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i dont know anymore
I hate life like you wouldnt even believe. My dad left when i was a baby and my mom is on meds and living with a bf or maybe just some guy she has sex with and so ever since i was young i have been forced to live with my grandmother. My mom and aunt are on meds for depression and stress and they both claim its cuz of my gma which doesnt surprise me cuz she makes me insane, i wish i was dead like every 20 seconds. ever since i had sex she has been talking about eh guy for ever and its really hard for me cuz i really like him and she is the reasion why we are not together and all she ever does is tell me how worthless i am and how im stupid and how the only job i will get is selling my self even tho my grades are ABBBCC and she tells me that i am really low and just basicall puts me down every chance she gets. and i believe that is why i have no self confidence what so ever. and i believe that is why i had sex with my bf because he was the only guy who ever made me feel special and beautiful. but thats besides the point. everyday she reminds me of my mistakes and its getting old and i just want to shoot my self so i have been drinking and taking pills to make me feel alright and what not and well my question is this what can i do so i dont feel like shit 24/7? just a second ago i was going to go out cuz one of my friedns called me and she said oh you look easy enough, so how manny boys do you think you are going to fuck and so i riped my shirt and threw it at her adn said 100 get in line bi***
any ideas or insight would be much appreciated
thank you
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I have to start by saying I mainly agree with true_image89 on this one.
I've been in some tough home situations myself. Sometimes the weight of it all is too much to bear. It's even harder when you're living in someone else's home, under their rules and condemning words.
I think the first step would be to try and quit with the drinking and the drugs before it becomes a really serious problem. The sooner you quit, the better. They will only make this situation incredibly worse for you. I know it's not what you want for your life, and you have great potential.
It's incredibly sad the situation your parents have put you in, and I know deep down there are some issues of hurt and rejection reguarding your parents. I've been there myself. I do want to let you know that you do have a heavenly Father who cares for you reguardless. He has a mighty plan for your life, I believe it.
The feelings you have: "I hate life... i wish i was dead like every 20 seconds...i have no self confidence what so ever... " First off, I really don't blame you for feeling down considering the environment you described. You really need to just KNOW that what they say to you isn't true. Don't take what they say personal, consider it this way... they're obviously the one's with the problems. For someone to speak to a family memeber, someone they have supposedly cared for as they grew up, the way you desccribed, is incredibly sad, and only shows how 'worthless' they are being, not you.
That said, I would highly recommend finding a church to communicate with. Find one that a friend, or someone you know goes to. Make sure the people there are loving, receiving, and non-judgmental. A church family can really give alot of support, help you find ways to cope, provide a distraction from what's going on, give you some new friends and mentor's who will really care about you, and about making a POSITIVE impact on your life. You never know, maybe you will meet some decent people there that you can stay with for a while. If not, at least you will have a POSITIVE environment to go to now and then.
As for school, please, please, PLEASE! keep it up! I am so proud you are doing well with your grades! Make sure you have plans to go to college someday! You can go for just about anything, and with a college degree, you can really make a living doing just about anything- don't let anyone EVER hinder your dreams! They were placed inside of you for a very special reason- only you can do what YOU especially were put here on this earth to do!
One day, I'm sure, you will find yourself helping other young ladies like yourself, and you will have alot of experience and wisdom to share.
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Hi, this is Farmer. Well, you have too forget what people think because they do nothing but put you down. I know what you are talking about because I am having the same problem. First, get a friend you can trust and talk to them when you feel bad or down and when you can't talk to them do something you love too do (like music, sports or games). That makes me feel better most of the time! Well, hang in there and write me back if that doesn't help!
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I don't care how old this bitch is.. your grandma ?? she can shove that all up her ass.. My best friends gramma is like that.. she makes her feel like shit.. she pushed my friend down the stairs one time.. and said that she isn't worth a peice of shit because she smokes n drinks.. and her mom doesn't do a damn thing about it.. the best thing that i can say is, is that if this women is treating you like this.. if you need to yell at this bitch then you better get your point across.. don't let this women ruin your self esteem.. she's gunna drive you into doing more bad things.. just because you have had sex doesn't make you a whore/slut/hoe WHATEVER. no one ever deserves to call you that.. Ask your gramma if she did this to your mom and ur auntie.. cuz thats what it seems like.. cuz ur mom and auntie are on anti depressants... maybe gramma drove em crazy.. killing yourself wouldn't be the answer.. you would be running away from your problems.. You would approach God as a murderer.. do you want that?? i'll pray for you and your grandma.. maybe you should try to tell your grandma that your mistakes don't need to be shoved down your throat.. it'll make you insane.. just ask her to help instead of making your life hell.. tell her that you don't want to end up like your mom..
-meagan
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so you canot live wiht your mom or aunt for they are..um..crazy..jeez..this is a tough one...
But first of all you are NOT worthless..to me..YOU will be way better than your loser granny who drove TWO people crzy and your mom and aunt who medicate themselves to death. You know what is right behavior and what is wrong..and how DARE they even put you down when they have donw such a SH*** job of their lives..
Anytime ANY of them..even dare to say one word to you..say to them..what and YOU did such a great job.and walk away.
But do not buy inot thier diseases by having sex and drinking..by doing that..YOU are confirming to them...that you are just LIKe them.
So you best at school..get a job..go to college..have a GREAT realtionship..wiht GREAT people..that alone will show them what a AWESOME person you are.
Youa re not a loser..you are going to have a WAY better life..than they could ever imagine....
LIVIMG good...is the best revenge...
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alot of teens go through the same which is horrible and i know how it feels. ur just as bad as she is because your drinking and taking pills too, if your getting grades like that then i say that you should just hold on and try to get into a good college and things will get alot better. and your friend is messed up she should have never said that. if your old enough see if your school has a student welfare program then you will be alot better off.
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That's horrible, try talking to a guidance counselor, if it's that bad you can get this thing where you can live on your own, depending on your age. Hope i helped, good luck!
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how old are you can you not tell a tutor or ring child l,ine they should help you cant you t
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aw you sound like a great person .. do you have another aunt or uncle that doesn`t put you down? if so talk to them about it or talk to your school counselor and get help! this shouldn`t be happening, you don`t deserve it. any other questions leave it in my inbox *
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gosh...ur life is so sad. i wish ur mom didnt do that stuff. man wut an idiot. ur grandmother has no right to say that stuff 2 u. u can just stay away from ur house as much as possible. when u have 2 come home, then go straight to ur room and dont say a word. plz dont drink or take pills anymore they arent worth it. if this continues on and ur really really really fed up w/it, then just tell ur grandmother. tell her 2 shut up and that she has no rite to say that sh** bout u. and if it still continues, i would tell somebody. look into foster homes cuz this isnt fair 2 u. hope i helped ya!
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I really believe you should get help, you should not be told you are worthless! Im a Christian, and you might think im crazy... but I truely think this advise will help! You were put on this earth for a reason! Do you have ANY friend that go to church? I really suggest you go to church, or talk to a counsoler at school, you really need someone to talk to right now. Drinking and taking pills will not help anything, and i hope you dont take that as offensive, i am just concerned! Stright Way is a great program that help people with problems like yours, they are teenagers and young adults who have been through times like these. I really think you should email them at: info@straightway.org and you can visit there website: www.straightway.org
remember "its just the weather, it wont last forever" you can really pull through, you just need to put your heart into it! I will be praying for you, I DO NOT think you are worthless in any way!
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