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i have had an eating disoder, it comes and goes since the first time i had it. the 1st time was the worst when i was 15. it came back at the end of last year and its been on and off since then.
when it comes back i start to feel sad all the time and i dnt no why... its like the feels come back when the eating disorder does.
i dnt get it, each time its different like the 1st time i stopped eating for 3 days to get my mum to notice and then when i started eating again i had bulimia, 2nd time i was so stressed i just stopped eating for like 2 weeks then i had bulimia again and this time it started from me bindge eating and throwing up. atm im scared to eat and im trying not to, i just dnt trust myself cos i never feel full or satisfied so i just keep eating. thats wat started it this time.
i dnt want to get sick again i know its not worth it but i dno wat to do its like its haunting me!! i told my mum last year when it came back that i wanted professional help but she wudnt take me.
how do i get over this i hate it and im freaking out that it will keep comin back and never truly go away!! =[
HELP! =[
I have been recovering from anorexia for as long as I can remember. My symptoms began when I was only in the 5th grade! 10 years old! And my parents really started noticing after a while and I ended up getting professional help. I saw a psychiatrist for at least 2 years, and sometimes I wish I still saw her. The best way to end your disorder is through professional help. Psychologists, psychiatrists, doctors, and those who are specialized in the field of eating disorders will know what you need and how to help you get that. As long as you're willing to do as they say, as difficult as it may be, you can recover. For some people, out-patient care will be enough, but for those who have been deep into the disorder, in patient care and even a bit of hospitalization will be necessary.
You want to get help and it has been two years off an on, so you might be able to try out-patient care at first, which is what I did. I saw my psychiatrist once a week or so, but I got to stay at home and work at my disorder without being watched 24/7 by doctors and nurses.
Will the disease ever go away for good? I'm not sure... I'm 18 years old and a college freshman, and I still think about how much food I'm taking it, whether or not my food is healthy, should I really be eating this, if I skip this meal I'll be okay, etc. I still get those thoughts a lot of the time. Sometimes when I go work out, I have to literally stop myself from over doing it. I tell myself that I can't stay at the gym more than a certain amount of time, and that I can only do certain machines for a certain amount of time before moving on to weights and other forms of work-outs. I try to stay active and healthy by playing intramural soccer at my school, and I do a lot of other things to keep my mind away from obsessing over what I'm doing. It also helps that I have a friend that I go to college with who was there through my entire disorder. She knows what I went through and because her mom is some sort of dietitian person, she knows what it takes for me to get better.
As far as I'm concerned, an eating disorder is just as mental as it is physical. It's something we never truly get rid of, but we do get through and get better. I think I may always have those thoughts, but I've learned that I'm strong and can overcome them.
Also, the longer you have this disorder, the more difficult it will be for you to stay in shape once you get better. Right now your body is going to hold on to every ounce of fat and everything else coming in because it knows you'll be throwing it up or you'll stop eating at some point. That's why you binge - your body keeps saying it's hungry because you've been starving it. Throwing up is just like not eating - you're starving yourself. Your metabolism gets slower so it can hold on to more food in the case of you getting rid of it again or stopping any from being consumed.
Your body may forever be terrified that it won't get enough food to survive, so the longer you keep up your disorder, the more severe it becomes, in recovery as well.
If your mom doesn't want to take you to a doctor for help, see your school counselor. If that still doesn't work, have your friends help you. It could be a big burden on them and yourself, but you need to do something now.
(Rating: 5) thankyou so much! its good to talk to someone who knows what im going through. and it has helped a lot. my mum just doesnt understand she thinks if i talk to her about it she can help me through it but i know she cant and i find it hard to talk to her about this stuff because she doesnt listen to what i have to say. she just doesnt want to fork out money for me to get prefessional help!
i know i need help... i want help, i hate it running my life. im just so scared to get help because each time it has ripped my family apart... everyone begins to fight and its all because of me.
i just get so stressed because i get stuck with all the house work and no one helps, that along with trying to keep up with school work as im in my last year of school i need to be studying. i told my mum to help me with the house work and she said she would but never does and that makes me feel unapriciated.
i just dont know who to turn to for help, who i can trust because it always turns into a mess with everyone fighting and blaming it on each other. wat should i do? how should i get help? iv been to my councillor when it happened last year and the fighting in the family just got out of control. =s thankyou so much... you have given me the confidence that i can get over this i just dnt know wat to do first.xx