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Working on my novels and poetry.... On my depression medication.
Okay, so I want to be a writer.
I have severe chronic depression... I have several medications for different issues (none of which I take...) but lately I've been getting really bad... So I guess I have to at least go back on one of my medications....
The problem is I FEEL so different on them... No one else can tell, but I can and I hate it. It's worse when I try to write, it's like the pills erase my creativity and my emotions which fuel my work.
So I need help, because I may have my boyfriend make me take my medication daily (because I'm obviously not doing it by myself) so what my issue is is I need help being able to do the only thing I actually feel passionate about, and care about doing, while the pills I have to take restrict my ability to do them...
Please help!! I don't want to choose between my writing and feeling okay... Because I'll probably choose my writing..
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Taking medication sucks !! But think about it are you calmer when you have them in your system and its gonna take time for your body to get uset it ! It's not easy but your boyfriend can help and be your support system :) hope this helps in a way
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I also suffer depression
Trust me, Take your medication. If this one doesn't seem to work then talk to your doctor about another Med that will.
All to many times we cannot see the positive change medication can do to us. Also, many people on medication often find excuses to why they can't or so bot need their medication.
I have been for years making up excuses for myself and other people. As I got older and responsibilities became an everyday part of my life, I learned in order to live my life to the fullest I need to faithfully take medication.
I also have been writing for 18 years. I find when I am off my medication I show limited patience, my attention is tops 3 seconds and I find myself to think constantly. Please rake the meds, Its not worth it.
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Take your medication, talk to your doctor about any side affects you might experience including a lack of focus or a shortened attention span, and stop setting up false choices.
What you need to do is bite the bullet, get over the fact that change is scary, take your damn meds, and learn how to write while mentally healthy.
You don't have to choose between your writing and feeling okay. That's bullshit. I know its bullshit, I've been there. I whined and bitched that taking my medication meant I couldn't write, I couldn't make music, and I couldn't focus. And I couldn't do those things in exactly the same way as I did while I was mentally ill. I had to learn how to work again.
But after I started to take my medication regularly and correctly, I was able to do it better than before and with a lot less pointless suffering.
Creating isn't about the artist suffering. You don't need to be in pain to write well. The tortured artist is a nonsensical stereotype.
Performing any art well is about taking your craft seriously and doing the work to get good at it. You'll be better able to do that work (and any other kind of work, skill or task you'd like to do) when you are mentally healthy.
A mentally ill person will always have some reason to not bother to get healthy. It's too much work. It doesn't feel right. Their illness makes them smarter/more creative. It's all bullshit excuses. Ways for the mental illness to protect itself. Ways to stay sick because staying sick is way easier and less frightening than trying to get better.
So take your medication. If something isn't working, go to your doctor, or to a different doctor, and get more advice.
Accept that there will be a time of transitioning and learning. You won't wake up tomorrow feeling fine, and you won't wake up tomorrow feeling exactly the same either. Life is a long game. You need to get healthy to invest in what you will write five years from now, or twenty years from now.
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Having suffered from clinical depression I think I am slightly qualified to talk to you a little bit about how you are feeling.
Usually for depression the doctors will prescribe an anti depressive medication. They are generally a synthetic replacement for a hormone that is missing or you need more of to help you through your depressive episode. That and therapy with a psychologist is usually all that is needed.
Whit chronic depression besides antidepressants a doctor may add other medications. It are these medications that are making you feel strange. The dosage on these medications could be wrong or they could be the wrong medication for you.
Are you seeing a Board Certified Psychiatrist? IF not you need to find one as a Board Certified Psychiatrist is the best doctor to treat you. If the doctor changes your medication you need to tell him/or her how it is effecting you and how it is making you feel. Medicine is not an exact science, doctors chose medication they know to work for the majority of patients suffering as you are. Nut they will change a medication or medications until the y find the right combination for you.
Being off your medications may make you feel more normal but you are still depressed and to be chronically depressed is dangerous in many different ways. Not only from your own safety but for you financial well being as well for when you go on a high.
You also need to continue with your talk therapy or start talk therapy if you have never had any. The psychologist in therapy will help you deal with the issues you may have with how you are felling while on the medications.
Like I said I suffered clinical depression ans still went through three different medications before one was found that worked well and allowed me to feel more confident and normal. That and talk therapy to find the cause of my depression and work out of my depression.
I realize your depression is chronic or manic and is different than mine. You need to take the medications for your own best interest and safety. You may even have to change doctors to find one you are comfortable with, I did that too. It was my second psychiatrist that found the right medication for me.
Please take your medications and go see your doctor for help on getting the dosages or medications that are right for you.
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Hello there!
You can actually write about THIS! about this issue about the creative and the plain you on meds... that would be a good book!
anyway.. you MIGHT want to ask your doctor why you feel different on the meds.. there are a whole lot of different brands out there, might be better for you.
keep on writing.. and even add drawings and also dont let the meds stop your creativity.
it will always be inside of you, whether you got meds or not!
this is actually a good topic to start your writing on!
GOOD LUCK!
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