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Oh its fine hun,ill tell you.
I dont trust anyone because well when i was younger and even when i was in middle school i would tell people things and they could never keep their mouth shut even if it was personal things it would really upset me,i mean people that i thought i trusted and could keep a secret told things to people i didnt want them to tell.So i decided that since all the shit that was going on i couldnt stand it anymore so i just stopped telling people things.Like i dont really tell people whats wrong if im having a bad day or if i like someone i wont tell anyone not even my best friend.I guess you could say if you mess up once and i thought i could trust you,you would get no second chance with me and i couldnt trust you anymore.People stab you in the back and thats what i hate expecially people that are really close to you.I could probably say theres only one person outside my family thats the closest to me that i could honestly trust with anything and thats it.If you want my trua you would have to show me in a big way for me to open up to you and tell you things thats are personal.
As for me saying that im not pretty,well i answered this question before but i dont mind answering it again.I have a best friend who basically was miss popularity in school and would get all the guys and have alot of friends and have all the girls being jealous of her.Well i was one of the girls that was jealous of her.I was a little chubby when i was littler like i wasent overweight or anything just a lil chubby.I hated how i looked i knew no one liked me,i didnt have too many friends and i was quite shy to say the least.I would cry almost every night because i hated how i looked and how everyone would look at my friend and not me,it was really hard when my family would say stuff to me about my weight like i wasent hurting enough you know? but i know they were just trying to help and get me healthy.I was just sick and tired of being in my friends shadow and having her getting all the guys that i liked.So about two years ago i started to lose weight because i wasent proud of myself and i lost about 35 pounds overall i weigh around 120 something now.I still hate when people point out something negative about my body and i start to breakdown and lose it it upsets me that much.Thats why i hate when people "think" im a slut or conceited becaue im not even close to being those things i dont with alot of guys as many people think i do and im self-concious about myself.Im still not proud of myself though i mean i still look in the mirror and hate how i look i cant really even look in the mirror anymore.I think being friends with my best friend really took a toll on me.I dont think ill ever really get over what had happened when i was younger it just hurt me soo much.I still cant believe people think im pretty though because honestly i dont see how people could think that at all.But im starting to get better now i think,i have a bit more confidence in myself and im not shy anymore im a loud mouth now lol and the whole thing with being jealous of my friend i dont really care about it now ive moved on,ive learned to just do my own thing.I just wish i could go back in time and change how i was before and not let my friend get to me,but im trying to make up for it now.But thats the sotry of why i dont think im pretty lol
Thank you for reading my bio,i really apprecite it,im happy to know that people actually do read peoples bio it means alot.The questions were good ones to ask.
aw its okay i dont mind typing it again.Im ahppy i could help ; ]
♥ danielle
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