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Q: ok i realy need help on this one ok me and this boy first decided we didnt want another relationship so we just been catering to each other need im still a virgin if that helps any but the thing is i kinda love him now and things are more complicated than anything so should i tell him i love him
if you love him you should tell him.it might be that he loves you back
youll never know until you tell him!!!!
good luck!!!
and that is so so so sweet!!!! omg im so happy for you congradulations!!!!!!!
i wish both of you the best!!

Q: SORRY THIS WILL BE LONG! some of you might know me... as mwalnutss on here (yes there is spose to be 2 s's). but anyways, i need help. i have been dating a boy named bobby for a month and a half. and he means the world to me. and we were UBER close before we started dating. like friends since septemper. and i care about him ALOT! but lately the tables have turned. i made a new friend and i am friends again with my exbff and they take up ALOT of my time on the phone. and bobby has stopped calling me, so since he stopped calling i have REALLY reduced the amount of times i call him down to like 3 times a week instead of racking 10 hours of phone time with him every week. since then me and my best friend, who is a guy, have gotten even closer, we goof off (not in the hooking up way) like we use to but know like its more often. and bobby gets jealous and just ignores me. and then he claims i ditch him, like dont walk him to his classes. but i do!! i put SO much on the line for him. and he makes me cry alot. and feel bad. and ARG!!! i hate it. and he never listens to me. what should i do? dump him?
i think hes mad that you have other people in your life. m0re jelous then mad actually! i would talk it out with him. tell him that you have other people in your life but they could never replace him. then, if he still has a problem you could dump him

Q: Is it wrong to want a lot of affection from my boyfriend? He was never really into being all touchy and stuff but he's changed a lot since he fell in love for the first time- me being the one.
I get cuddles and kisses, but I feel like i'm constantly giving him every possible moment I can to make him feel good. Head jobs are ALWAYS on my mind coz I like that he blows. (sorry to be gross.)
I just want anything sexual from him all the time. I cant get enough of my own boyfriend who's 19 and im 20. He' so good looking. I always touch myself over him. Is that bad?
no, whats wrong with that? hes your boyfriend and you love him and he loves you!! no, i think id be worried if you werent like this!!

Q: Are strapless dresses made for girls with only big breats to fit at the top? I'm flat but I want to wear one but I'm scared anything bad or embarrassing might happen..
no, you can be flat just make sure its not to big on you!!

Q: my boyfriend broke up with me last night.. he said he still likes me but he needs time to get his head clear because he's still in love with his ex girlfriend. (from october) he keeps thinking abuot her but he told me that he never thoguht abuot her when he was with me... i told him i was in love with him and he told me i was killing him. i asked him if i should wait for him to get his head clear. and he said he's not going to tell me NOT to wait because he still likes me. but i don't want to have waiting for nothing. and wasted my time. but i love him. and so my question is should i wait for him to get better. because this happed over six months ago so how can he try to recover now? you know? i lost my virinity to him. i didn't want it to have been for nothing. please help thanks a lot
babe i know it hurts. but i think if you wait for him, its going to be for a waist. even if you do get back with him, its not going to last, and your heartbreak is going to be even worse. be happy that it ended before you got way morre attatched to him. i would try to forget about him. it will take a while, but yo will move on. take care of yourself! xo,
Leo

Q: What are some cool horse related online games or activities (like baking treats coloring horses etc.) I am a horse fanatic anything is welcome.
if any of these do not work or you want more, please let me know! i would be happy to find you more.
any specific activity you would like to do?



try:
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and
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and
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and
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and
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and
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and
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and
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and
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and
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and
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and http://www.GoodSearch.com/redirect.aspx?type=1&url=http://rc10.overture.com/d/sr/?xargs=15KPjg1n1St5auwuf0L%5FiXEbqUkwwB4OjF889mCZQPFtdZ8gBkWfYuPa7By%5FVIX%2D1m7w3VyoSR%5F9FkOqz2n%5F%2DUFBCMQVKXGOX%2Dyt2QwNxsa%5FqxAY4FxOY8mbS1x9gbKi5TbxEHSMLJw920fOXJOWgaqIID20zO8KYxnpv1kLZcQ%2DK3gQwrpxmXeMRaguh03dqSbZcBXOMNct%2DbhXfMfZxWmdEt1KnkND8Nb2zl%2DjZS7g%5FceGko9ML9SNtMp%2Daux5DVV6B5rO9AMwDOqOIy5R%2D3%2DU4%2E&yargs=www.intelligentedu.com


http://www.google.com/gwt/n?u=http%3A%2F%2Fwww.fetchfido.co.uk%2Fgames%2Fcrazy_horses%2Fcrazy_horses.htm&hl=en&mrestrict=xhtml&source=m

and
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and
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Q: I had an itch that just happened to be where my mole was (on the side of my face). I guess I scratched it (once) hard enough to where my mole started bleeding. It's small and slightly raised (nothing big.) I know if your mole bleeds it's a sign of skin cancer. Should I be worried?
im not trying to scare you but get it checked
please please get it checked
dont stress, but check on it
look at these stories!!!

I was driving home from work, scratched my back and the mole bled . I went back to the dermatologist where they did a biopsy. They took a tiny bit out, sent it away and then we went back for the results. It was malignant.

There was me, my husband and this guy telling me "it's malignant" and I was only 25. Apparently, if they'd not caught it I'd have been dead before I got to 30. I couldn't believe it. I remember thinking: "Why me? I'm only 25 and I wear high factor sun cream!"

They said they needed to take another piece - they dug down into the skin and took another section. They said it would depend on the depth as to whether I would need any further treatment. The operation was done under local anaesthetic, they extracted a larger sample and sent me home with some painkillers. I thought I'd be fine.

I got home, felt a bit crappy but thought "I'll go to work, in a day or two it's not a problem". But once the anaesthetic wore off I couldn't move for a week. I couldn't move at all down the top half of my left side. Apart from the fact I couldn't move, I felt fine. And sitting on my own at home was worse than going to the pub with my work mates or whatever else - just think of something else.

Luckily they found it wasn't too deep, so they dug it all out. I go every three months for a check-up. I'm also involved in the research being done worldwide. All my moles are counted and I go back in a year's time. They also involve my family to see if there's any history.

I concentrate on here and now. It's not always easy, but you adapt. I now enjoy and appreciate what I've got a lot more.

My advice: Get checked! Go - it might be benign. I thought mine was benign - I was absolutely 99 per cent sure it was. And it wasn't. I'm 27 now, and I'd have been dead before I got to 30 if I hadn't been checked. Don't be embarrassed. I was a bit like that, when it bled I was like: "well I scratched it, it didn't bleed on its own. I've obviously made it bleed." But just go and get it looked into it. It may only be tiny but the results may not necessarily be tiny.

I'd love to start a family but I'm scared, Natasha, 29

I went to the doctor's concerning something quite insignificant when I was 22. "Oh, by the way, can you take a look at this mole ?" I asked as I was leaving. It had changed slightly, and it appeared more of a blood blister but I didn't think it was much to worry about.

He examined it and arranged for me to visit the skin clinic, as a precaution. My appointment came and I attended. The consultant decided to whip it off and send it for tests. Even at this stage I didn't worry about it much. The next day I received a phone call from the hospital, asking me to go in and see them urgently.

Sure enough, I was told the mole was malignant. I was stunned, I was 22, and didn't even want to think about the possibility of living with cancer.

I was sent to a specialist hospital and it was arranged for me to have a skin graft, in order to remove more of the skin around it, to hopefully rid me of any surrounding cancerous cells.

This all went fine, and I continued to visit the hospital for five years for check-ups. Earlier this year I discovered a lump in my right breast. I went to the doctor and he referred me to the breast clinic. Everyone was telling me it was nothing to worry about, and I convinced myself it was probably just a lump of fat or something.

After tests I was called back to see the consultant, and I was told that it had shown to be malignant melanoma. I was devastated, it had returned and spread within my body. It felt so alien. At this point I was unsure how far it had spread or how threatening it was. I was referred for more tests and scans.

A tumour was found in the left side of my neck. I knew there was a lump there, but had no idea it was a tumour! I just thought I was under the weather. Since then I have had my neck muscle, nerve, lymph nodes and the tumour removed in the left side of my neck.

It has taken some time to recover from the extent of the surgery. I'm trying to get on with my life and live with what has been thrown at me but it can be hard.

I'm a positive person, but the impact that cancer has had on my life is massive. I'm lucky in the respect that I have a very supportive husband and friends/family, but it's still a dark place to be at times.

I'd still love to start a family, but I'm scared. I've been told that because I've had secondary cancer there's a fair chance that it will return, so the best I can do is ride with it, and take each day as it comes.

Good news though. I've just had my first three month follow-up appointment, and all seems fine at the moment, so that's a positive! I don't think even those close to me really understand how this feels to me, and they're sometimes shocked at my wicked sense of humour which comes as a result of living with the disease. I need to make a joke of it, and people can't quite understand that, but it's a way that I cope. Who knows what tomorrow will bring?

I'm now trying to live a normal life. I'm back at work full-time, and coping with day-to-day things. I'm trying to juggle a marriage and a career, but things are working out.

The staff at the local hospice have been very supportive, and I'm visiting a counsellor to put my thoughts into some order. I've grown to accept my scar now, it's hard, as every time I look in the mirror I'm reminded of cancer, but I wouldn't be who I am without it, and they do say that you should learn and grow from your experiences, and I certainly don't take things for granted any more!

My advice: Keep a sense of humour handy. Be honest with people - I hate it when people tell me: "It'll be alright." They've been telling me that since I was 22! (I know they're only tring to reassure themselves, but it really doesn't help you!) Ride with it and remember that everyone has bad days. Ask for help and support if you need it.

Don't be shy - get lumps investigated, Diana, 68

I'd had bowel problems for a long time and often noticed bright blood. Over the last ten or more years I had a couple sigmoidoscopies but then, one time, a consultant wanted to do a colonoscopy and I wrote and said the problem was better.

In 2000 heart disease was diagnosed and I was waiting for valve surgery. On a visit to the heart hospital for a seminar to describe what would happen during and after heart surgery I started to bleed profusely from the rectum.

Bowel cancer was diagnosed - Duke's A. It was surgically removed in July 2001. It hadn't spread through the bowel wall.

December 2001 my stoma was reversed and November 2002 I had my heart surgery. Early this year I had a persistent small sore removed from my chin. That was a rodent ulcer.

At the end of next year I will be considered cured of bowel cancer. Wasn't so lucky with the heart surgery but I feel fine.

My advice: Never ignore any blood in stools. Don't be shy. Have any lumps that suddenly appear investigated promptly. If you think there's something wrong be assertive; do something about it.

A future with NO LUMPS, Christine, 49

Three years ago I had a tumour in my bowel, shortly after I had major sugery to remove the tumour. For three years I never felt well.

In August another tumour was found in my bowel and I had major surgery again. Two weeks later the doctor said the cancer had spread to my lymph nodes. I feel a lot better after this operation, and I didn't need a stoma bag.

But this tumour is aggresive so I'm having chemotherapy soon. I feel lucky they've caught it, but you get sick of feeling ill.

My advice: You always hear the bad news about cancer, but there's a lot of good news especially nowadays with scans etc. They can catch it earlier now. So let's be happy and think of the future when they say NO LUMPS.

Mixed background and melanoma, Yewande

I was always very conscious of cancers that can affect women but I wasn't so worried about or conscious about skin cancers. That's obviously all changed now.

I was very shocked when I was diagnosed with skin cancer. If my doctor had said to me "you have breast cancer" that would have been a much more likely scenario in my mind.

I come from a mixed background and never really thought about melanoma.

The mole was about a millimetre big and it looked like a keloid scar. It was slightly raised. The skin was very smooth and shiny on the surface. It was a very light brown whereas the 'beauty spots' I have are almost jet-black. It also had a very irregular shape to it. But I think the most outstanding point was that it changed over a period of five or six months which is very quick, according to my doctor, and that's what raised the danger flags.

Based on my experience it's easy to see how the black community would assume they're not at risk of melanoma. The message I got from my doctor and my specialist was - "oh it's very surprising and, in fact, I was quite shocked to get your results because of your pigmentation".

The black community isn't going to argue with people who are seen to be in the know (medical practitioners) about a topic of which little is known. Most of the people I know in the community don't know any black people who have cancer - certainly not skin cancer - so it's not something they worry about.

Because black people tend not to burn and go red, and very few actually peel (or are aware of the peeling process) they might not even notice they've burnt their skin. There's no real information about how black skin burns. Therefore, unless one is self-aware enough to notice the finite changes wrought by extreme exposure, "well I was in the sun and this is what happened", then you don't know. I think information needs to be made available and people need to be made more aware of how their skin reacts and how to take care of it better.

Everybody should be aware of the sun because skin is skin whether it's got lots of pigmentation or not. I think the message should be that it doesn't matter whether you're fair skinned or not. Your skin is still very vulnerable.

As for wearing sunscreen, some people can be put off because, on black skin, a lot of sun creams leave a horrible white sheen, which looks like calamine lotion. Since the diagnosis I've phoned all my relatives and said, "check yourselves regularly."

My advice: If you see anything that looks abnormal or you've not noticed before, go to the doctor. Don't ignore it. Don't leave it. Just have it checked out - even if it turns out to be nothing. Remember, it can happen to anyone.

If you're being checked out for a melanoma, do as much research as possible because then you're informed and it helps to get rid of the panic. If you know more about a problem, then it leaves less room for your imagination to run wild and build up frightening scenarios. It also gives you something to focus on because you know that when you're going in to see your doctor you've got information - you can ask questions.

Other than that, there's not much you can do until the doctors have gone in and done what it is they're going to do and given you their diagnosis and treatments etc.

Fortunately the doctor believes the excision was enough to have cleared out most of the cancer so there's nothing there and, fingers crossed, I won't have to go in for anything aggressive like chemotherapy.

Luckily my cancer was caught early. The impression I got from the doctors is that it could have been much deeper. If it had been deeper, it would have meant a more aggressive approach to treatment, which probably would have included chemotherapy or something like that. I was lucky as all I needed was a local anaesthetic where they excised the wound, which while unpleasant and very uncomfortable, wasn't really as severe a treatment as it could have been. So I suppose in that respect I was quite lucky.

Friends and family are a huge help, Sally

As one of the 100 women diagnosed with breast cancer each day in the UK, I want to say a huge thank you to my own friends and family who have helped me, and to offer some practical advice to anyone who has a friend with breast cancer.

I was first diagnosed in 2000 and following a mastectomy, chemotherapy and radiotherapy, three years later secondary tumours were found on my liver and I have been having chemotherapy since then. I found that friends want to rally around but sometimes they aren't sure what to do for the best.

My advice: Let your friend know you're thinking of her in a simple way like sending a card. Support her by listening, but check on the best time to call, because even phone calls can be exhausting when you're having cancer treatment.

Take your cue from her, for example if she's feeling positive, join in and be encouraging. While it's kind of people to send flowers, sometimes you don't feel well enough to answer the door to the florist, let alone arrange the vase, and if everyone has the same idea you can feel as though you are sitting in a funeral parlour.

I always appreciated entertaining gifts like books, tapes, and magazines. It can be very hard to ask for help, so practical assistance is wonderful. Offer to go to the supermarket, or help with gardening or cleaning.

I am always delighted when a friend drops by for half an hour's ironing. If transport is a problem, offer a lift to or from hospital.

Cancer treatment can leave you completely worn out, so home cooked food is a great way to help, especially if your friend also has the job of feeding her family.

And finally, one of my best friends during all of this was Macmillan Cancer Support and my Macmillan nurse. Their Cancerline offers wonderful support for friends and family too. Its open Mon-Fri, 9am-6pm on freephone 0808 808 2020, textphone 0808 808 0121.

This article was last medically reviewed by Dr Trisha Macnair in August 2005.
First published in February 1999.

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Q: I love my boy friend tons and he told me that he has strong feelings for me i wanna kiss him but i'm afraid of what my parents and friends would say.

My friends would probably say i'm a slut but i am worried about my parents as it would be my first kiss

I really need help
i was in your place. the perfect bf hoo i wanted 2 kiss. i did, my parents found out, and they got mad. my friends did call me a slut. then, stuff didnt work out. i dumped him, but the reputation stuck. it was my first kiss too. so im warning you that could happen. just so u know

Q: what is a g-spot?
what does it mean when someone eats someone out?
what are types of sex...like cowgirl, 69, doggie, and what do u do in them?
what is pulled?
http://www.urbandictionary.com/define.php?term=G+Spot

usually i wouldent just give you a link but some stuff on that sight might get me kicked off lol
yeah so just search Urban Dictionary for all of that
xo

Q: I am so shy and really nice to everyone at school. i go out of my way to makes others happy everyday. The other day i found out that people were calling me a slut and saying that i flaunt myself too much. I have 38Ds and i am 14. it's not that easy to hide them!!!! It doesn't make it any better that in gym we have to swim. I don't get how people can call me a slut when i haven't had one boyfriend or had my actual first kiss
jelousy!!! 100% jelousy!!!!
if you have somthing that other people want, it dosent matter how nice you are!!!! theyre gnna be mean because theyre flat and your not.
dont stress about it. these girls are b!tches please dont let it get to you!!!

Q: Hey. I always wanted to do one of those things where you dedicate pages to your friends, your family, your mentors, etc. I just could never figure out how to do something like this online without making my own website or having everyone see it. I sort of just want the people who know me to be able to see it. I'm not sure if making something like this on Xanga or something would work so my question is do you think this would work? Or do you have any other suggestions (besides an aim profile). Nothing that costs money or that I would have to download please. I know I should know how to do this lol but help would be greatly appreciated =). Thanks in advance!
www.wetpaint.com
and make your own websirte
i know you said you dont want to do that, but it dosent cost any money and its really really simple
or www.blogger.com
and make your own account
good luck!!!
xo

Q: i have a heaert condition called SVT. thats the abreviated version i think the long one is Supraventricular Tachycardia

and it makes my heart beat double fast somtimes and makes me dizzy. there is a proecdure to get rid of it, and it burns off one of the things that maks your heart beat because i have two of them but a normalperson has one. has anyone had this pocedure? i want to get it because this ondition scares me but im also scared of the procedure because they would make me unconcious so if anyone has had thi or any other surgerys or anything done could you please tell me about what its been like? the only medical thing ive ever gotten was stitches and i dont know if its wortth it

thank you so much!
thanx!

Q: This will be verry long, but please bear with me and help.. I am desperate for advice right now..

I feel like there is no reason for me to live anymore. The past week my friends have stood me up and lied to me. My mom is a huge alcoholic so all she does is yell at me (like now), blaming me for her personal problems. My dad is always angry at me. I never know why, actually. I am always doing something that makes him mad. Whenever I have something to say, nobody listens. Usually they later regret it but that doesn't stop from ignoring me again. Also, my cousin cheerfully (at least it seemed like it) said I am invited to her birthday party. It would be a huge blast since she just turned 18. She said she would tell me when to get there.. but later after asking she never responded back, because she never told me. So she went without me. First of all, this meant SOO much to me because I haven't seen her in months, so I was looking forward to it.

She also did this a few other times so I wouldn't consider it an accident. She never wants to take me anywhere.

It's the same with my friends. I post bulletins on Myspace, saying how hurt I am or something, and nobody cares to reply back. You'd think out of 100 friends, one of them would, right? No.

I feel hated, betrayed, and lied to. I feel like I am everyone's punching bag.

I am mentally ill, actually. I have attempted suicide numerous times, once ending up in the ER. I get panic attacks and mental breakdowns. I do see my school counselor, but all she can do is calm me down. She doesn't help the problem, she just helps the way I feel. But I want the problem to be helped because all it does is it gets worse. I am sick and tired of being treated all crappy. I do nice things for people but the favor is never returned. Usually I don't expect any to be but I never get one returned.

My parents refuse to get me to a Psychologist. The most I can do right now is school counseling. I live in a crappy city so there is no shelters nearby or anything.

I want to die. I want to be gone. I am sure if I do die, everyone will be happy because right now everyone just gets mad at me for no reason. I have done nothing wrong, but I blame mysef everyday for just existing.

What can I do?? PLEASE HElP!!=[

ps - please don't ignore this because I know this site gets many questions about depression and suicide, and I know I am annoying you people for adding on to it. But I am ill, and I need help. Thanks.
first i want you to know i cant help you at all. i have absuloutly no idea what you might be feeling. i cant ever begin to try to relate. i do understand what it feels like to be walked all over. it totally sucks. you wish you can change the world, and you really really want to change the way people act, but you cant. you feel angry and defenseless and ive been there. but it does get better. you cant change the way people act but you can change how it affectts you. maybe ask your school counsler if she has any friends who would be your therapist for free. then your parents wouldent have to know. or have your counsler talk your parents into getting you a therapist. you need to talk to sumone who can help you. It seems like forever until these problems go away, because somtimes they never really do, but you can suround yourself with people who love and care about you and who make you forget about the problems.

Q: who ever said that ex bf/gf's can't be JUST friends??...well theyre right..almost. ugh, i swear my ex says he was cool being friends at first but i kinda wasnt only because i was SO hurt. now later on we became "friends" but lately he's being such a jerk. like all he does is be mean..not like punch you or kick you mean like verbaly mean. it drives me crazy because one day were like nice to eachother the next he gets me really mad because he gets mean. i don't know whats going through his head...what do i do? what is he feeling? what does it mean?
that means hes talking 2u 2 help his ego please stop talking 2 this boy!!!
hes a jerk

Q: 18/F
Well, telling the whole story could potentially take a while, so I'll do my best to summarize. There's this guy--let's call him Bob--and he and I have been really good friends basically since we met. I always kind of had a crush on him, but he always had a girlfriend. Then his gf turned out to be a lying bitch, and they broke up, and wonder of wonders, he asked me out. Of course, I said yes. We dated for five months total, and we had a really great relationship. We never really argued, we got along great, I loved him more than anything. He was even talking about us potentially getting married one day.

Well, he had this really close female friend--we'll call her Mary. After we'd been dating for about three months, he realized he had feelings for her, and broke up with me. It only lasted for about two days and then he came back to me, saying he'd made a huge mistake, didn't want to lose me, etc. I took him back, and he promised me it wasn't going to happen again.

Of course, it did. He broke up with me, and he's been going out with Mary ever since. Now, I don't know what to do. He's my best friend, and I don't want to change that. But I still can't help but have feelings for him. I guess you could say he was my "first love," and I'm having issues getting over the whole thing. I still get jealous just about every time I see Mary, or anyone mentions her, or anything. It's been months, and I know I should be over it by now--and it doesn't hurt as bad as it used to, but I just can't seem to stop being bothered entirely.

What should I do? Any advice would be vastly appreciated. Thanks. =)
sweetie your 18, you have a life of your own!!! you dont need these people. i would disttance yourself from Mary and stay friendds with BOB. but maybe find another boy to distract you? just wait some time, because soon youll be completely over BOB!

Q: ok well i am 13 ok n my bf iz older then me ok nd he keeps pressuring me into things what should i do? cuz like i have been goin out with him for awhile now n he iz like telling me wat to do n shit n its very confusing n on msn he keeps telling me to flash him n finger myself on cam ok nd i dont no wat to do about that either ok plzzz help me i dun no wat to do!!!
dump him right now
hes a jerk and useing you and dosent deserve you dump him now

Q: my 15th b-day is tomorrow
i am having a party on friday @ my dads house
and he ended up goin outta town last minute; so my big sis said she would "chaperone"
she just turned 21
it was gonna be just 4 girls; now im havin guys come over too

my question is; do i need to have like tons of food out? or make some if ppl get hungry?
or like have movies out or just wing it?

i've never had a real "party" (like drinking and such) i've been to a few; but they were like BIG ragers with tons of people
this is only like 8...
have food out!! if its like 8 people have like 2 bags of chips and pretzels
movies are a good idea
maybe have like three so that peopl can pick?
yeah that sounds good!

Q: my friend got me an eyeshadow pallete from sephora for my birthday. i'm not make up savvy, and im scared to say, i have no idea how to use it.

please help me.
Application on Entire Lid

Instructions

STEP 1: Prime the eyelids by dusting them with a small amount of loose powder.

STEP 2: Select a light base shadow. Using a shadow brush, sweep it across your entire lid, from brow to lash line.

STEP 3: Use a medium-toned shade to cover your lower lids.

STEP 4: Contour the crease of your eyelid with a dark shade, using a smaller eye shadow brush. This color can also work as an eyeliner (see the next section for instructions).

STEP 5: Blend shadow by stroking the lid gently with an eye shadow brush. Don't use your finger'you could wipe off the shadow entirely.

STEP 6: Use a cosmetic puff and a little pressed powder to tone down heavy shadow. Shake any excess powder off the puff, then press it gently on your lid.

Eye Shadow to Line the Eyes

Instructions

STEP 1: Choose a medium or dark shadow color to line your eyes.

STEP 2: Use a small, flat, angled brush for the application.

STEP 3: Stroke the brush over the eye shadow.

STEP 4: Start at the inside edge of your upper lid. Angle the brush so that the longest tip follows the shorter end as the brush moves across your lash line. Bring the brush to the outer corner of the eye.

STEP 5: Create a more dramatic line by wetting the brush before stroking it through the shadow. Mist a small amount of water onto the brush, or dab it into a few drops of water and proceed with the line. The shadow may feel wet as you draw your line, but it will dry quickly.

Overall Tips & Warnings

Don't share eye makeup or tools'you can unknowingly transfer eye infections such as pinkeye (conjunctivitis).
If you get shadow in your eyes, flush them gently with tepid water.

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Application: When applying a single color, first place it from the lashes to the crease using a brush such as Paula's Choice Large Round Shadow Brush or Shadow Softening Brush . Make sure that you do not extend the color into the inside corner of the eye (off the lid area) or out beyond the lid onto the temple. Also be certain there are no patches of skin showing through on the lid next to the eyelashes. The entire lid at this point is one solid color.
Next, place the color from the crease up to the brow, following the entire length of the eyebrow from the nose out to the temple area. Avoid leaving a hard edge at the back (outside) corner of the eye where the eyeshadow stops. If desired, use a brush such as Paula's Choice Soft Blending Brush . This will create subtlety and a soft highlight under the eyebrow. Because the eyeshadow for the one-color eye-makeup design is so soft and subtle, blending and application is quite easy. The best colors for this design include light tan, neutral taupe, beige, pale mauve brown, pale gray, light golden brown, camel, and light auburn. Whatever the color, it should definitely not be obvious.
Two-color design: This is the most common, practical eye design. Approach this design by applying the lighter color to the eyelid and the deeper color from the crease up to the brow, or you can apply the deeper color to the lid and the lighter color from the crease to the brow. Generally speaking, the under-eyebrow color should be a shade or two darker than the lid color. You do not want it to be a distinctly different color, just a different shade. The lid can be taupe, beige, tan, camel, gray, light auburn, golden brown, or any light neutral shade, and the under-eyebrow color should be a deeper shade of the same color. Women with darker skin tones can wear muted rose, mauve, or peach as long as it doesn’t make their eyes look irritated or isn’t too obvious. Bright, noticeably shiny, or whitish shadows can look dated and make the brow bone look more prominent and heavy.
Which color and what shades go where? The general rule is that the larger or more prominent the eyelid area is compared with the under-brow area, the darker or deeper the eyelid color can be; the smaller the eyelid area is compared with the under-brow area, the brighter or lighter the eyelid color can be. The notion is that if the eyelid area is already prominent or large, it isn't necessary to make it appear any bigger by applying a light color to it. If the eyelid area is small, it is appropriate to make it more prominent by wearing a lighter color.
Application: Whichever way you choose to apply this design, the lid and under-brow shades should meet but not overlap at the crease. You can use brushes like Paula's Choice Large Round Shadow Brush or Small Round Shadow Brush to apply the light shade to the lid and Paula's Choice Crease Defining Brush or Angled Shadow Brush to apply the darker shade from the crease up to the brow. Then, using a small wedge brush such as Paula's Choice Wedge/Brow Brush , you can use the light color again as a highlight just along the lower edge of the eyebrow. This can bring dramatic, but subtle, attention to the shape of the brow and the eye without the need for another eyeshadow color. You can also apply the lighter color from the lid to the under-brow area and use the darker color in and slightly above the crease. Then take a brush such as Paula's Choice Precision Shadow Brush and use the darker color to softly shade the back corner of the eye, making sure this shading is an extension of the crease color. For more dramatic variations on this theme, see the three- and four-color designs below.
Three-color design: Start by applying either of the basic one- or two-color eye-makeup designs mentioned above. Once you have done that, the third shade, an even deeper color than the two previous colors, is added to the back (outside) corner of the lid or in the crease, or over both the crease and the back corner of the lid.
In this design, the lid and under-brow colors are softer and less intense than the color at the back corner of the lid or in the crease. Regardless of where you place this third, darker color, it can be a beautiful deep shade of brown, charcoal, cedar, mahogany, sable, red-brown, slate, chocolate brown, camel, deep taupe, eggplant, or even black.
Application: If you apply the third eyeshadow in the crease, the trick is to not get the crease color on the lid, but rather to blend it slightly up into the under-eyebrow area and out onto the temple. Paula's Choice Crease Defining Brush or Angled Shadow Brush make this step easy. When sweeping the crease color across the eye, be sure to not follow the down-curving movement of the shape of the eye. The best look is achieved if you blend the crease color out and up into the full back (outer) corner of the eye, and up onto the back of the brow bone.
When you apply the crease color, be sure to watch the angle of your brush as you blend the color from the crease out and up toward the under-brow area. If you place your color with the brush straight up at a 90-degree angle, you will look like you drew on wings. The softer the angle and the fuller the sweep, the softer the appearance, so be certain you blend out and slightly up from the lid area toward the under-brow area. If you have a small eye crease area, Paula's Choice Precision Shadow Brush will make a controlled application and expert placement foolproof.
If you apply the third color at the back corner of the eye, the color hugs a small section of the lid, blending out and up into the crease and temple area. This step is explained in more detail for the four-color eye-makeup design.
Four-color design: In this design, you again start with the one- or two-color eye-makeup design, then add a darker color to the crease and an even darker color such as black or deepest gray to the back corner of the eye. Shading the back corner of the eyelid involves the arts of placement and blending. Because this area almost always requires a dark color, blending is essential to make it look soft, with no hard edges.
Why bother with a crease color and more shading at the back corner of the eye? The best part of this full eye-makeup design is that it shades, defines, and creates movement by adding a shadow in a curved flowing motion that follows the natural shape of the eye. The difficult part of this design is blending the crease color across the entire length of the eye without making it look obvious, choppy, or smeared. The goal is to tuck the color just in the crease at the fold nearest the nose and have it hug the crease until you get to the back corner of the eye, where you start the movement of the eyeshadow up and out onto the brow bone. Again, this sweep of color should not look like a stripe across the eye.
Application: Be sure to knock the excess eyeshadow off your brush, and apply the color with very small strokes over the back corner of the lid only. The problem here is keeping the color on the back of the lid only. If you don’t know how to handle the brush, the back wedge can take up more than half of the eyelid (looking more like a mistake rather than carefully blended shading) or look like a stripe across the temple.
As mentioned above, when you apply the crease color, be sure to watch the angle of your brush as you blend the color from the crease out and up toward the under-brow area. If you place your color with the brush straight up at a 90-degree angle, you will look like you drew on wings. The softer the angle and the fuller the sweep, the softer the appearance, so be certain you blend out and slightly up from the lid area toward the under-brow area.
Remember, the center or fold of the crease area is always the darkest, so start your brush there and blend out in each direction. A brush such as Paula's Choice Soft Blending Brush makes it easier to soften and blend darker colors. Concentrate your efforts on the crease area you want to shade. Start all the way at the front part of the eye area under the front third of the brow, then follow the crease through the center, blending slightly up toward the brow. As you approach the back corner of the eye, begin your movement up and out toward the temple, aiming toward the eyebrow.
Eyeshadow Tips

Matte powder eyeshadows in an array of neutral tones from light to dark are your best bets for a classic, sophisticated eye design that accents the shape and color of your eyes.
Unless you’re using just one eyeshadow color, use at least two eyeshadow brushes for application.
Prep the eyelid and under-brow area with a matte-finish concealer, foundation, and/or powder before applying eyeshadow. This ensures a smooth, even application and (if you have fair to medium skin) will also neutralize the red and blue coloration of the eyelid.
Tap off any excess eyeshadow from your brush before applying—this will prevent overapplication as well as flaking eyeshadow.
If you really want to make the color of your eyes pop, choose a contrasting color in a soft tone and apply this to the lids. Blue eyes come alive with pale peach or cantaloupe hues, green eyes seem richer with light bronze or caramel tones, hazel eyes become more alluring with chestnut and golden brown shades, and brown eyes are nicely accented by almost all neutral tones.
Eye-Design Mistakes to Avoid

Do not overcolor the eyes; excessive bright colors are distracting, not attractive.
Do not create hard edges; you should not be able to see where one color stops and another starts. Practice your application and learn to blend well.
Do not wear bright pink or iridescent pink eyeshadows; they make eyes look irritated and tired. Muted or pale pink is an option.
If you are concerned about making skin look more wrinkled, do not wear shiny eyeshadows of any kind because they exaggerate the appearance of lines. If you have smooth, unlined eyelids and prefer a touch of shine, apply it sparingly for subtle shimmer rather than distracting glitter.
Do not apply lipstick or blush over the eye area; it might sound like a time-saver, but if you have a lighter skin tone, it can make you look like you’ve been up all night crying. However, most bronzing powders can work as eyeshadows.
Do not match your eyeshadow to your clothing or your eye color. If you have blue eyes, blue eyeshadow makes the blue of your eyes look duller. And complementing your clothing is at best dated; besides, what if you're wearing red or black?
Avoid eye glosses and other greasy products at all costs. These may look intriguing in photographs, but are more annoying than alluring in real life because they stick, smear and smudge all over the place in a very short period of time.
Eyelining Tips Line the upper lash line with a dark shade of matte powder eyeshadow (wet or dry) applied with an eyeliner brush (such as Paula's Choice Eyeliner Brush or Precision Liner Brush ). If you prefer to use a pencil, consider Paula's Choice Ultra-Thin Eye & Brow Pencil for precise results. Use a lighter shade of powder or pencil to line the lower lash line.
thats all from http://www.cosmeticscop.com/learn/article.asp?PAGETYPE=ART&REFER=MAKEUP&ID=43
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Q: okay so i am redoing my room and i am getting like this self thing on my wall ti out my books on and i had all the clique book and i told my firend she could keep for alittel bit. but now i want them how doi tel her i want them back now??or am i being mean?
ur never going to believe this, but im going through the exact same thing!! i lent my friend my Clique books and she keeps forgetting to bring them back
just tell her
be like this say
"tomorrow after school do u think it wood be okay if i came over and picked up my Clique books?
and then you get them back!
your npt being mean, theyre your books!

Q: Me and a girl work in the library we do the same workstudy job. And, our job description does not include getting books for people unless they really need our help because for one we're not allowed to answer reference questions and most students can find there own books. But the girl asked me to find a book for her i asked her "You don't know how to find books?" she said yeah i do but i'm gonna go look for this book i need. So i agree but then i sas her over there talking to this cutie clear across the room no where near any books than she goes an dhugs another one. So I didn't get it 'cause if she can do that she can find her own book and i told her that. an i wrong, right, or just justified?
uch, you were 100% right! this girl is just being lazy and using you to get her stuff while she flirts
i do not like this girl
no, this girl was rude, not you!

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FRIENDS ARE LIKE ELEVATOR BUTTONS. THEY CAN EITHER BRING YOU UP OR TAKE YOU DOWN. CHOOSE WISELY
A friend will let you borrow their umbrella but a best friend will take yours and scream "Run Loser Run!!!"
we are all angels
with one wing
and we can wonly fly
with the help of somone else
my friends are my wings

TRUE FRIENDS
THEY ARE HARD TO FIND
DIFFICULT TO LEAVE
AND IMPOSSIBLE TO FORGET!

you can pick your friends, and you can pick your nose! but you cant pick your friends nose

killers stab you in the head
Frenemies stab you in the back
boys stab you in the heart
but best friends dont carry knives

a best friend will never ever come to bail you out of jail so never use your one phone call on them
i tried that, but she wouldent pick up. when i got back to our jail cell, i asked her why she wouldent pick up her phone.

theres no thing as strangers. there are only friends we havent met yet



ill give you advice the best that i can
im only 13 so the advice i give you may not be the best
but ive made tons of mistakes so i can relate
and im obsessed with shopping so anything with clothes i can help
and im always here if you want to talk or hang out or anything
im giving you the truth straight up
i am a brutally honest person
Im also fun-loving and adorable
I consider myseld a happy person
I just happen to love black
Do not call me gothic or ill kill you

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