i feel soooooo lonely.... i have, or had friends... but "my" values don't let me have any. outside people are strictly for formal favors and contacts u c.. but that is besides the point. imagine if you couldn't make any friends or you live on an island with a wild donkey or jackass. you can't talk to them you can't tame them and you u surely can't eat them.....
i am so alone and so many things are running in my mind and it hurts so much. and everyday i discover a small piece of glass in my hart that is pricking harder and harder.
my grandfather died yesterday... and i really love my parents but they and i don't get along.
i am hurting so much i feel like committing suicide in fact that is precisely what i need to do right now.
i can't keep things bottled anymore or else i would die a slow and morbid death.............. when i was a child i was capable of bottling years and years of shit... and now i can't control it its either thoughts of death takeover to get rid of those voices in my head or i just tell the world all the things i shouldn't be saying to shut those voices up..........
yesterday i was dancing to a song by nickodemus... and yesterday my grandfather died... but its not because he died i danced. usually i'm like that... one day i am happy and dancing and hyper and the next day i am about to throw myself off of a building... i get so sad when i am alone... because those voices arrive.... even if the jackass is the only option of not staying alone, i'd rather him run over me than those voices... and that jackass killed all the other prettier animals that i loved and left me there with it... i don't know why... am i a jackass too? like don't kill like...
i hate myself, i can't live with it... i do things i am not supposed to.. i have sexual urges i can't repress and i've never been intimate....and i don't want to.... i pick things that are "not fit for" me.... always things that are "beneath me" or out of reach.... i really feel alone and ugly from the inside.. i am want to throw up the puss... i need to cry... this is the millionth question i've asked...
but no one gets how it is... i can't find the damn answer i am looking for... but still i rate 5 to be nice to those who give a damn...
i am really feeling bad...
please someone just for a minute.... my heart is covered in shreds of glass.....
i hate myself. i hate the voices in my head. help...
im sorry about your grandfather.
i think you should go to a psychologist.
thats what i did. suicide is not the way out trust me. ive been close with 3 people who have killed themselves and you have NO IDEA how many pepole it affects. DONT DO IT. please.
seriously, go to your school counselor and tell him or her you need to talk to someone and they will refer you. or just look someone up. if you love your parents you wont do this.
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Hallo...I just started school...and I am 35 years old...so...as you can understand...I am kind of different. I dont wanna go to a night school(where I can find more people my age), cause I work at night as a stripper.
To make things worst..I also happen to be EMO. I was EMO before they had a word to describe EMO. Anyways..I am really desparate...I just cant fit in. Can you help me please? Tell me what am I supposed to do?
im sure you mean college? either way, you can do online classes. they fit really well with a busy schedule. you could still work at night and just do your school work during the day. send me a message and let me know whether your talking about high school or college so i can give you more detailed descriptions of what i mean.
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Where can I find a purse like any of these that is $50 or less???
I've looked basically everywhere I've heard of.
All of them are either ugly, or over $100. (one I liked was even $475, I'm definitely not spending that much)
I want one like this:
http://www.bananarepublic.com/browse/product.do?cid=32966&pid=513224
or
http://www.jcrew.com/catalog/product.jhtml;jsessionid=RT5AVZT3XGC2ACTFEEKRX1QKMUQQ0GUG?id=prod86449291&catId=cat220221
(that's the $475)
Yeah so hopefully that gives you an idea of the look and type of bag I'm going for. I don't really know how else to explain. Please give me ideas! Give me lots of stores/websites cuz I've looked at a lot of stores already. Thanks so much!
you scould try express but theyre kind of pricey..under 100 though. MARSHALLS is the way to go! lol. i got a liz claiborne purse from there last week [originally $78] i got it for 22. tj max and stuff like that is always good. maybe even kohls. but i defintely recommend marshalls.
=) good luckkkk
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okay so i don't know i'm like so worried about what i look like and wear. i can't help it so please don't call me stuck up or anything.
but i got like 8 new shirts for school and i have some shirts from last year to wear but like is that okay to wear stuff from before?
and what are some ways i can play up like just regular tee shirts? i just bought all short sleeved tees and i have some plain tanks. the shirts all have somehintg on them. i like wearing the shirts with just jeans. so yeah how can i dress up the tee or make it loook a little different from the way i wore it before.
thanks so much =]
putting a tank top over a tshirt is really cute. [just make sure it matches.] say you have a pink tshirt, you could put a yellow tank top over it (or whatever color is also in the tshirt] then get a pink necklace or earrings. be creative. you can also do it the other way around [tshirt over tank top] it will make a layering affect.
need more ideas? send me a message :]
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Yeah. So I'm over life if I don't get a boyfriend by the time I'm 16 because everyone I know got a boyfriend by the time they were 16. I want to find my true love. i want a guy to stay with me forever not just while we're having sex. Forever! So, am I ever going to find my true love??? or is this just not real. I really need to know..
over life? what do you mean by that?
not everyone finds their true love before they are 16. that's a bad way to look at things. most people dont meet their true love until college or after. some dont even have sex until college. there's nothing to be worrying about right now.
if your thinking your some kind of loser because you dont have a boyfriend or something, i really hope you change yor mind. i dont know if you watche mtv or heard of laguna beach but the new laguna beach show, newport harbor, on there the main girl never had a serious boyfriend. take this into consideration when you think about this. shes on mtv, she will probably be famous from this show just like the rest of them did.
putting yourself in this mind set is really going to interfere with your youth. im only 18 so dont think this is some like old lady telling u this or anything lol. you really should enjoy your high school years. boyfriendless or not, have fun. dont worry about a boy because when the time is right, he WILL come into your life. i promiseeee you that! if you have any other questions or anything you wanna talk about, send me a message
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im looking to join a sorority in 2 days. ive been in rush for the past three and i need opinions from girls. is a sorority a good thing to do? i was really excited until i found out i got cut from the ones i wanted. i need everyones opinon on whether or not to do a sorority! thank you!
its alot of time. you should be really dedicated. if youve researched the sorority you want and really feel strongly for it, then i say you should join. they put alot of pressure on you though. you have to pay lots of money for all their clothes and dues and formals. its a good thing if your looking for good friends and to be close with other girls you live with but the party scene isnt too good. hazing is also not something to take too seriously. i mean look at that one trial thats going on right now. i dont know all the details but if you really wanna do it, go for it =) have fun and just be careful. stand up for urself if you feel like its not something that shud be happening. good luck and have a good time.
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I'm considering working part-time at a mall after school. Do you, or anyone you know, work at a mall? What is it like?
[17 years old]
its cool for awhile cause you get discounts but if your gonna work at a clothing store or something you should consider the 2 sides. the good side is definitely the discounts and people you meet there. whats better than getting paid to sell what you love and also getting discounts on it!? also you need to consider that around the holidays, malls are EXTRMELY busy. you will be working alot and you'll probly be stressed. which could mean you'll be miserable if u cant handle that [like me] or happy. haha. i worked at limited too, it was horrible. also, the customers beleive you should know everything but at the same time they are ALWAYS right in their mind. you'll gain alot of people skills but if you want a relaxing job, i wouldnt work at a busy store.
send me a msg if you have any other ?s about it ~ im alwayss glad to help + see messages in my inbox!
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Ok I don't know why but for the last 3 periods, the pain just keep getting worse and mroe worse each time.
I know it's already supposed to hurt but recently, when the next period comes, the pain is 2 times worse!
It hurts so bad that I cried! I feel like I have a baby or something!
Is this normal?
im sorry your in pain.
this happened to me and it was soo bad pain. all i wanted to do was sleep so i woudlnt feel anything but couldnt bc i was in too much pain.
i ended up going on birth control for it. never got cramps again. this may not be the way for u. im also on another medicine that i take during my period for extra protection against the horrible cramps.
you might need to go to a gynocologist. no one likes hearing that! but the pain really is unbearable and your gyno is the only one who could prescribe u a good medication and help u get rid of the cramps.
good luck!!
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Ok,so this year i want to take cheerleading and volley ball.
1.Cheerleading:
I really want to take it, i've wanted to take it since i was a little kid. I also want to take it to have fun, meet new people, just really get into school clubs. i have no experience,but i'm light, flexible, and i think i would be good at it. The thing is, i'm afriad i won't make it, should i go for it? Any tips, and what i need to do to get in?
2.Volley Ball:
I want to take this cause its fun,i'm really good at it. The problem is i've never tryed volley ball with out a hard ball. I'm kind of afriad i'll get hit in the face, i'm clumsy like that. Any suggestions on getting better?
Anyways, anything you know tips, how to get in, what you need to be able to do. Also, you don't have to answer both(even though it'd be greatt.), just answer the one you know,i wont mind. :]
thanks so much!
heyy! im 19/f. heres my advicee..
cheerleadings soo fun! i did it for a long time. be flexible, SMILE!!!, good facial expressions, attentive, stiff when u need to be, practice your toe touches (if u dont know what this is, send me a message and ill be happy to explain). cheerleading is pretty much just being happy n loud! so if you are, you will do well. also, wear your hair back for tryouts.
volleyball.. im not really sure i only played for a few years. i didnt like it because it hurt my wrists. but i know you need good hand eye coordination.
Good luck, please let me know how it goes & what you choose!!
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13 f
108 pounds...
whats BMR?
and how do you lose weight fast? this is not only for me but for my mom and sisters too..
lose weight forever..
i know i know healthy lifestyle but how do you do that
please be specific
and im thirteen with a big stomach that have legs always touching when i walk [that means i have fat flabby thighs] and un toned flabby arms which i hate.. how do i get rid of those fat or punds
im 13 tell me how to lose weight in a heal;thy way... thanks
babe your pretty normal. wait til your 16 then start worryin about that.
a healthy lifestyle simply requires eating right and exercising (even if its a 20 min walk or run everyday) eating right means more veggies, fruits, and protein.. and less sugar. sugar is a huge one. it will stick to. also, try to stay away from foods with high fructose corn syrup. its pretty much like poison for your body. what it does is turns to fat and is impossible to burn off.
so if you eat healthy and exercise now, you will develop a healthy lifestyle and youll be fit from now on. you wont have to worry about dieting later in life.
hope i helped :] if you have any questions please feel free to send me a message! i know all about this stuff n im happy to help! im 19/f so u can feel comfortable talkingg to a girl!
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Ok..im 17/f..im not a stalker or anything..to be honest i dont really go for boys..but i like this guy that doesnt really know me at all. Ive met him once..and he used to go to my highschool..but hes in college now..hes back for the summer..and i have no clue how to reach him or anything..what should i do?
if you have a myspace or facebook or something, you should befriend him. just be like, hey i havent talked to you in awhile. something like that. or if you know who he hangs out with, accidently show up around there n you might run into him :] thats not stalkerish. dont worry
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hey i am 13/f and i am here to talk about the problem with the guy, online, you said you were going through the same thing. i am just wondering what to do bc he is such a nice gut and i KNOW i can trusrt him. i love him soo much! he is always there for me and stuff. he is just, the perfect guy. im sure you know what i am talking about, right?
hey same thing
Posted Saturday August 20 2005, 5:45 pm
hey i am 13/f and i am here to talk about the problem with the guy, online, you said you were going through the same thing. i am just wondering what to do bc he is such a nice gut and i KNOW i can trusrt him. i love him soo much! he is always there for me and stuff. he is just, the perfect guy. im sure you know what i am talking about, right?
is this still going on with u?
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*this may be kinda long sorry! but thanks for taking the time to read this*
*well me and my ex boyfriend "mike" have been broken up for 9 months now! we talk about once a day or sometimes every other day! we have hung out quite a few times..and this is where the problem starts
*last night he came over and picked me up at my house around 10! he lives like 30 mins away from me so the whole time we were driving he was just kinda flirting with me..like making fun of me and stuff! well we were going to his friends house to get him and then gonna go bowling but his best friend was there and he doesnt like me so we didnt go there..instead we just went to mcdonalds! he kept asking me if i wanted something but i said no! well he got something and while he ate we sat in his truck and just talked..he kept staring at me and i was like what and hes like can i not look at you! and he kept calling me turtle lip which is what he called me when we went out! well then we left and went to his house and i started playing with my hair and
he was like whats wrong? i was like nothing and hes like what are you thinking about and i was like nothing and he was like dont lie to me i know better..well i didnt wanna talk about it! so we get to his house and he undoes his seatbelt..he looks at me and goes do you think it would really work out? i was like i really dunno and he was like honestly and i was like i dunno maybe! well i told him i was cold so he moved the thingy in the middle up and came and cuddled with me! well he was rubbing my feet for a while and he knows i love that! then he layed his head on my chest and was listening to my heart beat! well then he looked at me and was like can i bite your lip and i was like why and he was like i want to so i was like sure..so he did..then he layed his head on my chest again and just stared at me and was like can i kiss you so i was like i guess so we kissed! and that happened quite a few times! he kept trying to hold my hands and hold me in his arms! well i got up for a sec so he laid in my spot! well i was like fine ill go in the back and he was like no lay on me so i did! the seat belt thing was in my way so i went to the back..so he came back there with me and of course we cuddled and ended up messing around! weve hung out several times before this and weve never touched eachother like that or cuddled/kissed or anything! well then it was 1:30 and his dad was like you need to take her home! ya it seems awesome i know..but heres where it doesnt make sense! today he was on AIM and imed him (he was away though) and i was like you know things are gonna be hard now cause i cant get over him at all..and he signed off so i was like what the heck! so i got on myspace and he was on so i was like whatever cause sometimes it just leaves it on! then again later i got on it and he was on it again but he wasnt on AIM so i felt like he was avoiding me! so i called him and was like why are you ignoring me and he was like im not im watching a movie ill ttyl so i was like whatever! and he hasnt been on AIM all day..sometimes hes not but its kinda weird! i dunno if its just me or if hes ignoring me! i guess my question is what should i do? let go or keep trying? keep in mind he is my 1st love but i have been trying for 9 months.. how do you think he feels? do you think he really likes me and is scared to tell me or fall me or what? ughhh someone please help me! thanks so much
hey.. you sent your message to my inbox and i havent checked it in awhile so i apologize for not writing back in a long time.. this actually happened to me for the past 2 years.. my storys more complex but i didnt know what to think either. but the whole thing about you two in his truck is really sweet..he wouldnt do that with just ANYONE. and hes not the one who went in the back, you did.. so its not like he was planning on makin a move on you ya know? my advice is definitely to go after it and see what could happen, but keep in mind that ur not completely sure so that if he does screw you over, your not all suprised and hurt. your first love is always in the back of your mind, so you probably wont ever get over him as much as you might end up hating him. i'd talk to him seriously, face to face, and tell him how you feel.. ask him how he feels n what he wants.. and what everything that happened that night meant. hope everything works out for you.. if u need anything else jus leave me another message!
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ok I am talking to my X Boyfriend and we are thinking of dateing again cause we cant really let each other go...and my mom dosnt like him at ALL!! she calls him a jerk and all that....I have been asking her to give him another chance cause he really has changed....and my x boyfriend (might be boyfriend) he keeps talking about how I hurt him and he tells me that he was heartbroken for a month or 2 and he feels better that we might be dateing agian...but how can I get my mom and dad to approve of him again???
PLEASE HELP ME!!! I will rate all 5's I just really need ADVICE!!
bring him around your family so they can see for themselves how good a person he is ♥
GO0DLUCK girl
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i need some good advice to give to my little brother, he is madly in love with a girl alot younger than him. she is 16 and he will be 22 in dec. they dont have a physical relationship, that i know of, god i hope they dont, but anyway he has asked me if i think it is wrong to be in love with her. i am trying to not be to sisterly and bossy about my answer to him i just need some advice on how to tell him how i feel about it. i think it is wrong, but at the same time i want him to be happy. please help
personally, i think age is NOTHING but a number. but its good that your worried about it. im only 16 and i wouldnt go out with a 22 year old, but you never know it could be something deeper then numbers... so my advice is if you know of a physical relationship i'd tell him you think its wrong because legally its rape..but if you know theres not one i'd stay out of it. ♥
`baby
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hey its me again! my sweetie is 18 years old, he lives in england, (i think, im not sure i kinda forget) and we met bc i i-md the wrong s/n..lol, you could say it was LOVE at first click. he is the nicest, most sweetest, really sexy person i have ever talked to. i saw his pic and he is SMOKIN!!!
i love him!
lol, do you love the guy you talk to the way i like mine?
heey..im not sure if i answered this question cause i was away n all that stuff so idk if i did or not..butttt im the person you asked about your boyfriend from england[?] if you still wanna talk about it, write me backkk !
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Ok so Im a freshman and theres a new kid whos a sophmore, Macon, And he rides my bus and is in two of my classes on the other side of the room in one. Everyone thinks hes annoying becasue he asks a lot of stupid questions (beiing sarcastic) in class but i think its kinda funny. Hes kinda short but really cute. And idk if he even notices me besides when i get on the bus.. but i thought i saw him looking at me in spainish. I dont think i can ever EVER work up the nerve to talk to him. Im trying to look interested like today in class he said something and everyone laughed and i was laughing and i looked at him and smiled.. i think he saw. Hes also in my lunch on day 1 (theres 6 diff days) But .. I dunno everyone thinks hes stupid and i dont and i like him a lot but i dont think ill ever be able to talk to him unless he says something first ! AHHH ! WHAT TO DO WHAT TO DO !?
dont worry about everyone else.!!! ever
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The guy I have this huge crush on (i've liked him since February of this year) is a year younger than me. He's in 7th grade and i'm in 8th, but he has a late birthday so he COULD be in my grade but he missed the cut off (his bday is in November of 1992 and mine is in july of 1992 so i'm only a couple months older than him.) However, other people think i'm weird, cause they don't know when his bday is, and they think im weird cause i like a younger guy. Well the truth is i really like him. and i dont care what other people think. but what should i do 2 not make them think im a dork/loser for likeing someone younger than me?? Thanx i rate 5 every time :-)
i went out with someone who was a grade younger then me but was actually 6 days older then me.. cause of different school n different cut off dates..soo i dont think its weird. let them talk, at least you hav someone right? ur not a loser! and the people who's opinions shud matter to you, are the one's who are close to you...so they should already kno the situation. good luck ♥
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what happends when my best friend gets a lil too close to my boyfriend??! i mean they are always talkin! and my boyfriend always has ta talk everything through with mah bestfriend b4 he talks to me about it!! uuh its soo annoying! how can i get rid of that??
that happened to me too..and to this day they're together. its been 2 years. he broke up with me for her.. so i'd definitely say make sure they dont talk. its ok if theyre friends but if theyre too close like you say..stop it! i hope it dont happen to you wat happened to me. ♥ good luck girl
- baby
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I just started Junior High, (Catholic school) and I know everyone. But the thing is, I can't stand all the homework they give us. Today was my second day, and they gave us homework in at least half of our subjects. It took me 3 hrs just to do it! And between cheerleading for 2 hrs after school, and the homework. i just can't take it! And I try to stay focused, because my main goal is the honor roll this year-but in most of my classes, i have to sit next or across from all the girls I HATE. They are such bitches. What should I do? Any tips? If anyone wants to screw around with their answer, it will be an automatic 1.
dont worry about those girls. ALL GIRLS ARE BITCHES. lol its a fact. but anyway, if its too much i'd say quit cheerleading, or take a break from it. cheerleading isnt gonna get you onto honor roll or into college. think about that kinda stuff. start thinkin about your priorities and getting them straight so your happy. homeworks important. i failed 2 classes so far n im only a junior so i definitely learned my lesson with not making time for homework. i hope i helped. ♥
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