it's kind of along story but i'll try to make it quick...
when i was like 7-9 my dad was dating this chick and we were living with her and her son, me and him were great friends and he was my everything, he was like my superman, he'd fly in and protect me from my abusive sister and he was always there for me... then one day it all just stopped, i only saw him once after that like 3 years later, my dad and his mom broke up then my dad got involved in a ton of legal stuff... life was hectic.
but 7 years later (i'm 16 and he's 18) i ran into him through about 7 coincidental friendships, everyone just barely linked together.
so me and him went out for about a month, it was great, it was perfect, i was crazy about him and he was crazy about me... but then it just stopped... again (o i should mention tha the's always high, he's a pot head, like the worst pot head i've ever met he's never not high, i mention this because alot of my friends that i've dicussed this with think that this fact has alot to do with his behavor...o well back to the story)
through conected friends i heard that he stopped seeing me because i wouldn't "put out"... i couldn't belive it... then i saw hiom again at this party (which was at his new house... i was unaware of this at the time) but i got pretty drunk and we fooled around after everyone left, he wanted sex and i still didn't so we went to sleep, then in the morning i tried to leave without him noticing and he woke up and seemed like he was really hurt i'd try to leave without telling him... so we said our goodbyes and he told me to call him later that day (after i got off work) but here's the curious part, one of his bastfriends who i'm good friends with said that right after i left he called him adn he was all pissed off and i "blew my last chance" (like to get with him)
so i deleted his number from my phone and i decided never to talk to im again... but i can't stop thinking about him, it's been about 2 months since that day and i can't ever get him off my mind, he never calls i never call... i'm trying really hard to get over it, i've dated alot of other guys and i just can't stop wishing they were him or comparing them to him... how can i get over him? why can't i forget about him, i'm usually that person that doen't get involved with relationships and i don't get attached... but in a month he made more of an impact then this guy i was dating on and off for like 3 years... i really can't get him off my mind...
When I read this question... I wonder... Do you miss him? Or the idea of him?
Here is what I mean... When you were a kid, he was your 'superman.' He was there to protect you anhd wipe away your tears, right?
And now... He's someone else. He's high all the time... And at least from what your friends tell you... Sex had become more important to him than your feelings.
Do you think that... Maybe... You miss your superman? Not the guy he's become? That the reason you can't forget is that you're trying to re-establish your relationship with the boy you remember from long ago?
It's only a guess and I could be wrong. But if I could be right, then what you have to come to terms with is not the loss of him... But the loss of the person you remember. Obviously he's changed a lot... And I'm not saying that anyone here could really blame him for that... There's no telling what he's been through in the last nine years.
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i think you're right, thanks
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