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this may sound scary but lately i have these thoughts like a voice in my head saying im a satanist. i don't want to be and i try to force the thought out and think that god is my only one though it always comes back. i got this book and it had a list of all the warning signs of a satanist and i had all of them except for one. i think i am becoming a satanist. i also do witchcraft but i never did anything involving the devil. now all i can think about is becoming a satnist i need serious help. i am originally catholic. and i am a girl.
What you are, you can only become by choice. No one can make you become a follower of Satan, not even the weird voices in your head :P Just as you must CHOOSE to become a Christian, you must CHOOSE to become Satanic.
The voices in your head...Well, I've never heard voices. I have had uncontrollable, horrible thoughts though. It continued for an extended period of time too.
So, as someone who has been there and done that...I would like to tell you: 1) This isn't uncommon. 2) You are probably experiencing some form of anxiety.
Someone suggested that maybe your anxiety is caused by conflicting religious beliefs. Could be. It could also be that you are letting your own fears get way out of control.
For me, it was simply fear. I addressed the fear and did something to make myself feel better about it. When I did, the thoughts began to go away. Try acknowledging your own fears. Remember, "The only thing to fear is fear itself." If you continue to be anxious, go to your doctor. Even your family physician is fine.
And as for Wicca, well...Whether or not you think Satan is involved depends largely on what religious order you follow. Most Christians will tell you that all witches are pawns of Satan...Or something like that. They say that because of a specific scripture from the Old Testament that claims that all witchcraft is evil and a sin, that all witches who have power...That their power comes directly from the devil. (Sorry I can't remember the exact wording or what chapter. That's the basic premise, I know because I've read the Bible from cover to cover twice.)
However, scholars suggest that this rule was invented out of a need to discredit the old religions that existed before the Jewish religion was founded. Could be true. It certainly gave many Christians an excuse to persecute innocent people.
I would also like to mention that while I am not a member of any religious order, nor do I practice witchcraft, I do not believe that Wiccans are evil, and nor are their practices. I know many, many Wiccans. They are all normal, caring people who worship a dual diety, God and Goddess incarnations. (Though Wicca has many variations, it's usually something like this.) I see their practices as nothing more than a different type of ritual and prayer. All religions have different sorts of prayers and rituals. Just because one particular religion has practices different from many others, does not mean that they should be singled out and condemned. If we did that, not only would the Christians say that...Buddhists, for example are going to hell, but that they are also worshippers of Satan for practicing yoga and meditation.
My advice, don't just acknowledge your fears, but realize that how you connect with the higher power, is not as important as if you do. If you believe that your practices bring you closer to God, well...You're just praying in a different way. And remember that just because you associate yourself with a certain religion, doesn't mean that you have to believe everything that they have to say about the higher power. God gave you a brain, he intended for you to use it. He wants you to decide who he is for yourself. He wants you to believe what you believe, not just because someone else told you to believe it, but because it makes sense to you. Many paths to the higher power exist in this world, and I believe that they are all valid. I believe such because...If God does indeed know everything, then he knew before he even created us, that we would all be different. And that means different beliefs, different practices, different religions.
I know this is really long. Sorry. If you have any further questions, please leave a message in my inbox. My thoughts and prayers are with you ;) Ja!
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