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Sucidial thoughts
23/f
I'm not really sure how to express myself right now I just want to vent to someone to listen. I come from a loving family and could get whatever I possibly wanted. But I sometimes feel so sad that I am going no where in life I always feel everything is my fault. I care about people before i care about myself. I would kill myself to save another person. Growing up I can remember this would happen and I think it is getting worse. Whenever I do something wrong and I make someone angry I start hurting myself when I get in a fight with my boyfriend I start punching myself and pinching my arm I slap myself across the face and I tell myself how useless I am and how my mother should have never had me. Is this normal? I don't know if I want to express my feelings to my family about this. I don't want to be put into a physc place and I feel like if I say something people are going to think I'm dramatic. I just needed someone to vent to about this. No one knows about these. I often think about cutting myself but I don't think I have the courage to take something and cut myself with it. What's wrong with me?
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You may have bipolar disorder. This is not a horrible thing. My best friend has it. Just don't end your life when you have so much too live for. Killing yourself wont help anyone! Suicide is a chain. If you do it, despair might cause someone else to do it.
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I'm not even kidding, this is exactly what happened to me. Exactly. For me, this has always been normal, and until I came to advicenators two days ago, I never told anyone about my suicidal thoughts and actions. Every time a death happens I always think it's my fault and like I could have done something. I got into a habit of this that I started enjoying pain, and sometimes it feels like it will make you feel better. One thing I commonly do is use my fingernails to claw up my arms and legs when I'm mad or sad. Hurting yourself though is never the answer. Sometimes when you feel this way, you need someone to talk to. Now your just like me not wanting to tell your family or friends about this, so talk to someone you don't know but that will still care. I've told about three different people this already, but use this app called kindly. It will give you twenty minutes with someone to talk to, or you can use the twenty minutes to help someone, and friend them. It's good that you came online to ask for help. I went online and took a bunch of online test and was proven to have depression. Maybe you should take some too just to see, then maybe go online and talk with people to see how to work through it. I have gotten much better, and talking about it does help, believe me. To stop doing some of these things, I took some hypnosis sessions and it helped tremendously. If you ever need to talk, I'll always speak with you. You can go to my advice column and suggest to leave a question. It doesn't even have to be a question, if you just need to talk ill listen and help in any way I can. God bless 🙌
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What you are feeling is guilt feelings and depression.The first solution for this mindset that you have is Pray to God and ask him for (peace in your life)now you have to have faith to believe what I'am telling you in order for this to work.You also have to be sincere in your heart to God for this matter.and don't kill yourself because there is no forgiveness from God for that and that usually means a possibility of going some where where you don't want to go for eternity.Now you need to talk to someone that you are close to and tell them your situation,locate and talk to a minister in a church right away,also a counseling agency because you might need medicine for the matter.The main thing is to tell someone your story right away and don't be afraid to do that. Keep the Faith.
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First off all, I want to start of by saying that just making the effort to write this and put it out there shows that you have courage and are seeking healthy and productive ways to deal with your feelings.
I think many of us feel like we are going nowhere or are stuck in a rut from time to time. The key is to realize that this is probably not the case. One good way to do so is to take a self inventory of all the things you have to be grateful for, which obviously includes your family.
The fact that you care about others so much and say you would kill yourself to save another person, which in my opinion means you'd sacrifice and be selfless, is an amazing quality. If anything, that is an indication that you deserve to live a long and happy life.
Most all of us experience anger and frustration toward ourselves at times. I think you just need to understand that's it's OK not to be perfect and you need a healthy way to express your frustration. My suggestion work be to engage in exercise activities or do take up something creative as a new hobby.
I know how hard it can be to share some things with your family. And while it is a decision only you can make, based on how much you say they love you, I would really let them know about what is going on with you. A lot of people have these sort of feelings and don't spend time in institutions. You can certainly look into therapy at an office like you would go to visit any other doctor and possibly some medication to help.
You are caring and courageous and can beat this.
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Hon, I have daughters in your age range and one daughter has severe depression and refuses to take medication so she's in bad shape. She hid from me when this started as a teen and wasn't obvious yet. Much later, after married with a kid did she confess what she was going through. I did not take it personally as being a bad parent. I know I was a good parent and that it's nothing I did wrong. I can't say if your mom would feel that same. But I'd like to believe that as common as mental health problems, depression and even learning disorders are these days, people would know it's not anyone's fault, including the person suffering from the disorder.
No, what you described is not 'normal' ,to use your word. However since the opposite would mean abnormal, I prefer not to use those words as you may tend to think of yourself as abnormal and hate and punish yourself even worse. What i would term it is whether you are Healthy or not. Some people are simply born with something out of balance mentally, emotionally or physically. It is no fault of your own. That is how I want you to look at your situation. From how you describe yourself, you seem to have some wonderful qualities and I am sure you are a wonderful person with the exception of what you struggle with. This is something you can't fix and bring into balance your self. That's why there are medical professionals, and mental health professionals. I can't explain what is causing you to be this way, and its best left to professionals to test and screen you and discover what it is. Simply venting to us is not going to make you feel better. I am go glad you wrote in dear. Since you are an adult, unless you're in college and still on parents health insurance, you will need to have your own insurance plan and Dr. to get things going in the right direction. If it's not offered through work if working, get on Obama care if you aren't already. Go see your medical Dr. and be honest and tell them everything you told us here. They won't think badly of you. This is what they are there for and they can get you hooked up with mental health care and possibly also a social worker to help. Do this for yourself, whether you tell your parents or not. Do not worry about being labeled crazy or locked up and put away. Movies of such situations are way long in the past and that is no longer done as the medical community has had much advances in knowledge and medication and they prefer to treat people to help them lead normal lives. Go get the help you deserve dear and enjoy your life for once.
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No what you write about is not normal and we are not doctors so we cannot make a definitive diagnoses. You may be suffering a form of depression that has caused you to have a low self-esteem as well. This is called clinical depression and is generally caused by a hormone imbalance easily corrected with replacement hormones.
Now because these hormones are secreted into the part of the brain the control depression your family doctor may refer you to a psychiatrist to medicate you. This does not mean you're crazy the referral is because of the fact that the medication or hormones affected are secreted into the brain a psychiatrist is the best trained MD to medicate.
The hormone imbalance is only part of the problem. Something else triggered the anxiety, the suicidal thoughts and the other self harm thoughts you are having which all relate to the depression. For this you will most likely be referred to a psychologist for talk therapy. This is the person you are looking for. The person you can safely vent to with your most secret thoughts in the knowledge they go no further than the therapy session for they are confidential between you and the therapist.
My suggestion is as follows: First see your family Care Doctor for a complete physical while with the doctor ask to be screened for depression. Remember you are an adult now so everything between you and your doctor is confidential. The doctor needs written permission from you to share your medical information with anyone including your parents even if you are still on their medical insurance.
The physical is to rule out any organic problems for your problem. The screening for depression consists of the doctor asking you questions from which the doctor can make a diagnoses. Once the doctor made a diagnosis follow the doctor's instructions.
Should you feel suicidal or feel like you must hurt yourself in any manner before you see your doctor either call 911 for help or go to the nearest hospital emergency room for help.
There is o reason to suffer with whatever the problem is as help is just a phone call away. Statistically 1 in 3 of us will suffer from some form of depression in their lifetime. So this too is nothing to be ashamed of for as I said help is there for the asking. I know this for I could have written this letter before I asked for help for my depression.
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