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I feel like a prostitude
There are some girls in school that always bully me and I take and forget it like always but this time they've gone to far. They told me that if I didn't go with them to their house they'll do something really bad to my family and I beleived them so I called my mom on the phone and told her I was going to sleepover some friends house. Then I went with the girls and they had told me that if I didn't do what they say I would get beaten up. So when we got to their house There was this teenage guy on the door eyeing me everywhere and that gave me the creeps. When we got to the door he put his arm around my waist and told me we were going to have fun that night. The girls sent me to a room and demanded for me to put on the clothes on the bed. I refused (it was like a bikini thing) so one of the girl's slapped me and told me it was either that or naked. I changed and was ordered to go to a room and lay on the bed and wait. A while later the boy I had seen earlier he told me "Looking nice and that's the way I like it" I was so scared to answer so I just shut my mouth. The boy than came over and touched me everywhere and then suddenly stopped and he told me what he was doing was wrong but than again he came down on me again and kissed me and this time he got something that I think was a condum and sarted to undress himself and once again he stopped and said he shouln't be doing this but that my body urged him to and again he got on top of me and he forced something into my mouth and I dozed of. The next morning I woke up with his arm on my bra and the fingers of his other hand on my( you know). I tried to get up but found out I was tied and there was tape around my legs so I fell and my ankle twisted and I yelped and my stupid self woke the guy up. He told me that if I wanted to go I had to suck his private part but I refused so he pushed to the bed and started hitting me and when he was done he told me "that he was gonna do something weather I like it or not. He tied me good this time so that I couldn't move. He revealed my breast and poured milk on them and started sucking on them so hard it hurted me. He went licking down my body until he got to between my legs there he started licking everywhere and then put he's finger in there and pushed really hard until I let out a painful scream. He than said " u feel the pain well that's what you get". He holded my head got on top of me and put his private in my mouth and made me do it. Then he suddenly stopped and said that he'll be watching me at school and told me he knew about my grandma (she has cancer) and he could pay me $200 a week to do this just one day week. I really love my grandma so I decide to do this but I want to make sure this is the right thing to do and he also pays me $20 dollars just he can touch and feel me. He pays me $5 to kiss me and $10 to pose naked for him. $50 to shower with him. I would win good money with this but it just doesn't feel right sometimes he brings friends over, old men touch and even sleep with me and sometimes they even poor beer all over me and 3 at a time lick and suck on my skin and sometimes even bite me. it's been going on for days now and I want to stop but I care about my grandma also the girls say they'll kill me if I sop and I really beleived them because they once killed a because he was such a nerd but that was in another state. Anyways I'm really scared I don't know how to quit and worst how do I tell my family I feel like a prostitude ...just a girl who sold herself...I mean it was my fault inthe first place I should of been better getting beaten to death than to just sell my self to a boy I don't even know....I know I can trust on who ever gives me advice I had the guts to tell you this because none of you know me in person I just wish I had the guts to do what I need ti do.......I hope you can help me.....
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First thing you need to do is tell someone that cares and loves you. This is wrong of this person they don't care how it makes you feel or how it is hurting you. Even though this person gives you money for doing certain things for him it's not worth it. How do you think it would make your grandma feel? I don't think she would want you to go through this abuse. I know that in that heart of yours you know what the right thing to do is. You need to tell your family its the right thing to do reguard less of what this people do cause it sounds like it is eating you up inside. You will do what is right.
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listen call the cops and tell them please, tell me where you live and ill even help you i can , your post angered me, i cant belive they did this to you and are makeing you do this ,do you think your grandma would want you to go through this for her? at all ? i mean stop it tell the cops have them help you, i would gladly kill them if i knew you i hate that your haveing to do this out of fear its awful and they are not human so dont be afraid to ask for help from the cops
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I know you're scared. I understand it's embarrassing to talk about this stuff to people you know, but what these people did to you is illegal, and you are in way over your head. You need to get an adult involved. If these girls have threatened your life as you say they have, you need to get some adult you trust involved - write a letter to your mother if you can't talk to her, or your father. As hard as it may be to open up, your parents will be your best defense in a situation like this.
I want to warn you ahead of time, though, that your parents may react by getting angry. What you have to understand is that they are not angry at YOU. They'll be angry at the situation and these people, but it might come out initially directed at you. Just remember they love you, and they don't mean to make you feel bad, ever.
I rolled my car over in 2006, and once my mom got me home safely she YELLED at me. It took me awhile to get her to talk without yelling, but once she did she said she was just scared and glad I was okay. I know, different situation, but still. The hardest thing in the world is to lose a child or watch a child go through something painful. Everyone is different, but every parent feels that way.
Anyway. Once you've spoken to your parents about this, you will be able to stop this. You can get the police involved and stop these girls from ever doing this again to anyone else.
As far as HOW to tell your family, I suggest printing out your question, sitting your parents down, and saying "Mom, Dad, I really need to talk to you about something, and I don't think I can say it out loud, but I need your help." They will understand - I've done that with my mom. I broke a porcelain piano when I was ten, and I felt so bad, but didn't know how to tell her so I wrote her a note and left it on her jewelry box. She wrote me a note back, saying "it's okay, I love you" and put it on my jewelry box.
No matter what, remember your parents love you.
Absolutely no part of this situation is your fault. Like someone below me said, what that boy did is considered rape. He'll get in BIG trouble for doing what he did to you, and you'll be admired for coming clean with what happened. SO many rape cases go without anything being done because the women are too embarrassed to do anything about it. You are NOT the only one.
Once this is all over with - or hey, even now, I recommend finding a RAD (Rape Agression Defense) class. It's a self defense course specifically for women taught all across the nation to all age groups. It helps teach you to fight, HOW to fight, and how not to freeze up in situations, so this will never happen to you again.
This is not your fault. You were forced into doing all this. You did not willingly submit. You are not stupid, and you are incredibly brave for coming forward about this situation to us.
Now do yourself a favor and talk to your parents. They love you; they want to help you. Let them.
Good luck, I hope everything works out, and PLEASE take an active role in this. Don't just let it go.
We're always here for you if you need any of us.
-Siren =)
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honey this is not your fault AT ALL. you were just trying to protect yourself and your family. you NEED to tell someone about this asap. what these girls and this boy are doing is illegal. you could be getting stds from them. they are violating you and your body. if you don't want to tell your parents, tell the police, a teacher, a friend, SOMEBODY! these people can get in VERY big trouble. they need to be stopped.
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OMG honey, this is NOT your fault. You didn't do anything. You need to talk to someone. I know, well from the way it sounds, if you had the choice you wouldn't do this. The only reason you take the money is because your forced to do it so why not just take the money right? Well, this is wrong. But not on your part. On theres. Think of it this way, if your grandma were to die tommarrow,--sorry for putting this into your head but its the only way to get my point across-- would she be proud of this? no. You need to talk to someone about this. THis is ILLEGAL! this is sexual assult. If you don't talk to someone this can get worse. you could end up dead. This is a HUGE deal. You really need to tell someone. This is ruining your life. THis is discusting, and needs to be stopped. If your not proud of this, you can't just not do something about it. And these kids, including the girls can go to jail for threatening you.
I'm sorry for all of this and that it had to happen to you. You did nothing wrong. Honestly, in your situation I would have done the same thing. You were abused. I can't stress this enough...you NEED to tell someone. THink of it this way, if you don't these people could be doing the same thing to other girls who don't know what to do. You were VERY smart by asking here for help. Most people wouldn't have the guts. but you did and thats really brave and i'm sute your whole family would be proud of you. as much as you think this is no big deal it is. PLEASE TELL SOMEONE!!! I am more than willing to help you through this. Any questions? i'll help you step bye step. Post questions in my inbox and i'll help you. Also, if you want to do this privitely feel free to e-mail me. My e-mail is strawberrygirl616@yahoo.com
hope i helped
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This is in no way your fault. the girls and the boy who did this to you are horiable horiable disgusting people. tell the police, tell your parents, tell a guidence counslor, tell ANYBODY! but tell someone now!
if its umcomftorble for you to say it in person, you could email your mom the link to this question. instead of saying it face to face. stop and tell someone. they will protect you.
Honey, i am so so sorry about this. all of it. its disgusting on their part but its not your fault at all. thats abuse that im sorry you had to go through.
what that boy did in considered rape. which is illegal.
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i want to start out by saying how completely terrible i feel for you. that sounds like a horrible situation. not i know your reactions were out of fear and im sure your family would understand that, also they would probably appreciate the fact that you were trying to do the right thing to help your grandma but it wasn't worth selling yourself out for. honestly these acts are illegal that they performed and you could face emotional scarring later in your life. you NEED to talk to your family. they are the only ones who can really be there for you through this. hope i helped, and im always here if you need me!
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