im 15/f and i've got a really wierd problem. First of all, don't call me an emo or any of that nonsense or i will give you a 1, i am most definantly not.
so when my dad screams at me (about once or twice a day) he usually yells pretty bad, verbally abusing me, it hurts. so ever since i was younger instead of cry or let out my pain, because if i cried he would get even madder at me, i would pinch myself very hard or scratch myself secretly with my hands behind my back or so. i was about 7 when i started this. now this year it has gotten worse, i am getting screamed at for nothing and it has been worse then ever. i started scratching myself until i bleed. not until the skin is red, until blood is dripping. now i have 3 scars on my wrist and too many to count on my waist. i never thought i was a cutter b/c i didn't go cry and slice myself with a blade, i don't think i could ever do that. but i went bathing suit shopping with my friends and they saw the scars, and they were horrified. they had no idea what it was from, i didnt really know they were so noticable but they def. are. i am really happy all the time at school, a cheerleader vb player, a prep and every1 sees me as happy and hyper. i do cry sometimes, so im not like repressing everything. and im not emo, i don't self loath or anything. so why do i do this? make myself burn, sting, and drip blood? i don't know how to stop, i tried to rubber band and it doesn't work. i cnt seek professional help my dad will never allow it. please somebody help. I RATE 5'S FOR REAL ANSWERS
Well you really should seek professional help for this. Try talking to your counselor at school. You don't have to tell him/her everything. Just how you feel about your dad. It's confidential and they can't tell anything without your permission. Or you could try standing up to your dad. It might not be the best thing, but don't let him just walk all over you like that. Even though he's an adult, like you said its verbally abusing you, and he doesn't have a right to do it. You're better off talking to another adult. If its absolutely NOT possible, try doing other things when he yells at you..like writing about it, or even cutting up pieces of paper. I know that sounds dumb but i used to do it when i got really mad/upset and it works. This probably wasnt't what you were looking for but I hope i could be somewhat of help. good luck!
♥ Evy
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thx. i mean, it didn't help that much but i gave you a high rating b/c idk what im really looking for in an answer so i don't think it would be fair to rate you low. thx alot =]
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