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Don't know if I should go...
I'm in high school and in June there's going to be a graduation dinner. At first I was looking forward to going but now I'm not so sure because the kids in my grade had to vote for stuff like "most likely to be successful", "most funniest", "class clown", etc and I got voted most quiet for the girls section. A lot of people put my name down, even those that don't even know me, so I think that I might be the one to win it. It's not like I purposely try to be quiet, it's because I have very low self esteem and now that they put my name down, I feel like it just made my self esteem worse. Being "most quiet" isn't even something to be proud about or get an award for. Why would they even have that category. I never even wanted to win, and plus there's other people that are quiet that they could have put down but of course it's always me. This happened yesterday and I was starting to get over it but then today one of my friends told me that she heard what "people were doing to me" and that it's "messed up". That just made me feel even more stupid and pathetic. One of my friends put my name down for "most adorable" and she told her friends to do it and not to put me for "most quiet". So doesn't that mean everyone sees "most quiet" as a bad thing. Atleast that friend didn't put my name down for it, even my best friend didn't say anything even though she knew about it. It's not like I never talk, I do talk to people and ask questions if I don't understand something or need help with something and I'm always nice to everyone. At the dinner that's where they give out awards for attendance and high exam grades and I wanted to be there for those, but when they announce the winner for most quiet its gonna be so embarrassing and just ruin the whole celebration for me. I don't think I'm going to be attending, I don't know what to say when my mom asks me why i don't wanna go. She already gave me the money to pay for it.
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Short and easy, go and embrace it if you win!! There is nothing wrong with being quiet, and if you win you can have some fun with it, like if someone congratulates you say "shh". Go you will have fun
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Being voted the most quiet is not really a bad thing. It is how you perceive it that is bad. As I say in answers to certain question; perception is real even if it is wrong in how you perceive it, therefore perception is everything.
Being the quiet one in the crowd is not always a bad thing. You’re not the one the teachers looks at when there is trouble, they look at the loud mouth trouble makes not you. Being quiet can also be seen as someone who is a thinker; someone who thinks before they act. There is nothing wrong with being a thinker.
If you can change your perception of what you believe being the quiet one to be then there is nothing to be embarrassed about. If those who are voting for you are doing so to see you cry at the dinner and you don't. That you accept the award with grace and honor then the joke will be on them and they will be the ones hurt. This to me is the best way to get back at them for as I am saying there is nothing wrong with being the quiet one especially given the fact that you also get good grades and could be a candidate for awards in those categories as well.
My suggestion: Go to the dinner. Try to change your perception of what being quiet means and if you should win the award accept it with grace and honor.
As to your self-esteem problems. I use to have that problem until I adopted the following motto. "The only person I have to be better than is the person I am today." What this meant to me is; whatever I am today, whoever I am today I must be better than this tomorrow. To do this I had to do or learn something I didn't do or know today. This motto has done well for me and allowed me to have a career in a field where a low self-esteem would not have allowed me to thrive and earn a good living for my wife and family. Having a low self-esteem is also a perception. It is how you see yourself.
There is another saying that goes along with my motto. There are people who plan to fail and people whose plans fail." There is nothing wrong with having a plan that fails at least you tried and hopefully learned something from what failed. If you plan on failing then you gain nothing and this is what happens when you have a low self-esteem.
Make a plan and follow it. If along the way something doesn't work. It doesn't mean you planned to fail, your plan failed at that point. You pick yourself up. Learn why your plan failed and move forward adjusting your plan as needed.
If you learn to do this your self-esteem will improve and you will be much happier.
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This is an event that comes only once in your life time so I think its a good idea to go.
Now about what they have voted you for...there's nothing wrong with being labeled Most Quiet.
There are personality types that are naturally quiet. So I don't see that as a negative label. Now if there was a label for "Lowest Self Esteem" and you were chosen, I can see not going. But thankfully, that was never a voting option.
If you gracefully accept the title at the dinner, no one will think badly. What could be fun is to plan to do a little something to make them wonder. I don't know if they just announce while everyone remains seated or call you up on stage or something but if when you are announced as most quiet person, it would be funny and a personal challenge for you to stand up and immediately yell out, "Thank you Everybody for voting me the most quiet." while you are being something other than quiet at the moment. If you face your fears dear, you will find that the fear goes away. I was quiet as a teen too but during my Sr. year decided I didn't like being so shy. So I took steps to face my fears little by little and found it wasn't as scary as I thought. I am thinking it's possible from how you described yourself that its more about being a shy person rather than you having a low self esteem. Hope this gives you more to think about before making a final decision. If you decide to go, I'd like to hear from you how it went. Good luck!
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