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So back in February i smoked weed for the first time since it was my 15'th birthday. Well i got really really high and started freaking out and saying, "This is a dream, this is a cartoon" and it scared me soooooooo bad. Well then i woke up the next day feeling fine. Alittle more then a month later i smoked alittle again and felt kind of like i wasnt in my body but it wasnt bad. Well then about a month later i started smoking like, once a week on the weekends at partys. and i started to know my limit for smoking. Well from time to time when i would smoke (which was once maybe twice a week) i would feel like i was in a dream and id have moments like that too. but nothing to bad. I was outside in the sun A LOT and i was playing soccer A LOT. and eating alot of fruit. So after the school year started, i still smoked the same, some weeks id not smoke just because i didnt want to. Well since about, October, iv been having having days where i feel like im not here, aka depersonalization. and it scares me. well i kept smoking until a couple days after thanksgiving and then i stoped for a month, but the depersonalization stayed the same. well then my friends pressured me into smoking again (and i was being weak about it) and i smoked it and i was soo scared. well since then, iv been having really really bad episodes of depersonalization. Iv had anxiety problems since 7th grade when i was bullied kinda bad. and i was sexually abused for around 7 years in my childhood and never told anyone. my mom and dad got divorced and that was really really bad. I had 1 friend die, one close family friend, and the guy who lived across the street die who was pretty much my dad. All within 9 months. the same 9 months that iv been smoking. If i tell my mom she doesnt believe me. Im sick of feeling like this, i want to feel like a real person again. i started writing down how i felt and getting my feelings out on paper and thats helped alittle bit, admitting the things that have happened to me and everything like that.
What are some ways i can bring myself back?
How long will this last?
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I think this, as well as depression and anxiety, is a fairly common problem amongst users. In a way, it may be directly linked to the marijuana consumption, but it also probably ties in with previous life experiences.
There was a recovering drug user that once came and spoke to my school about the recovery process. He said a few things that I haven't really heard before, and it was surprising because he was a drug user at one point. He said everything started with weed for him.
Marijuana makes you feel high. You get a little bit of a rush. You feel fairly decent while you're stoned. Things are a little easier-going, a little funnier, and a little lighter. Life doesn't seem so serious for that little amount of time. Things are different. Unfortunately, those things are typically not reality.
So, those problems that you had a little less hard on you. You kind of push those out of your mind, or they suddenly don't seem as bad. Life isn't "great" but it's a little easier to deal with when you're high.
Then, you come down from the high and things are serious again, only, unfortunately, they can feel a little more serious. People aren't as funny any more. You suddenly don't seem as likable to the people around you. You're reminded of your problems and of reality. You're, again, faced with real life, real problems, and real situations.
So, it can feel like you suddenly don't fit it or even belong. You spent time in what is almost like another, less serious, world and then you came back and saw how life really is like here on Earth. It can feel like you don't belong. It can feel like it isn't real and that you're just going through the motions of this life.
Using anything that creates desensitization in any way, physically or mentally, can cause problems for the user, especially if it's consumed frequently. It's harder to come back to real life and be able to deal with reality after you go away to a lighter, less-serious place. Reality progressively gets more boring, harder, and unhappier. It screws up the way you perceive life, including people.
You probably won't find your answers to healing alone. It would be wise to speak with honestly with your therapist about it. Depersonalization can be pretty hard on the person experiencing it. When you feel like you're just "going through the motions" in a world you "don't feel" you "belong in" then it is very troubling, discouraging, demotivating, and lifeless. Some people live with this disorder for many, many years before seeking the appropriate treatment. Some people are healed and back to normal in as little as a few months of starting treatment. Unfortunately, some people will never feel quite right again.
Writing down how you feel is a good start but you aren't likely to suddenly be well because of it. You need to integrate back into reality, see the joy in what is real, and find your place of belonging again. You need to talk things out with a professional. Most people aren't able to recover completely without the assistance of a professional.
Reach out to a counselor, therapist, psychologist, or anyone in such fields. Tell them the truth of what has happened, and seek help for yourself. Don't down medications and hope they will solve all of your problems either. Medication may help you return to normal-feeling but they aren't going to solve mental and emotional hang-ups you have so make sure you become involved in therapy sessions to learn to cope, deal, and grow as a person.
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