Mercy_x_Me's advice column

Ok. Please, if you are in any way, shape, or form, involved with whether or not people are hot, do not answer this. Also do not answer if you have never felt a true love, because it's so impossible to describe, I'm not even going to try.

Ok, so there's this girl who I loved. A lot. She knew how much she meant to me. I kept on thinking about her. So yesterday I decided to ask her out. I've never asked anyone else out. Except I couldn't bring myself to ask her out on the phone or in person, and I couldn't think of any sweet, special way to ask her like they did in Bye Bye Birdie. So I e-mailed her. She said no for two reasons: number one, she's not sure if she really likes me or not. She doesn't not like me, she's not sure. Allegedly. Second of all, she had a big fight with this other girl (I didn't get all the details, but apparently it was because of a poem...?), and now that girl is really pissed off at her and will do anything to get revenge. So she doesn't want to get me hurt. Because she could never live it down, letting me get hurt. She said that (I quote) "even if they are all bitches and sluts, insults hurt." Sticks and stones, man. Sticks and stones.

Ok, now I'm practically crying. Seriously. Love is like a swirling pink mist of joy and happiness, where nothing could ever go wrong. The pink mist is easily corrupted, but everyone inside it is blind to that and has no idea. So while I was in it, someone slabbed paint all over it. Now I'm trapped within a swirling black torrent of misery and depression, with no way out. When I'm in the torrent, I have no reason for anything. I used to be the biggest joker in all of my classes. Now that I don't know love anymore, I have no reason to smile, to laugh, to joke around, to live. Why bother?

Rerereading the letter, I notice that it says at the end of the second reason that she changed her mind about #1, and she does like me, but she just can't go out with me until she's solved that thing with the other girl. So I'm feeling a tad better. (heheh. tad is a fun word.) But if you recall, I said that the torrent has no way out, meaning that even if I could get out, there would still be the black paint all over me. I'm still depressed. I managed to poke fun at the word "tad" like I do with ten thousand words a day, but I'm even too depressed to sing along with the song "The Telephone Hour" in Bye Bye Birdie, even the part where the guys are like "ooah. aooh. doobidy doobidy doo." I love that part, but I'm just way too sad. I really don't know what to do. I really shouldn't be sad anymore, I mean really. I found out that she does like me after all, why am I still crying? I haven't smiled all morning, usually I go downstairs, answer a few questions, spend about an hour playing Age of Mythology, watch All Your Base fifty times, eat breakfast, watch mindless cartoons, and then go around cracking jokes everywhere. I can't do any of that. I'm too depressed. Like yesterday after I first read the letter. I was kind of depressed but not much, so then I went outside with a friend (at 8:30 at night) and we played some Horse. First round I won. Second round, I barely lost. Third round... HORSE to nothing. I lost bigtime. And by the time I got into my bed, I was crying again. It's growing on me over time... like a Tribble. Ok, I'm making too many analogies, I'll just cut to the chase. How the hell do I get over it???

Well, to be honest, you did shoot down a LOT of options in this situation. But I guess I can try my best. Maybe ... you should write down your feelings. Every single day, in a notebook or something. It might help. You can write it in a poem, (and you are good with your words, journal entry, 'letters' you'll probably never give to this girl... but it will help. And how to lay it on the parents? Just tell them "Hey, theres this girl i kinda like" or something like that! Even though it doesn't fully describe your feelings, they don't need the lovey dovey details. And how to get back to your normal self? Know that all your moping will never get her sooner! It will only make it harder, and you'll be dependant on her every move. Waiting for answers. TIME... will be your antidote. As time passes, our emotions pass with it. Hence the quote "Time heals all wounds". It is very true. I don't know if I've ever been so in love as you have, but I can say this... whenever I felt a deep emotion that would not go away... no matter how unfathomable it did. Humans don't hold onto the same emotions for long, and if we do, it becomes lesser and lesser everyday. Love...is about the only thing that should and can survive time. But... you sulking all the time is not a part of the love. It's a result of what you feel because of love. You could do without it... it's not bad. She wants to be with you and should eventually. If you can somehow talk to her again... tell her you don't care if this other girl 'slaughtered' you... that you just want to be with her, and you could keep it secret for a while, if you have to. This random girl should NOT control somebody elses life. It's just not fair. That other girl can go die... no one wants the teenage BS drama splurging from the likes of people like her. You will not... be 30 or 40 and single... it is VERY uncommon. And it happens to people who just can't settle down, and those who are unfaithful to their significant other. You sound like niether. And don't worry about the future just yet... only worry when there's sense to worry. I hope you return back to your usual...and if only one sentence in all my advice helps you out right now, I'll feel good even to just help a little bit. The situation is tricky, and nothing is so easily done. It may turn out that there's nothing to do... and it's just another tidal wave life is sending that your forced to ride. Good Luck!