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Oh dear god....what's happening to me T_T
Okay. This is what I go through, about once a month, sometimes more/less frequently. I start changing. I really don't know what it is, it's hard to explain. But I'll try.
It feels like my heart is becoming empty. Like I'm becoming hungry, or like I'm enraged, or like I'm in love (they all feel the same to me.) You know, that feeling. In my heart. It feels like something is trying to change me from the inside, like trying to change my personality. My personality is weird. I think differently. I have no mental problems. O__o;;
I'm thinking that maybe my way if thinking is correct and maybe....God....doesn't want me to know whatever it is I know. Anyway. Back to what happens. The first time it happened, at my friends house, I started getting the feeling and for some reason I knew what was happening almost immediately. I started crying and pounding my chest really hard and saying "Don't change....don't change...." And I was grabbing anything to pound my heart with, I almost went for the silverware ;_;
My friend was really concerned xD I don't think she had any clue what was happening.
The second time, just recently, this happened again, only it wasn't as strong. I have gotten rather good at fighting it. But then it felt like there was a pressure in my head...like something was gently squeezing it.
This isn't puberty. This is something weird happening to me and if it has happened to anyone else I would like to know. I would also like to add that I am not insane. This is a FEELING, not a twisted thought or action. My apologies for the length of this question.
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Are you female? A monthly change in your emotions/actions would indicate that this has something to do with your menstrual cycle. There is a disorder called PMDD, which is a like a severe PMS. Some of your symptoms seem to suggest you might want to look further into it, but on the whole I'd say you need to speak to a professional.
Start with your family doctor if you feel comfortable there. Mental health issues are fairly common, and most can be worked through/dealt with appropriately if they are diagnosed - the earlier the better. I'll also point out that mental health involves feelings and emotions; after all, that's what our brains inspire in us.
I'm thinking you are more likely to be having these problems as a result of hormonal issues (male or female), and I'd head over to a doctor's office as soon as possible. After all, if you've only experienced this a few times, you can't be sure if it will continue to escalte. Better to nip it in the bud, if possible.
Good luck.
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Because this is such a strange and unusual emotion to feel, (probably not many people who read this will be able to relate), you need to ask this question to an online psychiatrist who is free. It can be hard to find sometimes but go to google and advanced search and type in "free psychiatric advice" or something to that matter and see who could help you out because I wouldn't be able to begin to explain to you what's going on. I don't know how many people here will be able to help you except to reccomend you get professional help, not because of a chance of psychoness or anything, but because this is an unusual matter. Or maybe you have insurance and can see a real psychiatrist doctor, or see your school counselor. All these confusing negative and positive imbalances of feeling empty, hungry, angry, and loving all at the same time could signal the early stages of a personality disorder. Good luck, I hope this weird experience passes with no problems.
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Given what you've described, I would not write off the possibility that you're beginning to suffer delusions associated with schitzophrenia. Assuming you're not just making this up, go talk to a doctor about this.
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I don't know why you dismissed puberty and accepted some paranormal God-related thingy so quickly.
It most probably IS something related to puberty, a surge of hormones. Hormones have a huge impact on every aspect of you, physical and mental. I would just say go see an endocrinologist.
As for the extremes, like tihs "head squeezing" thing, it is a psychosomatic response that is self-inflicting, also as a result of the hormone surges.
Seriously, it's just hormones, in large influxes.
God hasn't chosen you to be his... head-squeezing pawn.
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its probly a change your going through not like puberty a councilor or parent may not help in this case perhaps meditating or mabey just practice your not mental I know that I had things a little like that you think differently and your mind may not want to let it all in it's ok your going to be fine just have your friends help you when your having it and keep water with you it may help calm you down
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i dont really understand what you mean...but i can try to help. maybe its just a massive mood swing? you might wanna see a shrink though before it goes too far, because thats deffinitly not normal. tell the shrink what you told us and see if she can help you! sorry if my answer sucked lol but i did the best i could from what i understood! x0x0x
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