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Suicide
I have been suicidal since I was 13yrs and now i'm 30 and still suicidal. my mom got married and went to live with her husband and they had kids.i was left under the care of my gran and aunts who pretended to love me.i'm now working and have been diagnosed with endometriosis. i wanted to have a family but seemingly i cant find the right guy and my family doesnt give a damn about me and i cant even have children.i'm so tired of being hopeful and trying new relationships and its always the same results,those ppl eventually leave me. i've read all the selfhelp books one can think of and the bible, asked Gid for help but things always go wrong for me.i'm not happy at work,i cant study anymore. i feel like ending it all right now.i've hopeful and optimistic for a long time now, so i need a quick amd easy way to kill myself and make the death look so natural, so that my insurances can payout.
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There is a lot going on here. The best thing for you is to see a qualified therapist. Nobody here is going to give you a magic bullet solution for the mixture of emotions you feel. A therapist can help you talk it all out and lend you some constructive perspective on it.
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First no one on this site will offer you any help in trying to kill yourself. What we will do is offer you love and support to get help and through whatever is currently bothering you.
The one thing I do not see in what you have written is that you have not asked for or have been given any professional help. With the right kind of help the depression you are feeling, depression being the major cause of suicidal feelings, can be dealt with and you made to feel better. This I know for a fact for like you I have dealt with depression most of my life.
There are a number of ways to seek help. Lets start with: National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-TALK (8255):This is a 24/7 365 day hotline answered by a team of trained volunteers who can direct you to one of their 150 crisis center, or professional help within your home area.
You don't want to talk to anyone at this time, but do need help not hurting yourself, call 911 and just tell the call taker you are depressed and thinking of hurting yourself. They will send help to care for you and take you to the emergency room. Don't worry about cost, if you health insurance doesn't cover there ara programs that will. Your well being comes first, how the bill is going to be payed is far down on the list.
If you can get yourself to the hospital emergency room then do so. Professional help can make a difference. I'm living proof of that. When I finally received the right kind of help the world took on a whole new prospective for me and it will for you as well.
You feel as if no one cares. What about us, we care. We have taken the time to write to you and ask you to give life another chance. All you need to do is ask for help, the right kind of help. Please either call the national hotline or go to the hospital emergency room. Do not give up on life. The world is a better place with you in it. That I promise you.
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hello,
you mentioned earlier that you started being suicidal at age 13, and now you are at age 30. and that fact simply states that you endured 17 years of being depressed, you moved on 17 years searching for new hope.i think that you are one of the strongest people i have ever heard of. as a child, i also came from a family like yours. i grew up with my grandparents.but i know that my family loves me, and i know your family loves you too. everytime you feel down and you feel like you're about to crumble think about all the people that you have left an impact on. and always remember that you are loved. maybe you dont know it but you are. hope only disappears when you stop looking for it. you have a long , happy life ahead of you. dont end it now.
hope this helps :)
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'Hi, there is no reason what's so ever, to kill yourself. over that, remember not to harm yourself. dont even kill yourself, because if you tried talking to a counceller or a helpline? they could help you. of course your mum loves you, she just wanted a man to hold. as you do, just keep finding him, you might just find him one day. keep searching though! and even adopt a child? if you cant have one. hope it helps! x
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