Q: Let me start of by saying: I would not be asking this if I didnt already feel bad && want to change this. SO please, don't preach.
Down right to the point?
I stole my friend's new 300 dollar digital camera. (reminder: I know it was wrong, no lecturing)
While doing it, i KNEW it was wrong.
When she noticed it was gone, she cried.
It broke my heart.
I know God forgives, but my gut tells me..he won't.
I don't know, I want to send it back to her.
I think I will, as soon as I get her adress.
i CAN'T APOLOGIZE THOUGH. I CANT TELL HER.
I don't even know why I did it.
I love her. Im not jealous of her.
I don't need a digitial camera.
I don't want one.
But I did it anyway.
Just because I knew I could.
I knew I wouldn't get caught.
I'm evil. I'm a really bad person, I know.
Yet, I can't change it.
Here's where I need help.
- appologizing to God for this.
HOW? I knew it was wrong while doing it, I knew the devil was pushing me and God was telling me not to, yet I listened to the devil.
It's happened before. I never learn.
I'll always do the wrong thing.
So what? he's just going to keep forgiving me?
- how do I stop this
any ideas?
- this feeling
even if I give it back, I'll never forget what I did. seeing her cry. knowing how much it meant to her yet still taking it. how can i forgive myself for it? what should I do? I know myself very well. I wont change, I'll do it again. And I wont let myself forget it. I know I'll always feel bad because of this.
AHHH GOSSSHH just help me please, I feel awful.
what should I do? with everything?
this feeling is sick.
I want to die.