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18/f
I'm not really lovin life right now. Lots of stress, problems and drama. I don't have any trust-worthy and loyal friends.. they all put me down and make me feel worse about myself. I talked to my parents about this and they said to ignore them and stop being "friends" with them. I took their advice and didn't bother to talk to them ever again. But now I feel like such a loner. I try to make friends but they never really stick. We become friends for a few months and then things die down. I'm pretty busy outside of school so I don't have much time to party or hang out. On top of "friends" putting me down, my parents put me down sometimes too. They make me feel like shit sometimes. They point out my imperfections and make me feel worse about some things. but other times they make me feel ok. I just have such a low self-esteem.. :( I have a boyfriend who is literally MY LIFE. he's my best friend. he makes me feel so amazing. the majority of my happiness is just from him because he makes me so happy :) however.. there have been times when we were close to breaking up. those times were the worst because I literally felt like I had nothing.
I've tried to boost my self esteem by buying/spoiling myself with pleasures like shopping and eating junk food. I've tried yoga, meditating, doing new things like starting ceramics, starting to sew and make fashion, etc. but nothing really makes me feel great about myself. I just need some advice please. How do I make myself happy? make my self esteem better? My boyfriend always gives me compliments. he says i'm beautiful and amazing. most of the time i just say thank you, but i never truly believe it. Part of me believes that I'm not special at all. whenever i look at myself in the mirror, i never think i'm beautiful. i never think i'm an amazing person. I don't look at myself like i'm magnificent. I'm just "blah".
I know this is a problem. I'm a senior in high school about to graduate this spring. I'm just so sick of feeling "blah" all the time. I want to be happier. I want to feel good about myself. I want to have confidence in myself and know i'm amazing. but i don't get that feeling right now. please help! thank you so much :) (link)
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wow,. Deja Vew. or how every you spell it.
this is exactly word for word how i felt a few years ago when i was a senior. I wish i had the perfect words but all i can say is i've been there and it gets so much better hun,.
as to the self esteem issue you just have to think you are a powerful young adult who had the world at her feet and is able to do anything she wants!
I hope this helps a little
Jasmine*
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thank you! maybe a little more information on self esteem but its good to know that i'm not the only one who felt this way too :) thanks!
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