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So, i've been thinking about but not really knowing if... I mean it's not that I want to commit suicide... I guess i'm just depressed and no I don't want to go on medication cause it's not like my brain is screwed up... it's just that I dunno I feel ugly I feel bad and whenever I tell anyone it doesn't seem to be relevant to them... and yes I know by posting this there will be people (stupid) saying that "YA U SHOULD U WORTHLESS PEICE OF ****" and I really don't care cause I probably should... I know that you guys probably don't care whether I live or not cause I mean it'll just mean one less mouth to feed and one more room to fill...

Basically the reason why I am depressed is that cause I'm gay and i've told people but not everyone... and I just want to have someone to be able to love me back and someone to be able to cuddle with on winter's cold... I've tried online chatting (no not AIM) but actual sites that are serious and no respons... I guess it's cause I'm ugly... but I just feel... *sigh* _(link)

Get your self some Niacin you can get it at any GNC or vitamin shop.

It is why suicidal patients get better. Look it up.

Its your only option Most people will be totally cured from depression im a matter of weeks.

I have tried every thing there is and this is the only thing that works.

Dont stop taking it. With out Niacin it is impossible to get better.

Okay, I just want to know why so many people consider suicide. What do they think it will achieve? Do they really think everyone will be better off if they are dead? Everyone would just be upset! So please, someone enlighten me.

Thanks!
Signed,
Seeking enlightenment.

and please dont delete this question again. i really do want to know! _(link)

Most people commit suicide because of poverty. lack of cash. Greed kills.

My grandfather commited suicide in April of this year. And it seems I can't cope with it. I was suicidal for a while and i have been battleing depression. I just feel like I can't be emotional about it because I have to be strong for my family, especially my mother. and none of my friends understand. I guess where I'm needing advice is I was wondering how i can bring the topic up with my best friend where she will listen to me and let me vent instead of turning it around about herself. and is that even the best way to cope with the problem i am having with not being open with it? or should I just continue what I am doing and try my hardest to stay strong? _(link)

hey
my best mate introduced me to dean through msn. we have never met but we have kinda connected. we have been through the same kind of emotional problems and the other day he said we should meet up and talk about things properly. i really want to as i need to talk about my life. but im scared because i dont like the way i look. i am overweight. do you think that will matter.
i want to meet him because wen we speak to each other its like we know exactley what each other mean. he helped me to get over self harming and a broken heart and i helped him to get over his thoughts of suicide and depression so we are very close emotionally, we just have never met.
do you think it would be a good idea?
thanx
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Lately I have been having thoughts of suicide. Like I used to have it once a month or once every two months, but now it's almost everyday. I even think about how I would do it, how it would feel, what I would say in my suicide note(I have even written one out), I think how my funeral would be and all, I like thinking about it. It gives me a thrill. I know this sounds sick and weird, but it's how I feel. Then there is another part of me that wants to live, that's trying so hard to fight back, but this other side of me is taking over so fast and Im afraid it will lead me somewhere I dont really want to do. I am seeing a therapist now, have told her everything, but Im just so scared it could be any day now. Just tonight my boyfriend was over and while he lay sleeping on the couch I got up and went into the kitchen and grabbed a bottle of pills, I think I would have done it but then I thought about him and reached into the drawer and cut myself to relieve myself from the anxiety and tension. After I cut I didn't want to commit suicide anymore and I felt better. Could someone try to explain what they thin kI might have? I am so depressed and so scared. _(link)

I have thought alot about suicide. Wrote suicide letters, read them over and over. Some days I want to kill myself, others I don't. I was just wondering for someone who is catholic and christian why do these thoughts occur. I believe in God so much and go to church all the time, but yet I have these evil thoughts, what would happen if I were to kill myself, would I go to hell? _(link)

I write out suicide notes and read them over and over...i write long paragraphs explaining to my family why I killed my self..while I write it I am laughing and thinking how fun this is, I get a thrill out of it. Sometimes I think I am depressed, but I don't feel depressed. I love thinking about suicide, wondering who would be at my funeral, if anyone would cry or care. I feel like I am going crazy, it's always on my mind, am I just crazy? Because I don't have any of the symptoms of depression.. _(link)

I am so scared right now. So many things have happened to me over the past few months of this year. I began cutting myself in the beginning of may over bouts of depression. all the sudden out of no where this depression hit me. I have a great life too, but I get so depressed. Throughout the summer I would have strange mood swings, one hour I would be hyper and happy and love everyone, the next hateful, depressed, and angry at the world. I would hide in my room, and lately I have been having fear of light. I literally scream in anguish if a blind is open or I see sunlight. My mom doesn't know what is wrong with me, lately I have been scaring my sisters and boyfriend. All the sudden I found myself obsessing over demons and possessions. I have already been diagnosed with OCD, so maybe this could be another factor of it. But this is way worse than a typical OCD episode. When I have these thoughts I have thoughts of demons faces, angels bleeding, it's haunting me so much. I then hear things in a distance in my mind, telling me to do different things, telling me to look up satanist things. I dont want to, but somehow or another I feel forced. Lately, suicide has come into my mind. My cutting is worse, I have no apetite at all, Im starting to look emaciated, I feel down alot, could I be unconsiously possessed(well i wouldnt call it possessed but..I dont know how else to say it)or is this something medical as in disorder? Im so confused, and sometimes what scares me is Ill be in my room and get into fights with myself, I feel my head spin and Im going crazy. I cut and slash my arm while I fight myself, saying good things then negative things about myself. I also, when I feel tension and angered, it is really bad, it builds up so much inside me ill sit in a corner of my room and rock back and forth pulling my hair and shaking my head crying..and sometimes banging my head against the wall, but in front of my family I try to act normal, they know about my obsession, but dont know all the details. Im scared, and right now I feel fine, my crazy episode has passed, but there is always one lurking around the corner. What is this? Also to let you know, I have faith in God, but lately have pulled away from him, as in I have not said a prayer since this stuff has happened, I just can't..because when I try to say one I get thoughts of how silly it is and then I feel myself not meaning what I say in the prayer, though I want to mean it so badly. _(link)

I really need some advice, and I am open to ALL people to give me their opinions and advice, I have never been so depressed.

On Boxing night a few days ago, we went down to my brothers for dinner, everything was grand. My brother is a keen taker of drugs, but I never was really into them, I tried them once or twice, but thats it. He offered me some and I refused, as the night went on I got more and more drunk with the family, and he offered again while I was getting ready to go out and club with my friends, and in my drunken state I accepted to E tablets, and took them in the bar when I got down with my friend James.
The night was a blur, apparently I was falling all over the place, talking crap and generally making an ass of myself. In the end I collapsed outside the bar, couldnt talk and had to get taken away in an ambulance, with all my friends looking on,most of them in tears, concerned about my state. While James came out, didnt tell anyone what I had taken and went back in to club. My brother phoned up the hospital and checked me out, knowing well what I had took, my parents where oblivious, and have lost a son over a year ago to suicide, so they are always concerned about out well being, and I couldnt ask for better parents. Adding even more guilt on my part.
I went back home and my mate shorti had a fight withmy bro, andI shorti left in an angry and upset state, me running after him. And I got atacked with a glass bottle across the head.
Tpcut along story short all my friends where disgusted at me, but relaised I had made a mistake and forgave me, I aint a druggie, I have taken them three times b4 (i am 21) and I relaise more than everthat this was three times too much. My best friend david is disgusted at me, he told me I made a big mistake and now he wont even reply to my text messages. We have been best mates for year, and we have been through a lot together, more than I can say. But he refuses to talk to me becasue of what I did, but dont we all make misatjkes, and arent friends meant to be there to help us help when we fall, even if it is our fault, he hates me right now andit is killing me, I havent stopped crying, andmy lifeis awreck, I feel undescribable. I love him so much, and I hate the fact that I am such a gulable person and thought I would play "hard man" to my bro and take drugs, i need advice about my friend, what should I do??? _(link)

THANK YOU SO MUCH IN ADVANCE FOR ANSWERING THIS AND I AM SORRY IF IT IS LONG BUT I REALLY NEED HELP WITH THIS.

So i have a really good friend and he has been talking about suicide all this week and he is really starting to scare me. I talk to him about how much i care about him etc. but still he said i dont think ill kill myself just now. but later i dont know. IM SO WORRIED ABOUT MY FRIEND! and try to have some other answer besides tell someone because i know that and i am considering it. So please any other good ideas.. ILL RATE 5'S FOR ALL SERIOUS ANSWERS

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I'm miserable with my boyfriend. I didn't really get to know him too well before I started going out with him, so now I have really found out what he is like. He is weird and obsessive over me, and he never leaves me alone. He always wants to kiss or make out and I really just want to be single again. :(

He is actually an okay person, but not to date, and I think by dating him, I've started to change him. He's stopped smoking and he does less drugs. He has a bad life and he said he would kill himself if he ever lost me. Now, I hate to be so pathetic and ask you guys this, but I really need help.

How can I tell him that I want out? Or that I just don't feel I'm ready for this relationship? I don't want to hurt his feelings, or for him to hate me, or worse of all, for him to commit suicide or go back to drugs. Please help!! _(link)

I have a huge depression problem. And it's not a "phase" I've had this problem for almost 2 years. I have bad anxiety and bad guilty feelings all the time. I'm emo, and for the ones that don't know what that is, it's where you have over-emotional problems. And I wont to get rid of the depression. What should I do? I don't want to go see a doctor, or a psychiatrist. I am always having bad thoughts about suicide, and in every dream I have, some one dies. And I can't talk to my parents about it, all they say is "its just a phase, you'll get over it"...they have been saying that for 2 years, and i haven't gotten over it. Please help me. -Chad
By the way, I'm a 14/m. _(link)

I've been having suicidel thoughts leatly, I think it's because I came to a conclusion that I'm a worthless nobody, I'm not good at anything and that I really have no reason to live ,no goal in life or will living.
Please give me some advice how to get this thoughts out of my head...

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Hey my name is Rachel and iam 17 years old and my granny is causing me to be depressed I'll give you some examples.on my 17th birthday she told me that nobody loved me and that I was stupid becouse I was in special ed classes at school.my granny also told me that Iam to fat for my own good and she told me that my mom killed my dad becouse she divorced him when I was 3 and said it broke his heart and that's why he died,but I think she had a pretty good reason for divorcing him when I was 3 becouse he molested me.I took an extra adderal and bloodpressure pill today hoping I would lose weight becouse my granny keeps telling me that iam fat and ugly and I was kind of hoping it would kill me from overdose.my cousin is the only person I can go to with this problem becouse I can trust her to keep it a secreat.I've talked to my cousin about my suicide attempts and she just kept an eye on me and didn't tell my mom about it becouse she knows how my mom is.what should I do? please help me urgent. _(link)

I'm not a novice when it comes to the topic of suicide, but I am now facing a situation and I have no idea what to do. Over the past year, my friend(Hannah), and I have been writing letters to each other, even though we see each other every day. Well, I've found out things about her, and she about me, through these letters. She's really depressed and wants to kill herself. I've told her that if she wants to find someone who can help, I'll help her find someone. But, a few days ago, she told me that she didn't care whether or not she lived or died, so she wouldn't be helping me find someone to help her. So now, I feel as if her life is in my hands. My problem is, I don't know who to talk to. Hannah swears that she won't be mad at me if I tell someone, I just don't know who to tell. HELP ME, PLEASE! _(link)

Okay so i seriously believe i need to be put back on anti-depressants. i've been on them about 3 years ago. and once i got off of them i was fine...until about a week ago...i've been depressed for almost 2 weeks now and everyday suicide sounds so much better than continuing...it's like it's the answers to my prayers..dont lecture me on how suicide is bad and blah blah blah because i know...obviously i know. my real problem here is telling my mom. i'm too young to get the meds. myself and she'd know anyways. i dont want to tell my doctor especially because she'll ask alot of questions about why i'm having suicidal thoughts and all this bull and i cant give her a straight answer. I dont like talking about it. I just want the damn medicine without all the hassle. and no...i'm not addicted, i just dont like being treated like a psycho. what can i say to my mom and my doctor to let them both know i want to be put back on anti-depressants? thanks in advance! _(link)

This will be verry long, but please bear with me and help.. I am desperate for advice right now..

I feel like there is no reason for me to live anymore. The past week my friends have stood me up and lied to me. My mom is a huge alcoholic so all she does is yell at me (like now), blaming me for her personal problems. My dad is always angry at me. I never know why, actually. I am always doing something that makes him mad. Whenever I have something to say, nobody listens. Usually they later regret it but that doesn't stop from ignoring me again. Also, my cousin cheerfully (at least it seemed like it) said I am invited to her birthday party. It would be a huge blast since she just turned 18. She said she would tell me when to get there.. but later after asking she never responded back, because she never told me. So she went without me. First of all, this meant SOO much to me because I haven't seen her in months, so I was looking forward to it.

She also did this a few other times so I wouldn't consider it an accident. She never wants to take me anywhere.

It's the same with my friends. I post bulletins on Myspace, saying how hurt I am or something, and nobody cares to reply back. You'd think out of 100 friends, one of them would, right? No.

I feel hated, betrayed, and lied to. I feel like I am everyone's punching bag.

I am mentally ill, actually. I have attempted suicide numerous times, once ending up in the ER. I get panic attacks and mental breakdowns. I do see my school counselor, but all she can do is calm me down. She doesn't help the problem, she just helps the way I feel. But I want the problem to be helped because all it does is it gets worse. I am sick and tired of being treated all crappy. I do nice things for people but the favor is never returned. Usually I don't expect any to be but I never get one returned.

My parents refuse to get me to a Psychologist. The most I can do right now is school counseling. I live in a crappy city so there is no shelters nearby or anything.

I want to die. I want to be gone. I am sure if I do die, everyone will be happy because right now everyone just gets mad at me for no reason. I have done nothing wrong, but I blame mysef everyday for just existing.

What can I do?? PLEASE HElP!!=[

ps - please don't ignore this because I know this site gets many questions about depression and suicide, and I know I am annoying you people for adding on to it. But I am ill, and I need help. Thanks. _(link)

One of my best friends just can't seem to get a date. Because of this, he is extremely depressed...and it's been getting worse and worse. He gets frequently depressed, sometimes even if the tiniest thing happens, and as a result, he punches walls, he verbally lashes out at my boyfriend, goes into his room and listens to depressing music...and sometimes he has even talked about suicide...he even says his family has a history of this kind of thing...

My boyfriend and I have talked to him over and over and over again, but nothing seems to help...most of the time when we're talking to him, he just ignores what we're saying and gives us cynical comments. Even if what we say cheers him up, it just happens all over again within a day or two...We're running out of things to say to him.

When the talk of seeking help comes up, he just plain refuses to see a therapist...

I am in desperate need of help...Anything, please...

Thank you.
That Gothic Chick _(link)

I am a 17 year old female, im 5'1" and i weigh 105 pounds.. and i know what your probably thinking, average or below average, well im not. Im not calling myself fat, but i do believe im holding more fat than my body should handle. I am happy with my arms, legs and everything because i have a lot of muscle.. my stomach is what bothers me. I feel bloated constantly and im completely embarassed of myself. I feel like i have to constantly suck in and now that summers comming i cant hide behind a hoodie anymore. Ive had frequent thoughts of aneroxia but as i read more into it I completely broke down. Im not asking for suicide or for mental health problems but i have no motivation to run on the tredmil or do situps because flat out im lazy. and when i try to lie to my friends when i say im not hungary they say your the perfect wieght your so skinny. but they dont understand how much i try to make myself look thin and it just does not happen. im completely depressed and i feel like i have no intentions on eatting again. and when i tell my parents its like they're not even listening to me. and when i tell my sister she says "yeah your stomach is big" ...im crying and i cant stop please help me...i just need someone to talk to... _(link)

I cry almost every day for no reason. I'm angry and irritable over the smallest things some days, and other days it's like nothing matters. For the past couple of weeks every time I let my mind wander I end up thinking "wouldn't it be spectacular [I actually use the word spectacular] if I was sure there wasn't an afterlife. Then I could just kill myself" The only thing keeping me from suicide is my conviction that there is an afterlife and I don't want to have to explain myself to a higher entity. I haven't slept more than 20 hours combined in the last 2 weeks. I'm pretty sure I have bipolar disorder, but my parents always think I'm over-reacting. How can I convince them to let me see a psychiatrist? _(link)

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