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Screaming In Silence...and sexual abuse
16/f
my freshman year i got accepted to one of the top performing art schools in the nation for vocal performance!! i was so excited!! ever since i heard about it ive wanted to go....My dream ever since i could remember was to be a singer...when i attended school for the first few weeks i noticed that there was a music male teacher that i would always catch looking at me....about 2 months into school, he told me to stay after class because he wanted to enter a song id written in a major record label contest. I walked into his room and he told me to sit on the piano bench and he'd be right back. So i did as he said and got my music out and waited. When he came back he shut the door and locked it he said that he locked it "because he didn't want to be bothered with the janitors" so i didn't think anything of it, kinda thought it was wierd (music rooms are soundproof) but anyway, he sat down next to me and placed his hand on my upper thigh and said im so proud of the progress your making in my class, you're deffinately going to acheive your dream and go somewhere with your talent" he put his arm around my shoulder and acted like he was grabbing my music, and he pushed it off the side on "accident" so i bent down to grab it, and as i bent down he grabbed my butt. and i told him to stop. but then he sternly said, "if you want to pass the class and win the comptetion you'll let me do what i want. Trust me, you want me on your side. I can give you everything you want." I sat back down, giving him another chance, hoping he would stop, but it just got worse as time went on. Long story short, he ended up raping me.
When i threatned him that i would tell, he just said "do you really want to leave this school?? you're parents would take you out of here and you wouldn't get ot pursue your dream anymore." and after i thought about it i realized that i wanted to be a singer more than anything else, and this school would help me out so much. So i continued to put up with it...
This situation has been continuing on and off for about 2 1/2 years now. I haven't told anyone, becuase i don't want to run the risk of anyone finding out becuase then i wouldnt be able to go to this school anymore. I just really feel like i need to talk to someone, but i don't know who to talk to. I don't feel comfortable telling my boyfriend, bestfriend, or anyone whats going on.
What should i do? I want to continue achieving my goals, and the school helps out with this alot, but at the same time i want the abuse to stop. I'm sorry this is so long, thanks so much for taking your time to help.
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its good that you you want to be a singer but there are more important things in life.If u tell on him he wont harm you or other people.You have the power to stop this man from abusing you.If you have the courage to keep this up then you must have the courage to tell on him.There are many other schools you can go to.it dosent matter wat school you go to.what matters is the talent and the guts.
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you Must TELL SOMEONE! you are getting abused and this is a CRIME. he is a sick man, and you should NOT put up w/ this. if you have the talent and ambition, you will reach your goal regardless. if you can't tell a parent, you must tell a counselor or something. you may not even get taken out of school, but he will be fired. this happened at my school and the girl still goes to my school, but the teacher got kicked out. plz plz tell someone.
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deffinatly you have to tell someone :S i know it's hard i've been to something that's kinda similar but not that serious ...you WON't get out of the school , tell the principal and the police:S , if the headmaster of the school knows about it your pervert teacher will be fired I swear , tell him first....then if you want (cause i know your suppose to but i know its hard)tell your parentns...so this way your teacher will be out of the school and not you ! it's been too long since that happened but you need to tell someone at least the principal so they can fired him :S and police, cause he'll know it was you who told...so you need to get him somewhere when he cannot harm you :S good luck lt me know how it goes
diane
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There are other ways that you can pursue your dream. I'm sure that there are many other schools out there that you could get into and keep working on your career. You should definately tell someone; the principal of the school, other teachers there, or your parents. Telling someone would get this teacher fired, not you kicked out of the school. Tell someone about the abuse and the teacher could get fired. Hope I helped and good luck.
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Okay well i think that everyone else basicly summed it up for you. First, tell your parents. Second, tell the principal or someone of importance at that school to get him fired. Third, sue the guy, get him arrested SOMETHING! Guys like that don't deserve to live let alone have a normal life. This is wrong. Tell someone.
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omg!!! tell someone!!!!
ya know if you tell the police they will arrest him an he wont go to the school not you
and then it will become a big story on the news an you'll be famous an once your famous there will be lots of opening for acting singing dancing all sorts of things(this happened to my cousin)
im am just so scared for you
please tell someone dont keep it in side
he will suffer an have his dreams crsuhed not you
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What happened to you shouldn't have happened and you have made a big step in telling people online.
You wouldn't leave the school, your teacher would. What he did to you was so wrong and the guy is a sick sick person. You should really tell someone because he could do this to another person and then they would have to go through the things that you went through, and nobody should have to go through that. He should be punished to the fullest extent of the law for what he did to you. You should really tell someone. You dont want this to build up inside of you. Im sorry that this happened to you. You are a brave, strong person though for making through it and asking for help.
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You HAVE to tell someone. I know if you do it'll probably ruin your chances of acheiving your goals and dreams, but think about it. He's forcing himself on you in order to make you feel guilty about your talent. That way, if you tell, it makes YOU the bad guy, NOT him. I realize singing is your dream, but if you want the sexual abuse to stop, I'd tell the principal. Chances are he'd deny it, but they're supposed to have cameras in the classrooms just in case you know a kid has a gun, or a fight breaks out. So, find a way to record what's going on, and then show the principal. It's important, and if I was in your position, I would seriously tell my dreams to fuck themselves because my emotional state of mind and my mental state of mind are more important than a want. Seriously, if you let it continue, you're going to be fucked up for the rest of your life. You're not gonna trust anyone, and it's just gonna be really hard. Tell your boyfriend, tell your best friend, tell your parents, tell the school authorities, tell the police. Tell anyone who can do something about it, even if it means giving up your dreams. But hopefully the school will fire him & you'll get to stay.
♥T!NA
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Honey, you absolutely MUST take steps to get out of this situation. And yes, that means you must tell someone. I don't know if you're in a high school or a college, but you could talk with a guidance counselor or dean about the best way to handle this. Most likely, they will enourage you to let the school handle the situation, as they will want to avoid bad publicity. If you are over 18 you could go directly to the District Attorney and press charges. If younger, you should go to your mom.
I know that you are terrified that you will have to leave school because of this; is this because your parents will make you leave? The school can't force you to leave, and the Pervert will be gone. Are you afraid of how the other kids will treat you if you tell, either because of the sex or because the Pervert is popular? Try to look at this from a point outside yourself. Even if you must leave this school for your own reasons (remember: the school can't do anything) you have an excellent chance to transfer to another school--perhaps a better one. It's heartbreaking, but you are truly prostituting yourself as it is now--"selling" sex so that this teacher doesn't--what?--fail you? Or just so he will "give you everything you want"? And if you don't do something to stop this, it's going to happen to other girls. You know it will. You probably weren't the first.
Okay...you're still scared stiff and are too ashamed to let anyone know. Well, what could this guy really do to you if you shut him out and said NO? If you keep your papers, you can prove your grades. If you have him for a performance class or a songwriting class, is he the only teacher in that discipline, or could you transfer to another class?
I can imagine what you are feeling...and it's hard to be brave. If you can't be as brave as you should be, I'd first say no, then go to the counselor (do this to protect yourself from unfair grading). These are the least you can do. And then get some counseling, because your self-esteem has taken a beating. (You can find free counseling. Call the Board of Health to find out who/where to call). Good luck, and I'll say a prayer for you.
The one thing you must not, can not, do is...nothing. gigi
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stopping the chain of sexual abuse is a lot more important than fame and stardom. since you're underage you can anonymously report the incidents and get him out of the school and probably a teaching career. the words he says that you'll have to leave the school are lies. your parents might remove you from the school, but it's probably for the best. there are other schools. you can always become famous, it's not just something that happens now only if you stay at this school.
my best friend was recently abused by our choir director. he stood up to him and told him to stop abusing him which was very good, but not enough. I said to my friend, "you may be strong enough to tell him to stop, but will the next boy?" and now he's seriously pursuing removing this teacher from the school. be the strong one and stand up against this guy. stop being a victim today.
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That just made me cry, this has gone on to longm you need to do something. Well first of all I don't care how scared of him you are but you need to tell your parents or the police! I know that it doesn't seem like a choice, but if you don't this is all of the internet. I looked up idgurl572 in google and it came up with all the questions i asked and answered, also if you search that category's like the police "might" do they may be able to find this. Has he raped you once? or continually? And if he's raped you your probally not the first. You may feel like this is your fault, but it's not. There are other ways of pursue your musical talent! You don't have to go to that school, I know that it is a good advantage but for what? Your bady, or spirit, your childhood. If you do decide to leave that school don't leave without telling the police about this, Don't go to anyone at the school even te principle cause you can never trust anyone that is on the inside. If you don't feel that the local authority will do anything skip them and so to someone higher, also if you call a an anonamous hotline tell them, go to these sites:
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i know how hard this is for you and i'm glad you want to get help.
you need to see your school conselour, or tell a trusted teacher. just make pros and cons lists. he'll lose his job, and get a satutory rape charge. you can help other girls if you do this, cuz i'm sure you arent the only one.
just talk to someone you can trust about it. it's the best thing to do and than see where you want to go from there.
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this teacher doesn't deserve to be in the presence of students. If you act fast, you will not get kicked out. why would you? he is the wrong one in this situation. rape is very serious. he's tring to scare you and mess with your mind so he could do this. if you speak up, he will be arrested and lose his job and you will be safe along with any other students he may have done anything to. you deserve to enjoy your path to becoming a singer, i'm sure you'll make it very far. just have confidence! good luck
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When you think about it.. your not really acheiving your goals fairly, because this guy is probably giving you all the short cut type things. If you don't tell someone, then it'll get worse, one day he could think your going to tell someone, & hurt you. Tell someone. Seriously, if you don't you may be very very sorry. And wouldn't you rather live, then become a singer? You'll have plenty of chances to become famous & sing. There is such a thing as American Idol. (: So, seriously. tell someone, you've already taken a big risk, about not telling anyone. If you really are very talented in singing, then you'll make it.
So, go & tell someone, best of luck.
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Seriously...go to the police and tell them. They really do take cases like this seriously. And if you're honest throughout the whole thing, there's really no doubt in my mind that he'd get locked up. And if you don't tell someone, he's just going to keep on doing it and he's probably already doing this to some other girls. It just takes one to speak up. If you can't go right to the police, tell a friend that you can really trust and have her go to the police with you. Friends are the best thing to get you through this.
I'm not really rambling on, I'm saying this because i was raped too, and the best thing to do is come out and tell someone.
I reall hope that you can come and tell someone because you really shouldn't wait and let the matter get worse. If you keep up with the news, this can definately get worse.
I reall hope you tell someone. Please do. Good luck with your decision. Keep strong and breathe.
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