Hey guys,
ok I've hit a real low-point in life.
I've already tried killing myself, and that's not it..it's over the stupidest thing ever; looks. I hate myself so much. I'd do anything to be pretty, I've seriously begged my mom for plastic surgery 20 times a day for this whole year. I need to change. It's not that I care what others think cause they seem to think I'm pretty, it's myself, my inner-critic. I won't be happy until I change completely, but my mom made it clear plastic surgery is not an option, so what do I do? I don't remember the last time I was happy, seriously, every time I finally wake up happy, I look in the mirror..and all I see is: bulging stomach, big nose, hairy + manly face, disgusting face, short legs, unproportionate upper-body, tiny feet, weird ears, ugly + uneven skincolour, everything is just humiliating!! I hate myself sooo much, I just don't want to be me anymore, and please don't tell me to seek help or just accept who I am, I don't want to. I want to change. How though? What are some major things I can do to just completely change without plastic surgery?
Hey
The problem isnt changing your appearance, its changing your attitude towards life.
I understand you one hundred percent because Im going through the exact same feelings.
I look at myself in the mirror and find everything and anything about myself that doesnt seem "perfect" or at least perfect to me. I compare myself to all my friends, models, and movie stars. I always seem to end up crying wondering why im not as pretty as them. My whole family is sick of seeing me down, and they try to help me as much as they can but it starts to get annoying and everybody around you gets stressed out. Im sure your mother loves you dearly and it hurts her to see you like this, but trust me all the pain you feel about not loving yourself is hurting her even more. What I end up doing is going to a psychologist. Let me tell you, it was the best thing I could have ever done for myself. Rather then you getting surgery, try going to a psychologist. Each day I learn to love myself and accept myself. Im sure your a very pretty girl and even if anyone else tells you, you wont believe them, im the same way, but what you need to do is look at yourself in the mirror and repeat this: I am beautiful! I love myself! Im not perfect nor do I want to be! I am me and im fine just the way I am! After a while if you keep saying it over in your head, you'�ll start to believe it! Now that you know what firstly needs to be done then you can go on to improving your look. But let me tell you something, no matter how pretty you make yourself out to be, no matter what clothes you buy, what color your hair is, how perfect your skin is, youll never think your pretty enough unless you actually believe it! So before you go out and competly change your self, make sure to change the way you feel about yourself.
First of all you can get plastic surgery when you get older, so if your nose is really that big of a problem save up your money now and when you get older youll get it done if you still find the need. For your weight problem I suggest working out, maybe going to the gym, and eating the right way! If you need a list of foods, or work outs ill be more then happy to send them to you just make sure to leave a comment in my inbox. About the weird ears, well I have pretty weird ears myself, but my mother is letting me get surgery on them this summer. Since surgery is not an option at this point in time, then there are certain hair styles you can wear to avoid showing your ears off. Tiny feet are NOT a problem. I have tiny feet and I absolutely love them. Im a small girl so all together im a pretty cute compact if I don't mind saying so myself! Having tiny feet is an advantage not disadvantage. Your feet will look amazing in any high heel shoes!
If they bother you that much, maybe you should go get a manicure every weekend to have something about your toes that you might find attractive. A lot of people have hair on their face. Some are just more noticeable then others. I suggest you get that waxed, it might be a little painful but its worth it. If you believe you have a manly face then make it unmanly! Wear eye liner, eye shadow, lip gloss, and cover up. Also about that bulging stomach since losing weight takes a while, in the mean time buy some new clothes which by the way will boast up your confidence, but make sure the clothes you get over up your little bump but at the same time look cute and have style. Uneven skin color well like I said before buy, some type of foundation. You see I gave you advice on all the things you had a problem with. Everything could be fixed, except how you feel about yourself.
If you ever need anymore help or advice just leave a comment in my inbox.
♥ maria ♥
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thx hun!! ♥ you're a great girl, you did all of that just because you cared, not even thinking about feedbáck and ratings, I usually don't rate, but since this was sp selfless, I had to! Good luck in life, I'm sure you'll go further than far if you stick with beng such a kind person! ♥♥♥
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