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cutttter.
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alright. for about two years i have been cutting myself. and at first it was very innocent (little scratches with saftey pins... butter knifes, things like that) then one day i ginaed access to a really sharp razor blade and cut extremely deep. and for a year and a half thats how i have been doing it, because it is so addictive. more than once a day, and so i can go to sleep at night. most of my friends found out, one way or another and eventually my best friend got me to tell the guidance counselor. my dad now knows, and so does my psychiatrist (whom i have been seeing since I was 8 and my mom died). but i know he doesnt want me doing it, and niether do my friends. so latelyt i havent. but things got worse. im always pissed off at everyone, and lash out. also, i have been thinking about suicide more and more. i always considered it before but never like this. but when i talk to my friends, all the do is beg and pleed with me to stop. I CANT. when i was on the bus, i started tasting blood in my mouth, and noticed I had been bitting a chunk of my lip off as a pain reliever involuntarily. last night, I cut again and felt SOOO much better. but im so afraid someone will find out and be angry. im on medicine, and everything, it just sux. snapping rubberbands, and all that doesnt help. I know this is long, but im so upset with myself, I just dont know.
I rate 5s.
Manda.
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Cutting is very serious, and can get really extreme and dangerous. I understand why you do it, it's your way of coping with pain. You feel there's no other way. You're the only one who can stop it. Has your phycaratrist (sp?) told you any other ways of coping with things? Try writing in a journal, punching/or screaming your pillow.. I really hope everything works out. Just remember how many people love and care about you!
Hope I helped.
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okay ... I know your going through a lot of pain, you feel there is no where to turn to ... it's like a black tunnel, and althoug people may say and show they care, you might find this really hard to accept ... I'd really like to help you as everyone is in a situation at one point or another where they feel the need to lash out on themselves, whether it be cutting, banging one's head against a wall or what have you ... your frustrated and have no idea how to cope with these feelings ... If what I'm saying makes any sense ... please e-mail me, and I'd be more than happy to listen to you and perhaps help you in a way that's best for you ... aly_boschee@yahoo.com. Just remember there are people who truly do care and although it may not seem like it you are of true value to all of us ... alyssa
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Your friends and family really luv you there right you shouldn't slit your rists but don't comit suicide just to prove to your self life will get better screem shout swear to releave the pain do what ever it takes without pain look in the mirror and see your beautiful face be strong my mum just died and evryone tells me to stay strong too i have never slit my wrists and never plan to but if your friends and family stick by you it shows how luved and special you really are...life is a rare and beautiful thing don't give it up
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Okay,You've been doing it longer than me, but I know exactly what your going through. Yes, it is extremely addictive, but you have to be open minded to stopping, because no matter how much hep you get, then only person who can stop You from cutting is YOu, so you need to decide whats more important to you, or Keep doing it, but gradually stop, like start with doing it like 2 a week, then move to once a week 1 a month and so on, then you will not have as much of an addiction because your pushing yourself and controlling yourself more, but it will take time to stop, but you made a good decision by asking for help, IF you need anything you can IM me @ ITSALLKAITLYN I hope I helped, Keep Me Updated
<kaitlyn>
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Hey darling. I have a freind that does that but sadly she got put into the state mental hospital and it's really scary. Just know that everyone around you loves you and cares about you and that your mom is always going to be with you and that she wouldn't want you doing any of this either. But good luck and I truly hope you feel happier SOON. Live your life to the fullest and try to forget everything bad that ever happened to you!
♥ Always,
Maria
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That's how I was..and it only gets worse the longer you're addicted (as you're pretty much saying). I think about suicide too a lot, or I went through this point where I was actually going to go through with it, and I was bawling my eyes out and trying to hint to my mom and my sisters that I was actually gonna go through with it until they finally got the drift..and found ways to get my mind on the right track (which worked for a little but it was hard..and it comes back every so often)--
The feelings still havent gone away for me all the way, but you're not alone and you can get through this. You don't need to cut to get to sleep. You don't need it to feel better. (I should be telling this to myself too).. But Manda, you really really don't need it. Stop for your dad..I'm sure you're the most important thing in the world to him right now. Please try stopping for him..
When you want to cut...take all the sharp things and throw them in the trash...I mean I know you're always going to be around objects that can harm you, but the point is whatever tempts you, stay away from them. I remember one time I wanted to cut so bad..I had the scissors in my hand, pressed against my skin..then I saw a picture of someone who died that I knew..and I spazzed and like chucked my scissors across the room. I felt so guilty and ashamed with myself.
I wanted to go back the scissors more then anything at that point, because I was afraid of myself, and I didn't know how to stop it...so I just layed in my bed and covered myself in a bunch of blankets until the feelings passed...which was when I got to sleep. It was hard but it doesnt have to be all the time. Look at a picture of someone you love, and care for..maybe your mom. Seeing a picture of your mom could give you second thoughts about cutting. It could prevent you from wanting to do it to feel better. It will remind you that what you're doing isn't rational..and that the feelings will pass if you just wait it out. It will take patience...I know.
Good Luck..
I really hope I helped
`jeSsie
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aww.. we all have bad times.. but sweetheart you need 2 forget about the bad times and remember the good times.. i know that your probaly going through hard times.. trust me.. cutting is the worst thing you can do.. just talk 2 your friends about your problems.. they will listen.. if they want you 2 stop cutting yourself.. then they will listen 2 your problems.. also you can talk 2 your psychiatrist.. thats what he/she is there for! you need 2 pray to god for help.. trust me he will come through for you.. my friend used 2 do some EXTREMELY bad things in his past life.. until he started praying to god.. now he does none of that bad stuff anymore and he has a much better life.. talking about that kind of stuff gets it off of your chest and you feel better.. just please please please dont cut yourself! and the suicide thing.. honey please no! your 13 you have soooooo much longer 2 live.. why give up now? theres no reason.. like i said.. we all have our bad days.. but when you talk 2 someone and know tht they care about you it will get better!! hope i helped!!
lots of love~rachel leigh~
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Think about your friends, your family, everyone who cares for you. That's what I do when I want to die. I just sit there and cry my eyeballs out and make my sister hold me still until I come out of it. She's found me twice almost dead because of my psychoness, and we're really close. She sat in the hospital right beside me every minute and I couldn't do that to her again. She had to try and keep me awake because if she wouldn't have, I would have went into a coma and possibly died.
Cutting ISN'T okay, but it's better than killing yourself. I don't want to tell you what to do, but if you can't stop, and it's making you want to die because you can't deal, just stop gradually. Only cut yourself if its something horrible and you CANNOT deal. Also, once you pull yourself out of this mess, you're going to have so many scars.. you'll hate them. You'd probably wear long sleeved shirts for the rest of your live if you continue.
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okay, i was in the same boat... recently actually. what you have to do is not simple...
don't worry about the rest of the world. stop trying to ease the pain in your life by hurting more. it really is addicting, i know so well. but you have to find something you enjoy. find something you love to do. distract yourself from life. find something you love so much that you want to continue and have something you live for.
this could be writing, reading, painting, ANYTHING!
don't read or write anything about cutting.. don't think about cutting. make yourself a promise to stop... find something inside that lets you lash out and don't hold in the pain like that. the blood flowing from the wound won't release the pain and anger you are feeling.
scream. it doesn't matter what. not in front of people who will find you crazy... when you are alone and might find yourself slicing, punch a pillow.. not too hard.
LOVE yourself!
find the beauty inside yourself...
don't ruin your beautiful body.
don't cause more emotional problems by cutting.. because that makes it worse.. it makes it thousands of times worse.. even though you say you love it, you know that it is eating away at your mind.
just live.
live for the moment.
remember that whatever happens, it will get better.
and if for some reason I don't help you...
find something inside that gives you hope...
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Oh my gosh. I`m so glad im not the only one. I know exacly what your going through and belive me I know how hard it is. I havent been doing it that seriously like really really deep but I have done it pretty bad. My friends found out and they took it like it was a huge deal which I didnt think it really was. All they were saying was stop and stop and you have to but they really dont understand how freakin hard it is for me. I know it must be really hard for you to stop too. But I havent done it for about a 1 and half just because of my friends. They care about you and want you to stop before you do anything really bad. Try not to cut your vain. Your friends are right tho. You should seriously try to stop because of them because they just want the best for you. They dont want to see you hurt. Think of all the people that love you and who would never ever want to loose you. I know life is tough but you have to get through it and it will get better. Trust me. I always used to think how bad I had it but think of some other people. Cutting isnt the best thing to do but I know it helped me get through things a lil better but there if a better way I could get through my problems. Please try to stop. Try your absolute hardest. No one would ever want to loose you. EVER! Dont think about suicide or anything anymore, please. Go to counsling and that might help you. Please take my advice and think about every who loves you and just wantes the best for you. If you need anything else IM me at x0x Teza or hOlLiSteRxBaBeo9!! Best of luck! x0
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suicide is not the answer.
that is when you hit rock bootom.
and from there you can literally only improve.
TRy to stop cutting.
make it gradual.
alil less each day.
we all suffer these stuff it is nrmal
dont sweat it.
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Its hard coping with deaths, my grandfather died and thats what got me cutting...i do it very deep now you have to realize there are alot of people out there that feel that way you do, if youre having thoughts about death you need to tell someone SERIOUSLEY i almost jumped off my roof this summer...and here i am in therapy and im doing better and im so glad to be alive. Its hard to stop for people, you have to wanna stop for you not for other people other wise it wont work. You need to feel shity in order to get better believe me. And your blaming yourself which isnt fair because you jsut cant help it, talk to the person your seeing, this is serious! But i promise if you hang in there and give it your all youll get better!
If you need anymore advice im me on AIM PLEASE! your not alone
AIM: LilPeppa18
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im sorry if this sounds mean but thats horrible....im not trying to sound like your friends and all but you need to stop!!!i dont know what to say to you to try and get you to stop...my friend used to do that and i know how your friends probibly feel and i know its like well....i cant talk to my friends about this because they just nag at me but you are keeping all of your emotions inside and that only makes it worse but if you need someone to talk to im here i wont nag at you either i just think its easier to talk to someone you dont know because i wont judge me...you dont have to rate me 5 if my advice wasnt good.
~!jessica!~
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Manda,
Ok, I would like you to think about this for a second. How many people love you? How many people would be devastated if you commited suicide? Your dad, friends, and other family members must all love you to death. Not only is commiting suicide horrible for you (b/c it is obviously ending your life), but imagine how it would affect others. Sorry to say this, but it's kind of selfish if you think about it. Everyone that loves you would be devasted. What if you commited suicide, and then one of your friends followed suit b/c you did it, all b/c she missed you? All suicide can lead to is BAD things.
I would suggest you get professional help with your cutting problems & suicide thoughts too. Instead of thinking about all the negative things in your life, focus in on the positive things. Think about everyone that loves you, and everything that you have going for you.
Please stop cutting & don't commit suicide!!!!!! I really hoped I helped, and PLEASE talk to me more if you need to. My AIM screen name is: crazy child271 or mi unoriginal sn. FEEL free to contact me via AIM or just drop one in my box.
best of luck
♥ Elmo
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Hun I do the same thing and you just gotta stop, think about what your doing.. and try to redirect yourself in a different way.
Self-injury is not suicidal behavior. In fact, it may be a way to reduce the tension that, left unattended, could result in an actual suicide attempt. Self-injury is the best way the individual knows to self-sooth. It may represent the best attempt the person has at creating the least damage. However, self-injury is highly linked to poor sense of self-worth, and over time, that depressed feeling can evolve into suicidal attempts. And sometimes self-harm may accidentally go farther than intended, and a life-threatening injury may result. Maybe you should schedule out what you are going to do in your day so you won't have time to cut..... journal at the end of the day.. You could have a brain illness... such as Bi-Polar, Major depression, manic depression, and many more. I think maybe talk to someone you trust it'll help I promise... it isnt bad to get put in a hospital i have been there... they help you.. hang in there hun.
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well, i dont know what to say, really because i was never in a situation like this. my friend was though, and i understand that you just cant stop it. i think you should get help from a profesional person or somthin. thats the only way you will be able to stop. i dont understand it though, doesnt it hurt??
if you want, you can talk to me on aim if you have any further questions or somthin....
xxpolishbabiexx
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