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cutting... again (sorry it's long)
hey, i need help really bad but i don't have anyone to turn to, and i really mean nobody. a while ago i "went through a depression stage" i guess you might call it, and it got really bad. i was builimic [sp.?] and i cut myself. [my parents and friends were compleatly oblivious to everything because i guess i'm a "good kid" and they never had to worry about me] i don't know how it stopped, but it just did. and now i think it's starting again, my parents suddenly decided we're moving and i feel like nobody wants me around, but i guess thats my fault because iv'e been pushing away the people that mean the most to me. i always want to be alone and i started keeping to myself a lot, like not talking AT ALL during lunch, unless someone asks me a question or somthing. when i get home i got straight to my room and cry, i don't know why though. and i started cutting myself again, i dug a knife into my wrist after dinner tonight and it bled and bled. i feel like i don't belong anywhere and i want to run away, but i don't know where i'd go or how i'd get far enough away from home. iv'e also sat on my roof after everyone in my house is asleep and thought about jumping off, but i really don't want to go to hell. i really need help [i'll "rate high" or whatever, just please help] -jeanine
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You should talk to your parent's and tell them whats going on..or one of your friends,keeping everything in could have triggered the cutting again..you could have though it wont hurt only once, but its addictive. Get yourself into a club or group after skool..be social. Locking yourself away is just gunna make you feel like you dont want anything to do with people, and they wouldnt understand whats going on...those are voices in yuor head..call me crazy but people call them the "bad voices". Your alone all the time now so your mind has time to think alot about all the bad shit in your life. But if you keep yourself busy and happy and healthy theres no need to be sad..i know you must be saying its hard to be happy when you feel like shit..but you gotta live your life, people say its the shortest and to live it up..but actually its the longest fucking thing you do..live it how you wanna..who cares what people think..whatever make YOU happy. Realize that your not the only one..so dont feel alone at all..talk to someone it may feel crapy at first but you gotta feel like shit before things get better, i promise..
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Yeah, depression sucks, I have it myself, and it caused me things I regret. I always want to be alone too, but I never cut myself, I didn't want to injure myself, I just thought if I was even gonna hurt myself any, I might as well end my life. But I never did it, and it was because one big thing kept me going, it used to be a small thing to me, but now it matters more than anything. And that was people who had to try to cope with their own depression because of me being gone, I know it feels like nobody would care, but just think about if a family member died, just try thinking of your life without that person, and that is how they will feel about you. And when you cry, try hugging someone while you cry, and just feel them hug you back, it may seem stupid, but its a powerful thing to feel, 2 days ago I hugged my sister as I cried and it was like I felt her comfort and love melt into me. And you should tell your parents about the cuts, you'll feel better to get help, it may not feel like theres much hope now, but just wait until you find your family supporting you in this, and your friends. But just remember that there are better ways to cope then cutting, its just another thing you'll have to cope with, I hope I gave you something to think about.
-TheTeenGirl
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Hey jess,my friend went threw the same stage and she got threw it with her friends by her side but it's true if your pushing your friends away then thats not really going to help so I'll tell you try to talk to your friends and try making even more friends then you'll fell alot better and it'll all go away or ,I know it's not really helpful but I thought about doing the same and I just got a rubber band and pulled it to smack my arm or I just got something else like a journal and wrote my feelings in it then you will be fine.Say hi to your friends for me remember I'll still be here under frankygurl.Your cool sk8ter chick.FRANKYGURL!!!
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I'm glad you found this site. Internet communities can be valid support systems. Your not alone.
Everyone goes through stages where they feel they don't belong, they wonder if anyone cares about them, and they just want to escape. What makes it a problem in your case is that these feelings are not occasional, but consistent, and they are interfering with your life.
An advice column can't provide the ongoing help you need. If it's at all possible, talk to a psychologist. Psychologists don't prescribe medicine, they're more like a trained advice columnist who can talk to you every week (or whatever schedule is decided upon).
Other options are support groups. Those are groups where a trained councilor will lead the group in talking about a specific issue. Google can help you find a support group for teenagers near you. Your school councilor can too.
Another option is talking to a religious leader. I have mixed feelings about suggesting it, but if your already part of a religious community, it may be the only free option available. S/he shouldn't make you feel guilty, or try to scare you. Most religious leaders do have some training, and some are quite talented councilors, but I think the bag is more mixed than with licensed professionals.
Sometimes parents are oblivious to even the most obvious distress signals. Sometimes, you just have to approach them. Ask if there is any way for you to see a psychologist. If they ask why, show them the wrist you cut and tell them "it wasn't an accident". That should wake them up pretty quick.
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get proffesional help, i know every one probably tells you that but you really do need it.hope i helped!
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Hey, I'm not one of those people that think you are psycho, because your not. I was like that too for a little bit. I felt that no one loved me, and that they would all be happy if I just left the world. I still kinda ignore my family and I think that my best friend in the world hates me, but it is getting better, you just have to give it time. I dont watn to sound like a pusher but I think that you should go to a psycholigist, [but you dont have to do anything you dont want to do] everything they say in there is CONFEDENTIAL. I think that you should keep a journal about how you feel about things, and then look it over about a week later and you will realize how stupid you thought about something so little. I'm sorry if I couldnt help much but I am going threw the same thing right now..so I hope I helped! leave on in my inbox if you ever need anymore help! I'm here for you! ♥Andie
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you need to stop..i felt the same dont worry..truthfully everyone goes through this..talk to someone..be more open..your not the only one out there facing this problem..and its addicting
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guidence at your school, the nurse lol someone. a guidence person maybe? you need to talk to someone and your not alone. dieing isnt the answer, you only get one life.. you should live it and everyone gets over depression! even if u dont think you will, believe me you will.. give it some time, and dont do anything youll regret.
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that's a really tough situation. I was a former cutter... so I can relate to you on some level. I've switched schools like 4 times and moved once. Everytime, it was very hard, but everytime I made new friends and you seem like a sweet person, I bet you will too. I think that if the cutting is getting out of control, you should talk to someone about this. I know it's really hard to deal with, but maybe a therapist can help you deal with what you are feeling without having to cut or be buliumic. I hope I helped
~KiKi
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