Sorry it's long, but it's VERY important to me.
Okay, me and a bunch of friends were at this party, and there was alcohal (i'm a freshman in high school, 13 years old.) Well anyways, my boyfriend can drive, but he decided to leave his car there(it was a friends house.) and so we decided to split the cost for a taxi ride, about 10 of us squeezed into a taxi, well my REALLY good friend, didn't seem drunk, but we offered countless times for her to ride with us, she kept saying NO, so we gave her the walk test, and she did in a strait line. So since we couldn't talk her into it, she drove home, and ended up driving off a mountain, and she died. Well I felt so bad, and guilty, and I still do. So now I'm trying to stop drinking, after what happened, I decided I better stop. Well I was wondering, I want to get over the guilt, and stop drinking. One of my teachers knows that I drink, and I was talking, with an attitude saying it's not like you can die... and the next day my friend passes away. She is the only adult that I know, but I'd feel really akward talking about it to her, and I wouldn't know how to bring it up, neither of my parents know, and I don't want to upset them, I mean I'd get my butt whooped. So does anybody have any Ideas what I can do? None of her friends besides me want to talk about it, my boyfriend will change the subject each time we bring it up. She was sort of a loner, and she didn't go to my school, niether did my bf, and I met her through him.
So if anybody has any ideas, I'm open to everything EXCEPT telling my parents, or naybers!
Thanks in advance for any help, this is VERY hard for me, so please TRY to be sympathetic.
I'm very sorry for your loss. I would suggest talking to maybe a guidance counselor, youth group leader, social services, ANYONE. I know you don't want to talk to your parents about it, but you might want to anyway, since you need help and that's what parent's are there for (most of the time, don't really know what your home life is like). You might also want to try finding a group counseling session to sit in on and maybe joining as well.
P.S. As per your comments in the rating: Look into the counseling, they can point you in the direction of places like Alcoholics Anonymous, Al-non, etc. for your age group.
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ok, I was just really upset yesterday, and I didn't really think about that
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