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How do I get my life back on track? I feel helpless.
So basically I'm 18, almost 19, years old and I've already pretty much completely fucked up my life. I had a very good paying part time job for about 3 months but I just stopped showing up because my anxiety was so bad. And I got suspended from my college for 6 months because my GPA wasn't high enough and Ive managed to keep this all from everyone in my life up until today when school started and my dad found out i wasn't registered. He basically told me I either register for school, get a full time job, or move out. I've also been dealing with depression and anxiety for my whole life along with an eating disorder. And just at the beginning of my first year of college my grandfather passed away, whom i was very close with. Dealing with my grandfather dying along with starting my first year of college with depression and anxiety was the hardest thing I've ever had to go through. I know this is very confusing but I feel so helpless. My family hates me for what happened with school and I've managed to distance myself from all my friends because of my severe depression and anxiety. And now all I have left is my boyfriend who is amazing but I've been lying to him about school because Im too embarrassed to tell him the truth because he's so smart and it makes me feel like an idiot. I just need a lot of help because I'm starting to have suicidal thoughts. How do I make all of this right? Where do I start? I don't even know how to ask for help
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You haven't fucked up your life and all isn't over. You are 19-years-old whether you can see it or not your life is just beginning. College right now may not be the right place but in the future no doubt you can go back if you are honest with the program coordinator that mental health problems torpedoed you and you didn't feel safe admitting it. They may reverse the suspension and reinstate you when well.
Your family doesn't hate you. They just don't understand what is going on or that you have a severe mental illness and need help. Once they see or learn this truth you will see that they'll understand about college and want to help you.
Reconnect with those friends and tell them that you have had to push a lot of people and things aside because of a medical issue involving depression and severe anxiety.
If you feel suicidal that's no laughing matter you have to get help. You may not like this idea very much but visit an emergency room and tell the truth about your depression and anxiety and thoughts of death.
What they will do is give you a room and a chance to rest in a safe place where you can have visitors while they figure out your depression, anxiety and how to treat it correctly. If you follow that and treatment your life can turn around for the better on a dime.
Don't give up on yourself you will likely have a great future once you deal with the elephant in the room. Have the psychiatrist deal with your parents for you and your living situation and how this pressure on you is doing you no good at all health wise. If they see the error things will get better. I would go to a hospital and get it sorted out.
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Your life is so much more than this! I am so sorry you are going through this.
Everyone makes mistakes and goes through these things.
Have you talked to your parents about everything you are feeling?
If you feel you can talk to them you should share this with them.
Maybe you can try getting some therapy. Talking about things help.
As far as school. I dont recommend it until you have a handle on your depression and anxiety. A doctor can prescribe you pills that may help and if not try doing something that you love. Take some walks and appreciate the world around you.
There is so much pressure at your age to do everything "right" and in the correct order. PLEASE get that out of your head!
Find a job and start working...things will start to come together and you will be able to make some decisions going forward about what you want to do career wise of if you want to go back to school.
You could even go back to school part time and work part time if you feel that its too much for you.
Dont limit yourself with the plan that your parents set for you.
this doesnt work for everyone!
It didnt work for me either and I am doing great :)
your parents may not understand and you should expect that. Thats why its important for you to get your mind right.
you can do this!! and its ok if plan A didnt work out. It doesn't mean your life is ruined.. you are just figuring things out which is totally normal especially at your age!
Good luck and stay positive !!! xx
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First, your not an idiot. You have a problem that can be corrected with the right type of help. If your parents have health insurance you are still covered under their health insurance as a student or should be as you can't be dropped until the next enrolment period or you have your own insurance through your own employer.
Your family doesn't hate you that is the depression talking I know for certain. As for your boyfriend tell him the truth, if he truly loves you he will support you and you need his support.
I want to first address the suicidal thoughts as this is most important. IF you are having these thought NOW stop reading and call 911. This is exactly the reason 911 is there to help people with this type of an emergency. Help will be sent to you. You will be taken to a hospital emergency room where you will be properly evaluated for depression and if needed given medication. You will also be advised to seek the help of a psychologist for talk therapy to deal with all the anxiety and stressors causing the depression.
I know how depression hurts as I too have suffered from it and I am know in recovery. Because of talk therapy I now know what the triggers are for my depression and know how to deal with them in a positive way. Yes I took medication for a while. No it did not make me all goofy feeling.
The medication is prescribed by a psychiatrist. Why because a Board Certified Psychiatrist is the best medical doctor to prescribe for depression. Depression of the type I believe you suffer from is like mine caused by a lack of hormones secreted in the brain. Because of this the psychiatrist is the better doctor to prescribe medication.
Besides calling 911 if you are feeling suicidal there are some life lines you can call for help as well.
The National Suicide Prevention No matter what problems you are dealing with, they want to help you find a reason to keep living. By calling 1-800-273-TALK (8255) you'll be connected to a skilled, trained counselor at a crisis center in your area, anytime 24/7.
Suicide Prevention center - Hotlines:
(937)-229-7777
1(800)320-HELP (4357)
Kids Help Phone 1-800-668-6868
What is
Kids Help Phone?
• Phone counseling
• For ages 20 & under
• Free, 24/7
• Anonymous & Confidential
• Non-judgmental
The KHP Promise
Anonymous means you don't have to tell us who you are.
Confidential means whatever you tell us is safe.
All the hot lines off anonymous confidential help. Call one or call 911. Suicide is never the answer it is the wrong solution to any problem.
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