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Tell me how to commit suicide
I am a 45 year old male. I served in the army for 20 years. I was medically discharged due to a negligent life threatening parachute collision. I could not live without being in the army. So on my last day before heading off on holidays, I went up to my room on the barracks and swallowed in excess of 300 tablets. Previously I had been diagnosed with Post Traumatic Stress Syndrome (PTSD) of which I was taking a cocktail of drugs. On top of that I was also taking a cocktail of drugs for the pain from my parachute injuries.So I swallowed the pills...wrote my goodbye letter to my wife and 4 daughters. Unfortunately I woke up in hospital. 2 years later I slashed my left wrist and I was bleeding into a bucket whilst talking to a counsellor...once again I woke up in hospital. I want to die. I can not take this life of mine any more. Please tell 100% how to commit suicide!
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First off I'd like to say thank you for serving your country :). I have planed suicide and I'm terified I will wake up in the hospital like you did. You shouldn't leave your family behind. But if you want to end it call a suicide hotline.
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My best friend committed suicide three years ago by lying down in front of a train. He left behind a one year old son. Because of his selfish act, that child has to grow up without a father. My friend gave that little boy the worst start imaginable. He will be filled with thoughts like if he was the reason for it, if he wouldn't have been born, maybe it wouldn't have happened... all kinds of things. Dont put your family through that. There are new studies on PTSD. Traumatic memories are linked to adrenaline. I forget what the drug is called exactly, but look it up, I'm not bullshitting. It's still in the testing phase, but it's worth looking into. They have done studies on rats and so far it has worked, and proven to decrease memories of traumatic events.
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well let me tell you i have been serching for the same 100% way to die. all i can say is i have not found it yet. i am going to try again with pills and see were that gets me. i know that this doesnt help but you do have your daughters to think of so please put them first. i am sure they want there dad to love them more than he does the army and his love of death. good luck to you in you pursuits.
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You have a wife, four daughters, they need you. Get a therapist and a psychologist. Suicide is never, ever the answer. It hasn't worked your past two attempts, and there's a reason. I grew up without a father, and I'll tell you it was/is living hell. Leaving your daughters will just break them... Your wife needs you and so do they. The best thing for you is proper counseling, and perhaps some time in an institution where they can help you. You have everything to live for.
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Honestly I think you need to wake up and realise you have so much to live for.
You have four daughters! And a wife! How selfish is it of you to off yourself and leave your family to deal with picking up the pieces.
Get some help. Seriously. There are so many people out there that can help you. You cannot commit suicide. You just can't.
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That's NOT the kind of site we are. If anyone did that I sincerely hope they would be booted off swiftly. Let me tell you something you should know.
Problems no matter how big they appear to be always have a solution. It may take a while for that solution to become evident but your situation no matter how monumental it seems could be resolved tomorrow for all you know.
Killing yourself is selfish, cowardly and hurts others. It doesn't resolve your problems because you end up paying a price for them by doing it and you can't reverse it.
What you need to do is go to a hospital emergency room where they don't know you and another psychiatrist can assess you. Be honest with them and tell them your history and that it's all about the accident you had and needing the army to feel complete.
You have to let them know that it's this issue and what transpired after it that is causing your entire problem and nothing else matters and above all that none of the drugs do anything for you.
They will find over time how to treat your illness, restore your life and show you that while the accident changed your life and you love the army that it's not such a huge issue that will prevent you from enjoying life. You owe it to yourself to visit an emergency room as you simply aren't well and aren't thinking right.
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I too was in a horrible accident that ended my career forcing me to retire early. I have been in therapy for 5 years as I am still learning how to deal with the disabling pain of my accident and the loss of a job and career I dearly loved.
I can state from experience that suicide is never the answer. Think of your wife and daughters. No matter how much pain you may be in. No matter how depressed you may get at times they still love you and they will miss you terribly if you were to follow through with a suicide plan. I know; for I put my family through a lot while I was sorting out my depression and getting my pain under control.
There is something called the cycle of pain. Pain cause depression; depression causes pain. You have to find away to break or interrupt this cycle.
You need to do three things. First: If you are feeling suicidal at this time pick up the phone and dial 911 or have your wife take you to the nearest emergency room. Second: Find a Pain Management Center to help you with your pain. If the VA does not have one find a civilian pain center. The doctors at the pain center are anesthesiologists who specialize in pain management. I have been seeing my doctor for three years and following his treatment they have reduced my pain from an 8 to 3 or 4 with just medication. Then they added steroid shots and nerve oblations and this reduced the pain levels to a 2. Recently My doctor suggested acupuncture and my pain levels average 0 to 1.
Getting back to the circle of pain; my pain center offers all encompassing pain management. Since depression is part of the cycle for pain I am also treated for depression by a Psychiatrist for medication and a Psychologist for talk therapy.
I am living proof that there is life after a career ending accident. Suicide is not the answer, never was and never will be. No one here will tell you how to do so. What we will do is be here to help you live and find the help you need.
Give life one more try; follow my advise and if I can be of any help feel free to contact me directly, Thank you for serving and whether you beleive this or not your country and your family still need you.
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There is a reason why your still on earth :]]
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Wait about another fifty years or so, then die of old age. That'll work most definitely. It just takes a while.
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Nobody is going to tell you how to commit suicide .its not the answer .think of how this would impact your wife and children if left them behind .it would be damageing to them .it would be selfish to do such an act and deitrimental .you have to look at the whole picture here .life isn't fair and its way to short .look at me my ex wife ruind me took everything I loved my daughter my belongings .everything all because she wanted to sleep around on me while I was provideing for my family I wanted to make a differance in our lives .she even told the law I was beating my kids when it was her sex offender boyfriend she was sleeping with that was doing this and my wife was alowing this to happen .did the law belive me .hell no the believed her and for this I was charged with a 3rd digree fellony injury to a child .I haven't seen my kids in 10 years nor I can't because the law won't alow me .I did nothing wrong but try to be a husband a father and a provider .I can't even get a good job because of the felony .so yea my life is ruind and I have no one to help me .is this where I want to be hell no .but I'm not going to kill myself because lifes not fair because I know someday thins will change you have to think as every day is a new day and what you put into it is what you get out of it you either fell sorry for youself or do something positive for yourself and the people you care about the most there is always a reason to live just look at life in a different perspective and stay positve my friend
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Nobody on this website is going to tell you how to kill yourself.
At this point in time, you need to do whatever it takes so that you're there for your wife and daughters. This isn't about you anymore, it's about them. Suicide means that there is absolutely nothing, not one little thing left in this world to live for. You have at least 5 things that I can count.
If you don't think you can hold on, though, you need to call a suicide hotline in your area, or even your hospital emergency room. Tell them that you are experiencing suicidal thoughts, have had a history of attempts, and that you do not feel safe.
If you have some time, then you need to get in touch with a counselor, preferably one who has experience with PTSD. The military may be able to help you with this, as can your family doctor. Counseling is more of a wholistic treatment, as opposed to straight up psychiatry, which is more "here's your diagnosis, here's your pills". Your counselor can work with you to find out if your medication is working for you (very possible that it isn't: you may need an increased dosage, or a different kind), what aspects of your life you can change to make things better, and teach you coping skills to help you deal with oncoming crises.
You need to be there for your daughters. I'm sure you want to see them graduate, walk them down the aisle, hold your grandbabies... Those are all things that you miss out on if you're not here. And it would hurt them. When a father commits suicide, it scars the children for life, not to mention everyone around him. Everyone wonders whether there was something, anything they could have done. Suicide is a hostile act that damages everyone else around the individual.
Nobody ever said life would be easy. You have been given two extra chances. As someone who has also had that chance extended to me, and has grabbed hold of it with a reasonable degree of success, I can tell you that you are a very lucky person. Make use of that luck!
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