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My name is Matthew. I try my best to serve the Lord as best I can. I also try to serve my fellow brother and sisters as best I can. Salvation is my goal for you.
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I'm so sick of being alive. Everything is so hard. I can't stand it. It's like I'm doing something wrong. I have few friends, but it doesn't matter because I don't like them. I don't like any one. People don't meet my standards and they never will. And when it comes to girls I have no idea what I'm doing. It's like there's some secret technique that every one but me seems to understand. My problems with girls contribute the most to my loneliness and depression. I'm unmotivated in school, because I care more about trying to find a place I belong, trying to find some one who understands me. I can hardly sleep because I'm always worrying about all this. I'm scared I'll never have friends. I'm scared I'll never have a good job. I'm scared I'll never have my first kiss or have sex, and if I do it will be with some one I don't want to do it with. Somewhere between now and the next few years I 100% sure I'll be dead. I can't take it anymore. I've been to therapy and they even locked me up like a criminal in a mental health ward, but to no avail. I hate life. I hate myself. I hate every one, especially if they're happy. I don't see things ever getting better. Please help me. And don't post anything about God, Jesus, or religion of any kind, it will be an automatic 1 on your rating.
Post nothing about God, yet you want to find happiness. Rate me a one, doesnt matter to me, but you know, Ive been exactly where you are now. Now, if everyone who has ever thought life was too hard and just gave up, dont you think humanity would have stoped a while ago. Think about it, everyone gets to a point where like is too hard...Especially when you're a teenager. I almost made the same mistake that you want to do. Theres a quote out there something like "suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem." Think of the people who would be sad when you're gone, and dont give me that junk about "oh they dont love me." I dont even know you and I would feel it. Especially since Ive been there. Had I been so stupid and have done that, I wouldnt have had the chance to be married like I am, or have my own house, or have all teh great friends I have now, or my truck (I love to off road) or anything. Maybe God is the answer for you. Took me a long while to realize he is real. I used to be a death Metal, chains everywhere, didnt care about anyone, hating the world, tough guy rebel. Since I accepted God things just sort itself out, and everything started working together and now my life rocks. Instead of saying your depressed, but dont want God, maybe you should give it a try. I can help you through it. Just give it a try.
(Rating: 4) I posted that thing about God because I don't like being preached to, and when you talk about suicide the first thing people do is tell you, "God has a plan." I believe in a higher power and some form of divine deity, but (nothing against your beliefs) I think Christianity is lie. I hope that doesn't offend you. It's just the way I feel. Thank you for taking the time to try to help me.