my mum has just died recently 1 day befour mothers day i keep thinking shes comeing back and the pain is umbareable.but i have to stay strong
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alright. for about two years i have been cutting myself. and at first it was very innocent (little scratches with saftey pins... butter knifes, things like that) then one day i ginaed access to a really sharp razor blade and cut extremely deep. and for a year and a half thats how i have been doing it, because it is so addictive. more than once a day, and so i can go to sleep at night. most of my friends found out, one way or another and eventually my best friend got me to tell the guidance counselor. my dad now knows, and so does my psychiatrist (whom i have been seeing since I was 8 and my mom died). but i know he doesnt want me doing it, and niether do my friends. so latelyt i havent. but things got worse. im always pissed off at everyone, and lash out. also, i have been thinking about suicide more and more. i always considered it before but never like this. but when i talk to my friends, all the do is beg and pleed with me to stop. I CANT. when i was on the bus, i started tasting blood in my mouth, and noticed I had been bitting a chunk of my lip off as a pain reliever involuntarily. last night, I cut again and felt SOOO much better. but im so afraid someone will find out and be angry. im on medicine, and everything, it just sux. snapping rubberbands, and all that doesnt help. I know this is long, but im so upset with myself, I just dont know.
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Manda. (link)
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Your friends and family really luv you there right you shouldn't slit your rists but don't comit suicide just to prove to your self life will get better screem shout swear to releave the pain do what ever it takes without pain look in the mirror and see your beautiful face be strong my mum just died and evryone tells me to stay strong too i have never slit my wrists and never plan to but if your friends and family stick by you it shows how luved and special you really are...life is a rare and beautiful thing don't give it up
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