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My friends ALL tell me I'm emo.
I don't dress any particular way, I wear random stuff, and nobody else I know would DARE dress like me.
I am really down a lot, and I have contemplated suicide more than once[and planned it].
I really hate people saying I'm emo, because I don't mean to. How can I stop??
Unfortunately, the other side of me is that I'm "really smart" but I'm also a complete ditz. I never get whats going on around me, because I'm so caught up in what I'm thinking.
Yet, I also have weird sensory crap going on. I am really really sensitive, and I can tell right away if something's wrong with those I'm close to, even if they're not there. I get feelings telling me to call them.
Someone HELP. I am so sick of feeling alone.
Suicide is on the table again, but I'm trying not to. PLEASE HELP! (link)
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If you have friends that label you and make you feel like crap, then they're not very good friends and I think you should find people that won't judge you about things like that.
You shouldn't have to change who you are just because someone else doesn't like it. YOU like it and that's what's important.
Find people that are into some of the same things as you so you'll have something in common. The people that matter in life won't care what kind of clothes you wear or how smart you are or how ditzy you are. They'll just care that you're here.
About the suicide thing? I'm not going to tell you that I 'know exactly how you feel' but I am going to tell you that I've been there. I may not have had the same exact problems that you have, but I've contemplated it. It was like nobody understood how I was feeling and what was a huge deal to me didn't matter at all to everyone around me.
I had a plan too. I even wrote a letter. But then one of my friends surprised me and said that if I killed myself, she would kill herself too. It's like Marilyn Manson said. When you have someone who is willing to die with you, you don't want to die anymore.
Here are some hotlines you can call if you need someone to talk to:
1-800-784-2433
1-800-273-8255
1-630-482-9696
Or, if you ever need to talk, you can ask me a private question or IM or email me. I'll get back as soon as I can.
Your life is precious and even though you think that no one would care that you suddenly weren't there anymore, there's always someone that couldn't live without you.
About your comment: Emo isn't a type of hairstyle or clothing style. It stands for emotional, and you can't 'not be' that. If you try to be prep or goth or jock-ish, you'll just be a poser.
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Rating: 4
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It's not ABOUT the suicide. I'm fine right now. I need to know how not to be Emo.
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