know how I could possibly fix this before it becomes a terrible situation and any tips on how to keep myself from doing things like this to myself more...I really try not to but when I'm exited or angry things just...come out and then I think about it and feel bad/worried...
What's done is done and there is nothing you can do about it. If anything, you can tell Amy "I trust what I said when I was drunk stays between us right? I told you that in confidence. Hope you can respect that." Hopefully she'll comply. If you beg her not to tell her, she might wanna do it. But if you say it like she'll be the bad guy if she rats you out, maybe that'll work better.
I've said some dumb stuff I really regret saying when I've gotten too drunk. Then the next day I'm tripping. Going over scenarios or what people think of the things I said. Since what's done is done and you can't take it back. The only thing to do is accept it. No point crying over spilled milk right? Another way to lessen the stress is to think of the worst case scenario. Then think "AND"? as in, and then what? then after that, "AND?" again. Lots of times, you'll find that even the worst case scenario isn't all that bad in the end. Instead of the "AND?" you could substitute. "Why would that be so bad?" then after you answer that, ask again. "and why would that be so bad?"
Learn from this experience and remind yourself when you start drinking that you will not talk about others. Cause you blow it and shit like this happens.
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i want to bruise myself. how can i do it the best way?
She wants to bruise herself so she can blame it on someone else. Let me guess, throw in some rape accusations while you're at it? You make me sick. Hope you get caught lying and face the consequences. False accusations could send someone to prison for a very long time, enduring unspeakable horrors, even die. Is that what you really want? To destroy someone's life like that? And over what? something dumb, no doubt. You are registered here. So there's the proof you were planning on intentionally hurting yourself to make it look like you got assaulted. You WILL get caught. Justice for all.
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17/f I've been depressed since I was about 13 and it has gotten better and worse at times but I've never actually felt good about myself or happy for a good period of time. I went to the psychiatrist last year and she told me I had major depression and anxiety disorder and wanted to put me on meds but my mom told me I didn't have depression and was fine and just never took me back. I have been going to a therapist for about four years now and I think that had been the one thing that has helped me the most through this. Recently though she stopped letting me go and the last time I went was in December and i really needed to go more than ever around then because me and my boyfriend of a year broke up and I was devastated and got even more depressed and my mom knew and just wouldn't take me back even though I still talk to my therapist on the phone I need to go back and see her in person because that was and is still hard for me to deal with on top of other stuff. I went to another doctor for a checkup for my thyroid and she told my mom bc I'm always tired and am depressed that I really should be going especially because I'm asking for help. Not only should I be in therapy but I should be on medication because I've told my mom that I've cut myself numerous times and have been suicidal and she just doesn't care she tells me your not depressed and your not going to therapy or going on meds. She thinks there's nothing wrong when there clearly is. I was so angry about the fact that she refused to do anything about it I cut and my friend got me and let me stay at her house and offered to take me to the hospital because I was so depressed but I didn't end up going. I think going to therapy and being on meds would help tremendously but my mom doesn't even think I Have depression or am depressed for whatever her reason is it's obviously not true because I think I would know and I have been for years. She has no intention of getting me any help whatsoever even though she knows that I've cut and have been suicial she thinks I'm just overacting. I literally just don't even know what to do anymore because she doesn't seem to care or want to do anything for me at all. I don't want to wait till I'm 18 to do anything cause that's another 8 months and I don't wanna wait till then. She just makes everything so much more difficult and she doesn't listen to anything I have to say I could cut myself till I bleed and she would still not be worried or do anything which makes me want to cut even more. My parents are also divorced and even if my mom daid okay to medication I would need my dad to sign and he won't cause we tried last year and he wouldn't even do that so I honestly just feel like nothing will change. I don't know what she wants me to do to prove I'm actually depressed
I've been depressed and suicidal myself. Pills can only cover up the symptoms, but its not gonna cure the root cause. In the end, they'll do more harm than good cause they'll harm you the whole time you're taking them. Then the world will seem WAY worse and more difficult to cope when you stop taking them. The way I was able to finally break out of my depression is total and complete acceptance of what is. Meaning life situation, shitty parents, school sucks, etc. When you accept what is and accept that this is the path you're supposed to be on (even if it sucks for the time being) for your evolution as a human being, it "lightens the load" so to speak.
When it comes to depression, its a learned behavior. Brought on by entertaining and believing certain thoughts. Usually, these thoughts are learned also, via society, friends and family. Given these thoughts are out there, its the conclusions you reach that dictate how they affect you. I'll give you an example. Lets say I want a girlfriend. My thought patterns might have looked like this: Girls only want tall guys. I'm average, therefore I suck. They like fit guys, I'm average, so I suck. They like money and fancy cars, I don't have those things, so I suck, they all like white guys, so I suck. Analysis: I suck and nobody is gonna want to be with me. And there's nothing I can do about it. Can't get taller, or be white. I can get fit, but I'm still too short, too poor, too brown. So even if I try hard, I'm probably not gonna get what I want so why even bother?
Then I stopped entertaining and believing those thoughts. Now, I'm not saying that girls stopped liking tall, fit, rich guys. But I'm ok with not being those things. The world didn't change. Only my mentality changed. But that was enough for me to be happy. I accepted "what is" and how I am, with my flaws and all. Nobody is perfect anyway. So cut yourself some slack, we're our own worst critics. Now I don't make the world, society or circumstances the enemy. And I don't let the hypothetical opinions of others or society tell me who I am and how I should feel about myself. I don't know the cause of your depression. But I am sure accepting "what is", and not making an enemy of "what is" will make things much better.
I recommend 2 audiobooks which you can find the entire book on youtube. One is "the four agreements" and the other is "the power of now".
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