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I don't know my sexuality?
I'm fourteen, soon to be fifteen. I feel attracted to both genders. I know that people may say "Oh it's just a phase or horomones", but hear me out.
As long as I can remember, probably even since I was eight, I've been attracted to the female body. Ever since, I've just been trying to push those feelings away or to avoid them. Those feelings never went away. I still feel an attraction to both men and women. I actually even had my first kiss with a girl, and also dated her. I don't know what my sexuality is. Bisexual?
Also, if I was bisexual, I need advice... I think my dad is homophobic. He denies it, but he thinks it's disgusting when he sees gays. He even said, "Bisexuals are even worse. How can you like both? It makes no sense". I didn't really say much. My mom would probably not care much, which is good, but my dad... I honestly don't even feel like telling them that I'm bisexual if I were to be because it's not their business and it would save drama and anxiety.
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From just your little description of being attracted to both genders I would say you're bisexual. However, as you get older if his truly isn't a phase (because it is for some people), you MAY find that your sexual orientation changes. Sexuality is very fluid so it's a very common thing.
I remember thinking I was bisexual only later to realize I'm a lesbian, only later to realize I'm also pan romantic. However, don't focus too much on finding the correct identity for yourself yet. You may feel stressed if you can't find something to "call yourself" but finding your identity could take a while, as it did with me so put that on the back burner for now. As hard as it may seem, just go with the flow. Don't think, just feel. Easier said than done but you'll get the hang of it.
As for your dad, unfortunately people have that view on bisexuals. It's a horrible stereotype or stigma attached to them. No you don't have to pick one or the other; you can appreciate both of them. Don't listen to anyone who tries to invalidate your feelings. My dad is very homophobic as well; reason why after so many years I still haven't come out.
Again, don't stress it too much. Don't think, feel. Good luck! xx
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Being bisexual means you're attracted to both genders. there's nothing to be ashamed of when it comes to who you are attracted to. Honestly, you tell him when you're ready, coming out doesn't have to be forced in the slightest.
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Yes, what you describe is bi-sexual. Do a search on bisexual teen support groups on line to hear from others who've had to face the exact same situation as you with Dad. I personally say, it's not his business. But as long as you're living under his roof, you might want it to be as pleasant as possible, meaning his not knowing, cus life may become Hell at home with him thinking He didn't do a good job of raising you and place all sorts of rules and restrictions on you. As long as you are under 18, the age of consent,he may try extra hard to 'change your mind', out of ignorance, but love and concern for you. You know it's not something you 'decided' to do, but that it is just there, a part of you. If your Dad was a farmer, he'd know that this is a natural difference in sexuality as can be witnessed in the animal kingdom also.
Using the example of homosexuality,Lets say, its Sheep, and the farmer notices a male sheep or two who never go after the females, only males. They are no good for creating more offspring so they are marked to kill for the meat instead of stay alive. If animals who don't have the reasoning intelligence of humans can have this happen randomly among them, so can humans be something other than hetero sexual.
I looked up a couple support sites for teens who are bisexual and are posting some right here. No idea how good they are so do a search of your own if you need more.
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First there is nothing wrong with being bisexual. If you truly are bisexual that is who you are and there is nothing wrong with being who you are.
Scientists are now telling us that gays and lesbians are born gay. With bisexuals they are not so sure. You say since you were eight you have felt this way. While it is somewhat early to start into puberty at eight years old it does happen.
Puberty and the hormones it releases awakens our sexual awareness. Being as young as you were you may have directed those sexual feelings in the safest direction which would have been towards another female. Now you are older and you may have feelings for males as well.
If you started to get your period at an early age it is a safe bet you went into puberty early as well. I would say you have two choices here.
1) since you say your mom would not care either way is it possible for you to talk to her about this. If I'm correct and you went into puberty early you could simply tell her you feel sexually confused. If mom is comfortable talking about maybe she can help or she can find a therapist for you to talk to who can help you figure this out. Whichever way you decide you are is who you are and there is nothing wrong with that.
2) If you're not comfortable talking to mom about this. There is a law called HIPPA. At your present age this law grants you full medical confidentiality. Meaning you could make an appointment to visit your GYN and discuss this with him or her. Mom does not have to know about the appointment and if she does she cannot be in the room with you when you talk to the doctor. What you and the doctor discus is confidential and cannot be told to anyone without your written permission.
Most import though is there is nothing wrong with you. In fact you are more like other kids your age. The difference is you have said something where most don't. Most kids to experiment with their sexuality with others of the same sex. Very few call themselves bisexual or end up bisexual.
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That definitely sounds like bisexual. Your dad may be denying it, and he may not. Some people just get grossed out by that stuff, but it doesn't mean they are against people like that. It's up to you whether you come out or not, you don't have to, either way just go on your own time.
Hope this helps~
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