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I'm Jack/Jamie.I'm 28 years old. I graduated from Michigan State University with my Bachelor of Science in Chemistry. GO GREEN! Now I'm a high school chemistry teacher in New York City living with my husband in a small studio apartment we pay way too much money for.
I've been on this site for 14 years as of March 23, 2020.
You may have seen me as CuxMiBeckNow7, but I've since shortened my name.
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I've been deployed to Iraq and Afghanistan a couple of times. And sence about 2007 or so I've had a lot of issues with people and life in general. I can't sleep, I go days up to a week at a time without sleep. I've been seen by docs a lot for issues. I've been on more medications then I can remember. Nothing seems to really help. I've set in councilors for hours. I feel like it's just really to annoying to go back to the docs. I can't stand being around people, and anytime someone says something to me all I want to do is stab them. This makes work difficult. If I close my eyes and try to sleep I wake up in about an hour and feel like I'm back on patrol or on fire, or that I'm about to die any second again. So then I can't go back to sleep. I've seen a lot of lives end in seconds, and have almost lost my own on a couple times. I wonder why I'm here everyday. It's just getting to be to much to deal with and I don't know what to do anymore. All I wanted to do the every time I deployed was hurry back home, but I noticed each time I went the less I wanted to come back. And I really don't want to be here right now either. Is this ever going to fix itself or am I just slowly getting crazier?
I'm not a medical professional, nor am I a licensed psychologist or anything of the like.
From the very little I know about mental health problems and such, I do know that sometimes you just have to keep trying to seek out different professionals to help you. It sounds like (and again, I'm NOT a doctor or anything, so take this at face value) you have the symptoms of Post-Traumatic Stress Disorder (PTSD), and there are going to be professionals who specialize in treatment of PTSD, specifically with war veterans.
As far as going about finding this professional, I think google is a good start. Just type in your state/area and also psychology specialists or something, and some options should appear.
I know you said that you have sought out doctors and taken all sorts of meds and that it hasn't worked, but (again) from the (very) little I know about mental health, it's important not to give up because the most common solution to PTSD or other mental health disorders may not help everyone, and trying new medications according to what your doctor prescribes (that means duration, amount, etc.) is crucial to helping you find peace.
Stay strong. There are people who love you and I truly hope you find the help you need, and I'm confident you will. Take care.
--Jack
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