I feel guilty about everything. Like, for example, if I don't do something such as ride a rollercoaster (I hate rollercoasters) or eat my vegetables before I eat my meat (yeah, something silly like that). I feel like I'm supposed to do everything 'normal'. Like the normal way to do stuff. Everything has to be traditional or else I feel sorta like it will fall apart or something. I don't even really know. It's hard to explain I guess.
I like things done in a traditional way or the normal way. Like if my parents ask me to go to the beach, even though I really don't like the beach, I'll say yes but not because I want to or I'm being nice. Going to the beach with your family is something you're supposed to do because it's a summer tradition. If I were not to go with them, I'd feel insanely guilty. Does this make any sense?
Another example: My high school life isn't exactly going as I would like it too. My dad always talks about how he had so many friends and how he'd go to all the parties and junk like that. Well, my friends sorta all abandoned me this year and I've never gone to a single party. And I feel really guilty about that. I feel like I'm missing out on a normal thing and that I'll look back at this in twenty years and be filled with regret and guilt.
So it's semi-big things like that as well as stupid things like feeling guilty if I don't eat my vegetables before my meat.
I don't know why I feel this way all the time. Any advice or anything?
Again... I agree with the previous post. You could have an obbsessive compulsive disorder... Or you could have an anxiety disorder. I used to have an anxiety disorder and I did something that sounds similiar. Please tell your parents and seek professional help.
I would also like to add... 'Normal' is an ideal... In reality this ideal is more subjective than anything else. All people are different. We all think, feel, act and react differently. Just because you perform an action differently than some of the people around you... Doesn't make you or what you're doing abnormal or wrong. You're doing just fine and you're going to be just fine.
So you haven't been to a party. Big deal. I didn't attend parties during school either. I graduated into adulthood just like everyone else... I have a job, an apartment, bills, family, friends, a relationshi... Just like everyone else. Don't sweat the small stuff ;)
[view]
(Rating: 5)
Thank you. This made me feel better =]
|
