I was drinking last night and got really, really smashed. I know, I was being very stupid by drinking SO much. Anyway, I was at a party and I know this guy was really hitting on me and trying to get in my pants all night long. I was grinding on him some and we were making out. I'll admit that I remember him sliding his hand down my pants and fingered me for just like a few minutes, but I was really, really horny so I KNOW I totally let him do that to me because it feels good.
I'm a virgin though and I want to save myself for marriage and I kept telling him no to putting his penis in me but he kept trying to persuade me. Anyway, I ended up passing out sometime and woke up without most of my clothes on (I only had on my thong panties). It wouldn't have been a big deal but it was like someone had taken off my underwear and put them back on me? I can't be for sure.
Anyway, my loser friends weren't there to take care of me and now I'm worried that the guy succeeded and we did have sex. I called the loser "friends" and they told me crap about me screaming at them a lot to leave me alone with the guy. I know I didn't do that because I'm not that kind of person so they have to be making that up. They are probably too stupid to just tell me the truth that they don't care if I have sex or not. One of the loser friends told me that the last time she saw me I was with the guy and his pants were down and I was giving him head. I PROBABLY did do that because I usually give some really hott guy head at the parties I go to. This guy was WAY hott too. I don't remember that this time though.
Today I'm not bleeding or anything but I have before when I fingered myself and masturbated with things so I think I had already ripped my hymen out. How can I tell if I'm still a virgin? Do I need to see a doctor to find out? Is there actually a way? Should I find out the guy's name and take him to court because he totally took advantage of me last night?! I'm furious if he did have sex with me because I totally didn't say yes to that!
Firstly, I don't think there is any way of telling for sure if you are still a virgin. However, I strongly suggest you get an STD test AND a pregnancy test because if you did have sex, it's unlikely you used protection.
Secondly, how do you know you didn't say yes? You admit that you can't remember giving him head but are pretty sure that you did, so how can you be sure that you said no? I doubt you'd have much of a case in court, if it even went to court, because you can't even remember what happened. Although you say you would never say yes as you're saving yourself until marriage, people's morals tend to go out of the window when they've been drinking.
The same goes for your 'loser' friends. They're probably telling the truth. I suggest you sit them down and talk to them sensibly and calmly about what happened, you might get some answers.
The moral of this story is to stop drinking this much. It is incredibly dangerous as you have illustrated perfectly. You say 'I usually give some really hott guy head at the parties I go to'. Is that really the type of girl you want to be? A reputation like that is hard to shift, and I can almost guarantee that you won't want to be like that forever. You can't have alot of self respect if you go around granting random guys sexual favours, yet you say you're saving yourself for marriage? Just something to think about.
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