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I dream of men...but
I fall asleep and i dream of the most hotties men, you could imagin of what i do with them :D
But i wake up and think of my best friend who is a women. Why?
i want to have sex with a man, i want them to hold me, i want to make out with men and i love it when men look at me.
But why do i worry about my friend June? I care about her, want to hold her, and when she leans on me i want to cuddle with her.
I know i became bi
but she is the only women that i only has eyes for.i dont look at other women in a sexual way, i compear myself with them.
i dont get it?
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It is very normal to have questions and curiosities about your sexuality; especially within the framework of a culture that continues to challenge sexual orientation and boundaries. What exactly makes a person gay or straight or bi? Is it thinking, feeling or acting upon sexual urges. Feelings and thoughts are more difficult to control than our actions. We gather information and roll it around in our brains, process it a while, observe one bit of fact against another, re-clarify, construct, destruct, make patterns, illuminations, revelations, questions, theories, and conclusions about the world and our place in it. We want to belong and fit in somewhere. We try to assert our individuality, but at the same time, we don't ever want to lose our place and worth in groupings and society. "Please help me to define myself," we cry out. "Is there anyone out there like me?" "Am I normal?" We are not defined only by our actions, but by our thoughts and feelings and what we are willing to accept as reality for ourselves. Does being able to put yourself into someone else's shoes make you that person? No. It gives you insight into another reality and expands your view. As a whole you find yourself attracted to the male of the species and not the female of the species. This generally counts as being straight. However, being a creative and intelligent sexual being, you have the power and imagination to see that this soul that you love as a person is someone whom you could love totally, without the restrictions of gender that are normally in place in your reality when it comes to sexual love.
It is not uncommon for females to have this multifaceted and complex sexual inclinations toward a very close friend. These feelings are seemingly crossing a sexual line and so you wonder if this line is crossed for you forever and changes your identity. The answer is only if you want it to. This is because the deepness of affection you feel for her crosses not only gender, but into a spiritual sphere that rarely is experienced outside of close friendship. You have an intimacy with her that you are unlikely to have with many people whether they are male or female. In fact, whether she were female or male, you would have this soul connection and attraction sexually.
This is why you experience sexual feelings toward her and not women in general. Unless this becomes a pattern and one that you feel is normal and not the exception for you, then I would not feel pressured to declare a new sexual identity. Sexuality is much more complicated than our culture gives us room for, yes even our liberated society that has now given us permission to neatly place ourselves into a couple more neat little boxes, as if that were our idea. The other alternative is that you may feel sexual towards someone as an opportunity to have more power or influence over them in your life. Some people use seduction as pure power and control. Only you know for sure.
Women and men can be attracted to and stimulated by many different things, including same sex nudity or just touching. If you were blind folded and got a sensual massage, you could be turned on whether or not the massager were female, male, attractive, unattractive or had the worst personality. Sexual response can be triggered by many things, and those things in themselves do not define you. You define you.
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I would say that its because you care for her. She's your best friend and you're obviously really close. It may not be that you're bi, if she's the only woman that you look at in a sexual way. I would just call it caring for her, wanting to keep her safe.
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ok. well it sounds like you are having a little difficulty determining what your sexuality is. My take on the situation is that, you're gay. No one is ever 100% gay or 100% straight, and even gay men have fantasies about women on rare occasions. So this may explain why you are having these "changes of heart" if you want to call them that. So i would not worry about anything, and just learn to accept it, which I am not sure if you have done already. It is confusing for everyone, but it will get easier as time goes along. Just choose what you want. I mean if it will help, tell June how you feel about her and about other people and you might be able to experiment and see what your true feelings actually are. Hope this was atleast somewhat helpful.
-Josh
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You cannot help who you have feelings for. You obviously really care for your friend, so it's normal for you to feel more attracted to her than other women. Just because you consider yourself bi does not in any way mean that you will have sexual thoughts about every guy/girl you see. It seems to me like you have more sexual desires for men and those desires you have for your friend and only your friend are because you must be so close with her.
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so you're bi. sometimes it just takes a certain person. some people will stand out to you, just like with guys.
make sure you're not forcing anything on her, though. try talking about related issues and seeing how she reacts.
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lol you cant really force your self for what you want and if you you wont be happy and to be honest
it's like when you have eyes for that one boy you can never take out of your head but dont take me wrong lols but instead your thinking of your bestfriend in that way maybe use have known eachother for a while or use get along really well what ever it is has brought some type of
feelings for you towards her hmm
Hmm Hope ii helped
Well tC and see how things go
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