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This is long. I'm sorry.
We met about 2 years ago and promptly started dating. Things got pretty serious; we kind of lived together. Healthiest functioning relationship either of us have ever been in.
We both suffered emotional abuse as children and battle chronic depression; we deal the best we can. Shit went south when he started a hellish job. For a while he at least talked to me about it and I tried to help him the best I could. Eventually our relationship stagnated. No intimacy (neither emotional/physical). Neither of us knew what to do. Neither of us had the will to fight.
Last June I ended it. He said he understood, I cried, he held me. We said we'd stay friends because we both still love each other.
For about a month we didn't really speak. Eventually we started hanging out again and discovered that we are awesome friends. He started looking to date again so I did the same. Sometimes I wondered if we had made a mistake; sometimes I was jealous, but I want him to be happy, even if he's happy with someone else.
I had a brief fling with a random guy. He briefly dated a girl we'll call "C" but she didn't seem to return his feelings. We went to a bar one night and he saw a cute girl, bought her a drink, they chatted for a minute but she wasn't interested. We got drunk. While we waited for the cab, he asked if I wanted to be friends with benefits. I asked him if he thought doing so would complicate our friendship. He said no and kissed me. We went to his house and had sex. He told me that he missed me and loved me, but didn't express any interest in getting back together. The next morning, we had sex again and then he started acting awkward (shut down), so I left.
Not too long after that he had a brief fling with a random girl and hooked up with another friend. He told me about it; I was jealous but said nothing because we are only FWBS. Not too long after that, I decided that I don't want to date anyone. Not too long after that, he decided the same.
Since then: we spend a lot of time together and have become closer. Most of the time we are just friends. Sometimes we sleep together (5 times since we separated) and, emotionally, it is, usually, very intense. Sometimes he shuts down afterward, sometimes he doesn't.
2-3 months ago, I dreamt I was at his house and another girl showed up, unannounced. He didn't answer the door, but he called her and told her that she needed to leave. After she left, he told me that they screwed around every now and then. I wasn't upset but I asked him why he had not told me about her before. He explained that I meant more to him than she did and he was afraid I wouldn't understand. This dream struck me as particularly odd because he hasn't mentioned another female in months.
Some context: he uses sex as a crutch for his crippled self-esteem. Before we dated he slept with over 100 a women and had never really been in a long-term relationship before. While we dated, he would often make me jealous to buoy his self-esteem. He would talk, in detail, about his previous sexual conquests and use his friendships with other females to drive me batshit crazy. He would never admit to any of this; I'm not even sure he was aware of what he was doing or why.
Recently he asked me about my expectations regarding our relationship. I told him that I love him more than I have ever loved anyone; that he is my best friend. I also explained that I do not expect for us to get back together anytime soon, if ever. I told him that I felt, for a while, that he was angry with me for breaking up with him, that I am still afraid that he doesn't really understand my reasons for doing so, and that I have never broached the topic because he hasn't expressed any interest in getting back together. He told me that he also loves me more than he has ever loved anyone else; that I am his best friend. He said that he had gotten over our break-up months ago, but that he thought it was easier for him because he has lost so many loved ones in the past. He told me that he thought it was possible for us to be together again one day, but that he didn't want to date me again until I finished college because he felt that I was changing too rapidly. I said that I feel the same because I do.
Yesterday I was at his house, we were just hanging out like we usually do. He mentioned (and not randomly, she fit into the context of the conversation) a "friend" that he "used to fuck around with" and, now, "occasionally hangs out with" from time to time. I immediately suspected that he was talking about C. And so, I asked him, "Are you talking about C?" He said that he was and seemed bewildered that I knew she existed. ("I told you about her?")I asked if I was complicating matters by being at the house at the time. He said that I wasn't and promptly dropped the subject.
I don't even know what I'm asking. Maybe I just needed to vent. Maybe I just want help putting the situation into perspective. I don't know how I feel anymore, and I don't know what to do. I love him; I have no desire to be anything more than what we are right now... I'm curious about what she is to him, but I'm not jealous. Not really. I think what bothers me... Why didn't he tell me before? Why did he suddenly stop talking about girls, full stop?
I feel like something very strange is going on. Then again, this whole situation has been rather strange for a while.
Thanks for reading.
I thonk neither one of them are really right for you, Guy number 2 is only their for you physically not mentally. He wants a fuck buddy, Not a relationship.
Guy number one, It is hard to be with someone when two people suffer emotional issues. It is even harder to be with them if neither one of them decide not to seek help for those issues.
You are riding the raft down the wrong river, You need and should seek someone who has the same desires and expectations as you. Someone who also has stability in their life. Clearly, You are looking in the wrong places.
No, Most of the time when a relationship doesn't work out we cannot be friends with that person. You then allow yourself to prolonged the pain if you do
(Rating: 2) I'd like to take a minute and explain why I rated as I did.
I was not talking about two different men in this post; I was talking about one man. Because you thought that I was talking about two people, I am lead to believe that you skimmed my post and jumped to conclusions. Maybe this isn't the case; maybe I was unclear in some way. I understand that my post was very lengthy and perhaps difficult to get through. However, when I ask for advice, I prefer to give as much information as possible because I believe that, without the proper context, it is hard for people to form a complete perspective of the situation.
Furthermore, I'd like to clarify a few things. We have both talked to our doctors about our depression and received counseling in the past. (That's why we are both aware that some of our parents' behavior, however well intended, qualifies as a form of emotional abuse.) I also feel that it was assumed that neither of us pay attention to our emotional well-being and this lead to the conclusion that either one or both of us are emotionally unstable people.