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i want to die or live?
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End of everything i want to die
So this all comes to this , let me tell you readers about me
I'm not gonna mention my name but i really need some help and hope that you guys can give me some :(
Its midnight here and its raining quite heavily , and here i am a lower middle class boy who is about to lose everything he had .
Well i am a university student , even though I am a middle class my parents worked so hard for me to get into the university i am not a scholar guy I'm just average at first year in first semester i had 3 ATKTs and because of that i had to give 9 subjects this semester
I worked hard i did my best there was a time when i didn't even slept well for 6-7 days and keep studying hard
Now exams are over and i need to pass in at least 4 subjects to get in second year and i know that I'm gonna fail cause how badly I've done in my exams
My results are on next month
Plus i hace a education loan from bank and they cant continue my loan if i fail
Worst of all guys I'll drop out of the college
And i couldn't stand the embarrassment of it i couldn't stand look on my parents wyes when they will find out i droped out :(
I know guys results are not declared yet but i know how i done in exams and I'm surely going to fail
And ill get a drop :( i just don't know what to do
I cant stand the shame
I can't sleep in night
My dad got 2 heart attacks already and he cant work for much long and i feel really terrible now i am crying at this very moment
I messed up everything life disent give another chance
MK
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Did you know that Bill Gates, Steve Jobs, Mark Zuckerberg and Ted Turner all dropped out of college? Those 'ol boys didn't do too bad for themselves either! Their parents didn't disown them and no one died from embarrassment over it. I am sure their parents weren't too happy at the time but I'm willing to bet they got over it! The point I am trying to make here is your life isn't over because you are not going to get your degree right now. Take a little time off, get a job and maybe pay for some online classes to finish your degree. You said yourself that you did your best so why are you beating yourself up? The one thing you said that really makes NO sense is how you are worried for your father because of his health and yet you believe he could handle your suicide just fine! That would be the most selfish and inconsiderate act you could EVER do to a parent!Don't you realize a parent always blames themselves when their child commits suicide? Your father would always blame himself because he couldn't provide the finances you needed to stay in school. Make your first decision as an adult and go explain your situation to your parents. Tell them you did your best and you are sorry but your future is going to be a little different than what you had planned. This is what becoming an adult is all about my friend!Turn this into something positive!If you can change your thoughts you can change your life! Good luck!
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You're mistaken about your options. There are ways to continue with school if you fail. There are ways to continue to get loans if you fail. This is a very stressful time for you so it can be easy to lose control and feel yourself begin to spiral negatively downward. It was the right thing to do to ask for advice. My advice to you is this: Don't be a pessimist, be the type of person that finds a way. Talk to a financial or academic counselor at your university. Tell this person what your fears are and ask them what your options would be in the worst case scenario. There are options. There is still a lot of hope for you. It is certainly not the end of everything. You haven't even asked yet. Rather than an end, make this a beginning. Take a look at the link below for comfort. It's a list of very successful people who failed, but persevered. You can and will move past this and be successful in your life. You don't need to be given another chance. Search, find another chance, and take it. Good luck.
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Honey you have a lot on your shoulders, please don't feel guilty, talk to someone a pastor or family member...you don't spell very well, but its not your responsibility to do something you don't want to do...you don't have to put up with things at your detrement...you need to speak to someone...please pray to your father in heaven, and remember, THIS TOO SHALL PASS...write down different choices you could do right now on a piece of paper....you have choices and you need to talk to someone and not carry this burden that is not really your own...don't do anything foolish
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