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I Want Suicide
If you say anything about "There's a reason for you to be here" or anything about God or giving life a second chance, shove it. I'm 22, have had diabetes since I was 9, have had multiple sclerosis for over a year, have been the president of a club on faith, and have done so many other things that people have suggested. No one gives a shit about me, and that is that. People who I've taken care of for years don't care about me.Life, is bull shit. What is the best way to end it, in your guy's opinion? The least amount of mess too, I've thought about using my pistol, but then there will be brain matter for others to clean up. What is the easiest and cleanest way to commit suicide?
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My advice is don't. It takes true courage to ask for help, but only a coward will give up the fight. Suicide is a selfish act. I have had personal struggles, and I have lost friends and family alike to suicide. I know how that gripping loneliness, pain, and desperation feels... and it sucks. But I would live through a lifetime of anguish just to see the smile on my one year old son's face. There are things worth living for, whether you choose to believe it or not. Now that I've said that, I guess I have to shove it, huh? When I was in active addiction, I crawled into one of those heavy duty black garbage bags and slammed a bunch of heroin, hoping I'd pass out with the needle in my arm and never wake up again. But I did wake up in the hospital, and now here I am, with my wonderful son, whom I live every day for. I'm 23, and I never feel like getting out of bed. I have to force myself to. I still have major depression, and my meds and therapy don't help, and the reason I was surfing through here was because I typed in the best way to commit suicide.... it's weird how sometimes you don't necessarily find what you set out to find, but you end up stumbling upon what you needed to to come to your own realizations.
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Oh, poor poor you. Your sick, no one likes, you have no reason to live. It appears to me just from reading the answers hear you better get on line as you aren't the Ly one who has problems.
As someone who is old enough Tobe your grandfather I will tell you life is not like the old TV shows. Life is what you make of it. Sure you have some problems. You can either sit there and say your screwed or you can find away to make a life for yourself by working through your problems and or disabilities.
At 58 years old I became disabled in a 3 car accident.I was the only innocent person in that mess and the only one seriously hurt. I went through all the grief one goes through in this situation and added to it I had to deal with lawyers and workman's compensation.
On top of my injuries I became depressed. It has taken a long time but I see things differently today than 6 years ago. It has taken a lot of time with the help of very good therapist and psychiatrist to get here, as well as medication. Medication or therapy alone would not have gotten me to where I am today. I also had to develop a positive attitude.
So you see by what I and the rest of us have written you are not alone in having what appears to be insurmountable problems. But problems can be cut down to sizes that can be handled if you work at it.
If you really wanted to kill yourself you would not have written us for you would have known we could not and would not tell yo how to do that. All of us are here to help you if you want help our help.
You can start by picking up the phone and dialing 911. Tell them how you are feeling and maybe read them what you wrote to us. They will send both police and fire rescue to your home. The police are sent to help not to arrest or harm you. Remember what your mom told you when yo were little; "the police our your friends". In this instance the absolutely are your friends. They are being sent to see that you are safe and properly cared for. Fire Rescue are there to care and transport you to the hospital where you will receive the proper medical attention.
You will not feel better over night. It takes a week or so for the medication to kick in. But with a little work on your part, the fog that surrounds you will slowly start to lift. You will feel better about yourself, you will see things more clearly and your friends will like being around you again.
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No one on here is going to be willing or allowed to give you any type of advice on what you are asking. You may not want to hear it but there is always someone who is more depressed than you are. Medical problems or what ever. Read up on stuff a woman was just shot in the head because of an idiot, parents lose their children, People are trapped in egypt and cant get out. People who are scared for their lifes and you just want to go ahead and end yours. Its a dumb choice you could be out doing something with your life and helping others weather they care or not make yourself feel good. You can make good friends. Its not the fact of giving life a second chance its not of not giving up now. I have sat on the floor of a shower and slit my wrist because I am 19 married with two kids and had a husband who wouldnt do a dand thing. life sucks im losing my hearing I am starting to lose my vision i just had to have my gallbladder removed i have nodgel on my ribs which any day could turn into cancer. LIFE SUCKS learn to have a bad day and move on to the next if you want someone to talk to write me back im willing to talk if you just need a friend.
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You're 22. You're old enough and probably smart enough to know very well that no one here is going to tell you how to kill yourself.
Just by writing this question, you're reaching out. You're even daring us to try to help you, telling us to "shove it" and that nothing has worked. That alone means that you haven't given up yet. You may think you have, and you may have run out of ideas, but maybe we haven't, and maybe it doesn't have to be over yet.
I'm 23. I've had crohn's disease since I was 12, and an undiagnosed and still uncontrolled chronic pain problem for about two years. At least you know what's wrong with you. I was abused by the man I wanted to marry, kicked out of a degree after my first two years of college, and am only independent because I have to be.
Not comparing our lives, just letting you know that in a way you're not alone in your pain.
Now, I'm not going to say a thing about God or the people in your life because we don't know anything about either of those.
Have you tried therapy? I know it seems like a dumb idea at this point, but seriously, having someone to talk to, even someone who can help you kind of "reframe" your way of thinking.
Or even try a psychiatrist - someone who can prescribe medications. Maybe you have a chemical imbalance. I work in a psychiatrists' office. It happens.
You say you've done things that other people have suggested - what about you? Aside from ending it all, which you know deep down is not the answer, what do YOU want to do? Do you have a job? Are you in school? You say no one cares about you, and that's why you want to kill yourself. Are you really going to base your life or death on whether or not other people care? If that's the case, you already have a few people. We responded - we care enough to try to stop you. So I guess you'd better live...right? Frankly, you haven't given me a good enough reason to kill yourself.
This is a little unconventional, but...during the most difficult times in my life, I had my job. There, I had the opportunity to help other people, and it gave me something to live for, to keep going for. One client even sent me a Christmas card one year, thanking me for helping her. I'm just a receptionist. Knowing that I made a difference in someone's life, even if it was just that ONE person, helped.
Try volunteering somewhere. If nothing else, you may be able to say, "At least that's not my life." Put yourself in a position to help someone else. You may find that there are things in life worth living for even in the most unlikely places.
I'm just gonna put this out there - my screen name on AIM is SirenCytherea. If you want someone to talk to, bounce ideas off of, or anything, IM me. I'm always on line.
If I don't hear from you, please try to get yourself some help.
Be strong. Keep going.
Siren
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Short answer: There isn't an easy way, and there certainly isn't a clean way. Most of all, you're not going to get what you want here.
Long answer:
First off, don't come here and tell us to shove it. In fact, I'm going to do you a huge favour and tell YOU to shove it right now. I'm 23, have failed out of university multiple times, have several mental illnesses/disorders and severe asthma. Does that mean my life isn't worth living? Because I've been operating under the misunderstanding that it is.
Hey, don't get me wrong. I've been there. I lost contact with my family and friends. I lost just about everything, got into debt, attempted suicide multiple times. So I'm not feeding you touchy-feely bullshit. I'm also an atheist, so you don't have to worry about any God-speak coming from me.
If you're feeling like this, you need to get yourself to a hospital or another safe place where you have no access to anything dangerous. A friend's house, a parent's house, a shelter. Whatever you need to do, just remove yourself from the danger until you can think rationally.
I'm not going to tell you to give life a second chance, because that is B.S. I'm going to tell you to give life a third chance, fourth chance, hundredth chance, millionth chance. Your life is made up of billions of moments, and it's a matter of taking the good and learning from or moving on from the bad. For every bad moment, there are hundreds of good ones. Yes, you experience pain. Lots of it. You also experience sunsets, ice cream and puppies. It's not all bad. You need to find a way to fill your moments with happiness. Have you considered getting involved in the MS community? You can start fundraisers for research, speak out to raise awareness, volunteer at the hospital. Help others... it helps to bring meaning to your life.
Dealing with a serious health diagnosis, you should be seeing a counselor. They can help you to sort out your thoughts on the matter and show you how to make your life more like what you want it to be. They can also refer you to a psychiatrist who can make decisions as to whether you could use some pharmaceutical help.
The fact that people are responding to your question here and disagreeing with you should tell you that we all "give a shit about you" on here. I bet there are people who have read your question but don't feel qualified to answer, but STILL feel concern and empathize with you. In fact, I'm pretty sure I won't get a response from you (any questions I've ever answered about suicide don't get a response) but I still care enough about an anonymous stranger to step in and tell them not to make the biggest mistake of their life. Take what you can from us reaching out to you. People do care.
Suicide, or even attempted suicide, is a hostile act. It hurts everyone around you. It hurts your family, friends, old high school acquaintances, the cleaners who have to peel you off the walls, the cemetery workers who have to bury a person who should have lived a full, happy life. Most of all it hurts you. It means you've given up on yourself. Give yourself a little more credit, and get the help you need to get out of this.
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You know what is BS is writing this. You are giving up and letting life beat you at its own game. I don't really care if you give me a bad rating... I can't read this and ignore the fact you are planning to kill yourself. To take your own life. I KNOW that people don't give a crap about you, EVERYONE is hurt everyone feels lonely, some more than others. You are going to do something that will change the lives of the people around you. People you see but may not know. Do you have any family? Anyone at all, think about how you're hurting them. You are only Twenty-two years old. TWENTY-TWO You have your whole life ahead of you!!!! You don't need to get involved in clubs to find friends you need to get a hobby and meet someone who has the same interests as YOU. If this makes you mad then good... I just hope that you will consider giving life a second chance. As far as diabetes goes things could be worse. You are alive, you are here... don't end your life because your to scared to live it.
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there is no easy or clean way. if you take too many pills, your body might eject them from your system before they do the job. drinking a lot leaves you in a lot of pain. too many pain killers can cause pain, as well. to shoot yourself, you have to aim at an exact location of your brain, which i'm not going to tell you where that is.
and do you know why? because if i do, indeed, tell you how to kill yourself, i will probably get into a lot of legal trouble.
and if you're so sick of people and life, why are you so concerned about leaving blood for people to clean? you must still care about something or you wouldn't even be typing this question.
think long and hard before you do anything.
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