I apologize if this is in the wrong category first off.
Ok so...
I'm fifteen (female) and I guess you could just say that I'm worried. I'm worried about the future. I already know what I want as a career...or at least I did. But then I got to thinking how that's it. That's what I'll do for the rest of my life. Like, I can't just keep going back and starting over with a new career twenty or thirty times. I only have one lifetime. Then that's it. I mean, what happens after school? That's all I've ever known and I'm scared about how my life's going to turn out. Nobody can tell me what I should do with my life, it's all up to me. And that scares me. What if I make a wrong decision?
There's just so many different things that interest me, but I know that I can't just keep all of them for the rest of my life. As a career I mean. For instance, I have a passion for music, but don't think I have what it takes to pursue that as a career. But, I don't want to give it up completely. I fear that once my life gets started, I won't be able to play music as much. I look at my mom, and how she used to love painting. But after she had kids and got caught up with work and stuff, she doesn't paint anymore.
I'm just concerned at how my life might turn out. I'm worried that I'll look back in thirty or forty years and wonder why I wasted half my life away. =\
And I know that I don't have to pick my career right now because I'm only fifteen, but really...college is three short years away (I'm an upcoming sophomore). I'm just scared.
My advice: study hard while you are in high school. After you've graduated... Study hard while you are in college. And after you've graduated from college... Make time for music.
In the meantime... Relax.
Of course you don't know what it is that you want to do with the rest of your life. You're 15. Most people that I know entered college thinking they were going to do one thing with their lives... And ended up doing something completely different. After doing that for a while... They changed their minds and decided to do something else. According to statistics, the average person has at least three careers in their lifetime. A lot of older people that I know have had more than that and are still far from kicking the bucket... No telling what they'll be doing in five years from now.
The truth is that people plan for life... But things rarely ever go according to plan. Life has a plan of it's own. That's a good thing. Most of us have no idea what we want... And more often than not, once we get what we want to realize that it isn't what we thought it was going to be. That's because life is a journey... And as the corny old saying goes: 'It doesn't really matter where you go, it's how you get there.'
And no one can tell you what to do because... No one really has this whole 'life' thing figured out. We're all just making it up as we go along. That's okay too. How boring would the world be if everyone knew what they were meant to do and just did that their entire lives? Where's the fun in that?
And we're supposed to screw-up and make mistakes. Otherwise we'd never learn anything. Don't be afraid of getting it wrong the first time... Or even the second time for that matter. Again... How incredibly boring would the world be if everyone was perfect and made the right decisions all the time?
You're here to live, learn, and love. Don't worry about the future... The future will take care of itself. Just enjoy where you are now. You're only going to be there once.
And as for the... I'm worried about looking back fourty years from now and realizing that I wasted my life... There isn't such a thing as a wasted life. Whether you develop a cure for cancer or spend your life writing music that no one will ever hear... You're still going to learn things about yourself that no one could ever just tell you. You're still going to love people even if they die and are forgotten. You're still going to touch lives, sometime for the better sometimes for the worse, even if it's only in the smallest way. In the end, these things are all we really have.
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Wow this was so amazing it made me want to cry. Thanks this made me feel better. You are totally right. I guess I shouldn't worry so much. I just hate not having a plan you know? I like things straight and focused. But it doesn't have to be like that, and thank you for helping me realize that. =]
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