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Q: Okay, so I am not fat. I know this...sort of. Just I get self-conscious sometimes because I look in the mirror and see flab and grossness. This is all recently. I feel unworthy I guess for so many reasons so this is just one more.
I weigh 103 pounds and I am 5' 4", and I'm fifteen years old.
So last week I put up pictures of skinny people on my wall as a kind of goal I guess you could say. Well, then I sort of felt guilty about it. Because I'll never be skinny or pretty as them.
Is it bad that I'm using pictures of super-skinny people? Do I have a problem? I don't know. I think there's gotta be something wrong with me that I keep judging myself over everything. But I'm too embarrassed to tell my mom because I told her once that I wanted to talk to someone (like professionally) and she just nodded and never brought it up ever again.
Ugh.
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Take those pictures down right now.
Aspiring to be a skeleton will get you nowhere. I'm 5'4" too. I weigh 125 pounds, and I'm actually pretty damn skinny (Of course, my weight is mostly muscle mass, thanks to a close gym, but when I weighed 105 I was a stick). If I'm skinny and you weigh 22 pounds less than me, your problem isn't your weight, it's your mentality.
Those stick-thin skinny models are extremely unhealthy. Seeing all of your ribs? Yeah, actually not such a good thing. By the way, if anything, you're underweight for your height. Your ideal weight at 5'4" is 120. Just throwin' that out there.
The problem you're describing is called Body Dysmorphic Disorder (BDD). It's actually common among like, everyone nowadays. I had it for awhile, too. Basically, it's where you look in the mirror and see something that's not really there, or that isn't very noticeable. It's kind of the effect of seeing a pimple that, to you, looks like it's the size of your fist, when it's really just a tiny dot.
As far as your mother, you just need to take a deep breath, sit her down, and explain to her what you just told us. You can even throw in the BDD thing. The word "disorder" might make her cave. If you really want to talk to someone, kudos. Most people don't have the balls to admit that they have a problem, let alone seek help for it. The fact that you've recognized that something is wrong puts you a step ahead of most of the nation and a step closer to feeling better about yourself.
BDD sucks bigtime, but you can beat it if you stop beating yourself up. One cute trick I did at my parents' house is to put on some bright red lipstick and kiss your mirror somewhere out of the way. When you see the kiss mark, you'll remind yourself that you're beautiful, you're a great girl, and that you're allowed to love your body.
If you don't work out much and you want to start doing some of that, speedwalking around your neighborhood, or biking are both great places to start. Cardio is great for toning, and it makes you feel good, too.
In the meantime, if you need someone to talk to, or vent to, feel free to IM me - my sn's SirenCytherea.
Chin up. You're gorgeous.
-Siren =)
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Thanks, I will try talking to my mom again. I just don't know if she'll listen. I'm afraid she might think I'm just being dramatic.
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bio
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I'm a laid-back 26 year old with a Psychology BA, starting my MA program, and working my way into the field as quickly as I can. It took me an extra Bachelor's degree (in vocal performance and creative writing) to figure it out, but I was put on this Earth to help, to heal, and to love.
I have made the decision to dedicate my life and career to helping others. I am here to do just that.
I've been a member since 2004, and since I signed up, I've gone through quite a lot and learned quite a lot from it. I'm here to give guidance where I had none; no one should have to go through the difficulties I went through alone.
Feel free to visit my website/blog, if you want to read my experience with domestic violence and my thoughts on it.
***While I do tend to answer mental health and other health-related or medicine-related questions, I am by NO MEANS a licensed physician or practitioner of any sort. Any and all advice I give for these questions is from my own experience or studies.***
If you need to get a hold of me quickly, my screen name on AIM is SirenCytherea. Just let me know you found me here.
I'm a strong believer in the idea that there are no stupid questions except the ones left unasked, so, please, keep an open mind, heart, and mouth.
Siren
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