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I hate my life...
My life pretty much sucks all thanks to this one girl Linda. This is why ; In 3rd grade she took my #1 best friend away from me. Soon, I got over it. Now all thanks to her I met this guy Paul. I can hardly even stand him. Because May 30, we went out, and then he broke up with me 5 days later. I was crushed. July 21, he fell back inlove with me. [Again], 5 days later he broke up with me
Here is the worst part. Today was Linda's party. I tried and tried to loose weight, but my stupid body is to fat. Anyways I went to her party. Amy was there. Amy is really pretty. I really dislike Amy. She was like "ooh, i hate fat people, thats discusting" infront of my face. Paul was there. Paul did not speak to me at all, but he kept starring at me. He is really cute.
Linda's away message [on aim] said she`s going to the movies with Amy and Paul. They were making fun of Paul before.
Sometimes I feel like there is noone to talk to but god. I don`t know why that whatever I say everybody thinks it`s pointless. It has a meaning to me.
Anyways my mom doesnt seem to care about me, at all. But im fine i guess. My father passed away about 5 months ago.
I woke up today at 1. By 2, my day was ruined. Well, I imed Paul, and he blocked me. I was talking to Tyler & Tyler was like now he knows your fat.
Well guess what the 1st day of school, [Aug. 15] I am going to wow everyone. They are going to wish they never made fun of me. Nobody knows how bad I feel. It seems like nobody on this planet loves me. Also, I feel like I cannot trust anyone. Anyways, I fouund out Paul & Amy made out in the movies for 30 minuetes. Oh, how I wish i was Amy. Kyle said Linda was hot. I have to agree with him. Everyone is hot, but me. I am deffently going on a diet. =]
Right now, I don`t know how I feel. All I know is like I hate Amy. Yesterday and today were the worst days of my life. Right know it seem as if my mom hates me. Whats new? I really need to improve my life. One day im going to snap.
Right now im pretty cheered up. Guess what! Paul hates Amy! After she made out with Paul she made out with other guys. Paul apologized to me.
THIS WAS IN MY JORNAL EVERYTHING UP THERE.
Now this is just me typing. Everything seems to be so confusing. I feel unloved by everyone. Please do not recommend conseling. [sp?]
Sorry it was so long. !
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Get away from all of these people. That's the #1 thing. They aren't worth anything to your life except negativity.
No one is ever as fat as they think, or see in the mirror. You may go on a diet- but don't do it for "them", do it for yourself.
As of now, make changes. Do things you wouldn't have done before, and you will get involved with good sorts of people. Your life has greater potential than you think.
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forget paul! he is a jerk....and for that amy and linda girl forget them they seem like they are just trying to make you mad because they have no life of their own...well you should hang out with some other friends or if you want you can go and make some new friends....like when school starts up you could maybe join some after school activites and meet new people.
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oh sweetie...im so sorry.
i felt like you too. but for different reasons. i had a friend who backstabbed me and everybody hated me. i would cry and cry, and felt like dying. but i got through it. im moving to a new city and am starting over like you are starting over for a new school year. there is always somebody in this world who loves you. perhaps your mother is too depressed to express emotion. give it time. she loves you. and amy and linda or whatever, who needs them? paul is a jerk, and hes worth nothing. its all about personality. if they think your fat or whatever, screw them. im so happy at least your changing yourself and becoming more confident. your just going through a tough stage in life that everyone goes through eventually. i hope i helped. much love!
xoxo
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hey don't worrie if you need anyone to talk to then just im me at JessicaBusick@hotmail.com ok i will help you because i think that know one should make front of peoples phisical apperence well im k
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When i was around in elementry school and 6th grade. i was cubby and wore glasses. i wasnt pretty i never had a boyfriend until i was in 7th grade. but i still had my close friends who supported me. but heres my advice. join sport teams i did base ball, basketball, track, soccer. its alot of exercises. and good for your body. eat healthy like salads with out alot of salad dressing. fruit, vegies. exercise every day. i no its summer and hot out side so wake up early and run a little by time you will be able to in crease the amount you run. stick with the friends you have tif they dont support you they arnt true friends. eat smaller serving sizes. Good Luck! i belive in you and i no you can do it. never think neg. Sorry So Long.
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Well there is always a time when you want to be like someone so I get you but you got to realize that you should love yourself,that you could improve,you're already going taking action by dieting which is great,when you lose those pounds,you'll probably be like" you can't make fun of my weight anymore",show people like Amy that" I'm beautiful you just didn't notice".
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hey, i think youy need to find some new friends. linda && amy && paul are causing you way to much pain and sufferings. if you need to talk to anyone, im usually always on aim. if you message me your s/n for aim and leave it in my inbox i will be happy to talk to you.
-caitt<3
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aww ok well first of all, you need ot get away from amy and linda and even paul. they seem to be causing all this drama and you wont be happy until your away from them.
second, dont let what other people say effect you. amy seems like a real biotch and was probably jealous of you and paul and thats why she said that about fat people. and thats prolly why she made out with him.
hope i helped
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lol dude.. don't you ever feel shite about yourself cz some wankers are saying crap.
(excuse language but you dont deserve that treatment.. no one does)-(and its wound me up hehe)
sorry to hear about your dad.. i dont think your mum does hate you if you feel that way. could well be just the stress and coping with his loss. may be concentrate on being there for her (your mum).. it would make you feel alot better and closer to your mum though it could be hard. and meanwhile let that amy girl (who by the way - sounds cheap and whorish) do whatever she does.. you're better than her.
paul sounds as though he is messing you about alot. but he always seems to come back to you huh, dont work for his attention. he can work for yours. so when ur on msn or smthn, let him say hi to you n just talk to him liek nothing has happened ?
you're thirteen right?
seriously. seriously seriously.. if you feel fat or what not.. yeh sure do some excersize cz its healthy huh n it makes you feel quite good about yourself cz it releases endorphins n what not. but i wouldnt worry too much. keep a healthy food diet.. i dont eat amazingly well so i take these multi vitamins that you can buy from like the pharmacy section of your local store. super drug do them too. but you dont need to diet.. just check out what you eat. exersize is a gooden always, ask your PE teachers if they can tell you how to do it correctly?
if linda is hot. may be you could ask her for some like girly advice about whatever crosses your mind. if you two ever got on cz i dnt knwo if you did. but yeh.. u'll b fine.. just take notice of yourself before you start believing that they havent taken notice.
you can add me on sassybabe7@hotmail.com
if you ever wntd to chat or smthn dude.
hope this kinda helped.. bit long like.. :)
xxxx
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