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hey guys..my column has been the same for soooooo long now...so im gunna change it up a bit! any ideas please let me know! anyway..heres the ordinary junk...im kayla, im 14, i like in md close to dc, i go to rhs - home of the rams! yay haha, and i dn i just love helping people!
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Okay. This is what I go through, about once a month, sometimes more/less frequently. I start changing. I really don't know what it is, it's hard to explain. But I'll try.
It feels like my heart is becoming empty. Like I'm becoming hungry, or like I'm enraged, or like I'm in love (they all feel the same to me.) You know, that feeling. In my heart. It feels like something is trying to change me from the inside, like trying to change my personality. My personality is weird. I think differently. I have no mental problems. O__o;;
I'm thinking that maybe my way if thinking is correct and maybe....God....doesn't want me to know whatever it is I know. Anyway. Back to what happens. The first time it happened, at my friends house, I started getting the feeling and for some reason I knew what was happening almost immediately. I started crying and pounding my chest really hard and saying "Don't change....don't change...." And I was grabbing anything to pound my heart with, I almost went for the silverware ;_;
My friend was really concerned xD I don't think she had any clue what was happening.
The second time, just recently, this happened again, only it wasn't as strong. I have gotten rather good at fighting it. But then it felt like there was a pressure in my head...like something was gently squeezing it.
This isn't puberty. This is something weird happening to me and if it has happened to anyone else I would like to know. I would also like to add that I am not insane. This is a FEELING, not a twisted thought or action. My apologies for the length of this question.
i dont really understand what you mean...but i can try to help. maybe its just a massive mood swing? you might wanna see a shrink though before it goes too far, because thats deffinitly not normal. tell the shrink what you told us and see if she can help you! sorry if my answer sucked lol but i did the best i could from what i understood! x0x0x
(Rating: 4) Don't worry, nobody's gonna die here, I have very good self control (as I said, I've learned to fight it) :)