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Q: What are the best websites and methods to finding a job? I don't have any skills and I only obtained a high school diploma.

Sweetie, before you go online and search. your best bet is to actually visit the job then if they say you have to apply online have a notecard or something to write down the website, ask for the manager's name, and the number to the place because after you apply call within a week and check up on your application STRAIGHT-FROM the hiring manager themselves.

Q: i am female 13

well theres this real cute guy and i like him alot and at school i flirt a little but i dont think hes intrested in me. At night i dream about him its really wierd and against my will i dont want to be dreaming about him and it is stopping me from moving on with my life please help me because i cant even not think about him and ive tried to get over him but i cant.

sweetie, because you never went for the guy there is nothing to get over. you have no real relationship to get closure from. so your best bet is to accept that and move on or to face him and actually make move even if you get rejected. Luckily you're only 13 so if anything he is just a simple crush and it's not unusual to have dreams about someone you like because that is your subconscious talking.

Q: My boyfriend loves sex! I do to, don't get me wrong, but it's hard to enjoy it when it's so painful, and sadly my boyfriend loves the painful stuff. We did anal one time and I was practically screaming in pain and crying the moment it started. Not once, even when I was crying and trying to hold in the screams of pain did he stop or ask if I was alright. After that he promised he wouldn't put me through that again, but we've done it twice since then and it was the same everytime.
Then there's the "Blowjob"... I throw up every time. After he's finished I run to the bathroom to throw up what he's done to me, and he just watches me throw up from the bedroom like he's watching tv and my pain is nothing to him. I love him so so much but I don't want to have to be in pain to please him.

You're boyfriend is a sadist, some of you make recognize that term from Rihanna's song "S&M" ya know the whole "whips and chains excite me". The causing pain is his TURN-ON, Unfortunanely. Either talk to him about this and tell him that you do not want to be going through the pain and that if he loves you he won't put you through it again. But believe me you might want to leave this guy alone if he doesn't agree to that, sadist tend to take violent sex to the extreme. and end up with a dead lover.

Q: I switched to a different birth control 2 months ago. The last 2 months my period came around the 2nd week of the pack (its supposed to come on the 4th). My doctor said that it could take 3-5 months for it to regulate itself and for my body to get used to the hormones though. I've been taking the pill at the same time every day (no more than like 10 mins from the hour). I haven't missed any pills. I've been cramping for like a week and a half now and just started the 4th week of my pack. Is this just my body getting back to when I'm supposed to get my period or pregnancy? I mean I have been taking the pill everyday at the same time but these long cramps are what's making me nervous. And if I take a pregnancy test when should I take it. Thanks.

hmmm... it doesn't really sound like your pregnant but i would schedule a doctor's appointment and have them check it out. maybe even do a pregnancy test at the doctors instead of just a convient store one.

Q: 18/f

I have many good friends on LiveJournal - some people dismiss online friendships, but my online friends know so much about me and vice versa. They are truly some of my closest friends. I've been friends with one girl, K, for a long time now. We initially bonded over being so similar to one another, and we've always got on brilliantly, but as time went on I grew to care for her in a way I care for only a very select few - I empathise with her to the point where if she is upset, I will be, if she's happy, I will be etc. It's rare for me to feel that way about someone.

And recently this has developed into something more - I'm not sure if my feelings for her are sexual (though if it's of any importance, I'm a lesbian-leaning bisexual), but they are romantic. I feel so strongly for her I often don't know what to do with myself, and it is so difficult having feelings for someone and not really being able to do anything about it.

More than that, I feel like she is someone I need to have in my life - I accept that we'll probably never be more than friends (she's straight), but it's rare for me to meet someone I connect to on the level I do her. I'm not one who believes in fate or anything, but I always feel as if I'm 'supposed' to be friends with her, if that makes sense. It just feels right to have her in my life, and I don't want to just know her through a computer screen. We live in the same country, and it wouldn't be too difficult to meet up, but I worry about the etiquette of these things - some people like to keep their online and offline lives very separate.

I guess I just want some support or someone to tell me if they've been in a similar situation. How do you deal with having strong feelings for someone you know online? And how can I strengthen our friendship?

Thank you.

ahhh. i can't say that i know EXACTLY how you feel. or that i've been through this EXACT situation but i can relate... I'd met this guy almost a year ago from today off a social network, we automatically clicked. and no matter what somebody says online friends are the same as real-life friends. They have a chance of backstabbing just as much and they have a chance of sticking through it with you thick and thin JUST as much. but anyway back to the guy... we liked each other immediately and it was only december that we finally admitted we were in love with each other... so i just actually met him for the first time two weeks ago... it was amazing. we are proudly together for real now. so i understand. it doesnt matter if its online or real life, its still a REAL person on the other side of the computer... well most of the time. hahaha. (dateline reference) and as for her being straight... many girls who are straight turn, with a struggle of course. who knows just hang out with the girl... maybe you'll click like me and him did.

Q: Is penetration of the penis neccesary to become pregnant,or is it possible for sperm to find their own way to the egg when there is sexual activity without penetration?

it is possible without penetration yes. there are many ways to become pregnant without sexual intercourse. You can of course go to a doctor and have a sperm donor be put in or something like that.

Q: Hi there I have a very long story for you and need you honest opinion on this! Ok here goes.....about 3months ago I met this really nice guy that just caught my attention from the beginning we went on a very awkward 1st date n I thought it would end there as he didn't seem interested but we were still chatting after that on BBM then about 2days later we hooked up again with some other people ohk to cut it I lil shorter we saw each other acouple of times after that n I found out that he had an ex that was giving him trouble n he still loved her but still I didn't give up as I knew this girl had a bad reputation and that he desired better. Ok so they made up again n tried to work things out but yet again they split up n he decided to go back home as he was from a different town we still kept in contact but it faded away after awhile till we had no contact. Then a couple of weeks ago I got a call from him out of the blue telling me that he was in jail and had a lot of time to think about what happened n that he wanted me to give him another chance at first I didn't buy the story but eventually I did as I still had a soft spot for him. He promised that he only wanted to be with me n that he will prove to me that he really wants this. So I decided to give it a try as he was really trying we skoke every day atleast twice even after he was released. He asked me to look for a job for him in my town as he wants to move back here to be with me. However for the past few days he hasn't been texting n phoning me as he use to. He also hasn't been using any pet names as he use to! I have asked him if he still wanted this and he said he does. I just wana know if you think he is being for real about this n really wants to be with me or is he losing interest?

your guy honestly sounds like he doesn't even know what he wants and i can tell you, you're going to end up getting hurt again. Ditch the loser, and find someone better who would never make you a second choice and need four walls just to figure out they needed you. He should have known in the first place. It's true you never knew what you had till it's gone but it's ALSO true we want the things we have lost and the things we can't and shouldn't have. your the thing he lost and SHOULDN'T have.

Q: Hi instead of self harming myself I've been writing poetry :) would you mind reading some if my work and giving me feedback? I have a lot but here are my three favorite ones :)
This one is called " useless lies "

Today is the day
That I'll give up on trying
Today is the end
Of all the useless lying
Not wasting my tears
If they won't stop the bleeding
Today is the day that my heart will stop beating
My palms are sweaty my vision is blurred
I let out a scream that no one even heard
I blink back the tears I choke back a cry
Today is the end if all the useless lies

"Call me crazy"
some people call me crazy
Some think I'm just sic
I think I'm just lazy
I need something short and quick
Something simple to take away my pain
Something easy to help me live through the day
As my world gets destroyed I'm destroying
myself
Fill the ache in my heart
That can't be filled by anything else
I'm done with crying
My blood is my tears
It's time to let go
Time to face my fears
Some think I'm crazy
Some think I'm sick
I think I'm just lazy
I need something short and quick

" forgotten "

Left alone
Forgotten
Nobody else cares
Left alone forgotten
No one else is there
I can't escape to scared to try
I still feel alone inside
My world crashing
All around me
Raining sorrow
Someone see me
See me for who I am inside
No one cares
No one even tries
Done believing
All your lies

i love that not only you came on here to show your poetry which by the way is amazing but you were straight up that this helped you feel better, hopefully others who feel this way will see. and you should sign up for allpoetry. it's a great sight for writers like yourself. you can meet and read other writers AND even get feedback.

Q: My husband has started changing ever since he found out of my difficulty in having children. He tells me how he detested me company, how it would be good for me to pay him just to be with him. Everyday is a hurtful humiliation from him to me. I like to save money when ever I can and he wants it all. When I refuse to give what he wants he starts belittling me by telling me to compare myself to his good looks. And how he deserves better. I love my husband and would like us to work, I'm tired of these hurtful comments and not bring able to have my husband as a dependable partner. I prefer trying to make it work before divorce. Please advice.

you love this man, but if he loved you he wouldn't treat you this way... Now you can try other ways of getting pregnant but he obviously is just an asshole and that won't change whether there is a child or not in the picture. Try marriage counseling, otherwise you got to leave.

Q: I'm 11 and my boyfriend broke up with me and I really seriously can't get over it! I'm madly in love with him but he's dating my bestfriend please please please help!

little girl you are ELEVEN!!! you are not in love. you need to be focusing on school and enjoying your god damn childhood when you have it. And if anything you shouldn't even got back with him he probably broke up with you for YOUR BEST FRIEND. he might have even liked her why he was dating you. so forget about it.

Q: if i get fingered, will my " cherry " pop ?

It's possible yes. Hahahaha.

Q: I am 16 years old and im a girl.im a really depressed person and i dont know where to turn.i have no one to talk to.i dont really have any friends.and i dont have any one to talk to in my family either.i have decided to turn to talk to strangers.Can anyone tell me a specific site to go on to be able to really talk to someone and vent all my feelings?and maybe if one of you guys would like to talk to me?
Thanks.i would really appreciate any useful advice.

golivewire.com

Q: hey..... im gay im 16 and i never really had a boyfriend or never even hung out with a gay guy. i cant find anywhere and i want a gay guy to talk to and get to know. do u think u could help me.

Don't worry about all the people on here who are probably going to try to convince you you're not gay. It doesn't matter because you just know... it's like knowing you're straight.. YOU JUST KNOW. And there is always social networks, gay clubs (whether clubbing, school things or etc..)

Q: I love my boyfriend alot but sometimes he wants to move too fast in our relationship if you know what i mean... I dont want to hurt his feelings but i always tell him no when i feel too uncomfortable and then he gets either really upset or mad. I don't know what to do, please help me.
-Takeitslowbabe

I'm going to be the bitch here... Isalito or whatever. Your answer was stupid. Like seriously stupid. She never said she was going to spend forever with him and she may even be 15 and i really doubt if she is young they are going to be together "FOREVER" Even though guys say that, thinking it will let you get in their pants. Tell him he is moving too fast and if he still keeps pressuring you or getting mad about it, HE DOESN'T LOVE YOU. HE IS USING YOU. So kick that boy to the curb and find someone willing to wait.

Q: Can u mix vodka with only mountain dew or do you need smirnoff pineapple?

Now let's face it, you're obviously not 21 by this question. And you also should have probably just googled this answer because now you're going to get lectures for it and told it's "wrong" and "you'll ruin your childhood" and "just don't drink and drive" even though you most likely don't have a license either. I'm going to be the one to just give you an answer. SURE, you can mix it with mountain dew but it'd probably be better just to do shots of it and then chase it down with it.

Q: #1 Not looking for a "Stop we can help you" Solution
#2 Not even sure if im going to go through with it.
(will know in about 2 weeks)
#3 -=Looking for fast painless ways to die.=- (not sure exactly how to get a real gun but im sure i could find a way.)
#4 Thanks ever so much!

Please no spam or #1 {Thanks}

Honestly, i hope no one gives you a none painful solution because if you're really that big of a coward and a pussy where you can't stick through life and you just give up not caring that other people will probably end up getting hurt is this equation... you deserve to die in a painful way.

Q: Theres someone pretty creepy who has been texting me. I asked all my friends if they new the number, and I know what town they are in based on the area code. Is there anyway I'm able to look up who the person is for free online or something just so I can put my mind at ease? Thanks.

You should honestly just ignore their texts and/or go to your cell phone provider and have that number blocked from contacting you... these two only being an option after you tell the creep to "go stand in front of moving car" hahaha. If they persist in trying to contact you, call this number...
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Q: I got my period when I was 9, it was never normal it would always skip months. When I turned 18 it started coming on every month. I'm 19 now and I have had some times where it missed, maybe once or twice but I haven't seen my period since December...I have been sexually active but protection was always used...except for one time when it broke but there was no ejaculation...what could be the reasoning for this now? (also I was raped when I was 18 and something was torn and I was told I could not get pregnant and there were times when the condom didn't cut it and there was ejaculation and I didn't get pregnant) just giving every detail...xoxo
THANKS FOR THE HELP

It has nothing to do with the rape it's your body in general. You're like me. I got mine at a young age and sometimes if i'm lucky it comes once every three months. You should go to the gyno and get it checked out, they may put you on b.c. to regulate your period. It's less annoying then just getting your period out of nowhere. Which is what i should do but i'm too scared too ;o

Q: y do people try to stop people when they want to die? its probably for a good reason that they do not want to live anymore

Are you fucking serious?! Think about it. Think of someone you care about so much that you couldn't picture them not in your life... or maybe not even a person something you just care about so much it means everything to you... Now imagine that person or thing GONE. Most likely people who want to die or kill themselves have a person that feels that way about that even THOUGH they don't want to admit it. And it's wrong. so many people who fail at killing themselves do realize it is a mistake and some don't that's true. But that's because they were to stupid and to cowardly to actually face life. They pussied out.

Q: 17/f I like my best friend, and i have for awhile. My girl best friend just told me last night, that she was questioning his best friend about me and him, since she knows he tells his best guy friend things, and he told his best friend that he didnt want to date me because my life was too fucked up. Like my family and stuff.. I cried for a really long time because you would think that's when a person would want to be there for you more, i dont see how thats any reason not to be with someone, and i dont know what to think..expecially since hes like my best friend.

SMH. One thing you should honestly never do is have a friend ask a friend if your friend likes you... hahaha confusing way to put it. I mean there are so many people in this equation that could be lying or covering up or anything else. Your friend could be lying because she likes him. His friend could be lying because he likes you. The guy could be lying because he doesn't want others to know he likes you. IN OTHER WORDS, Ask him yourself. It's better.

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