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Strange feelings about killing myself
18/male
Lately I've been thinking alot about just killing myself. Also i have always been a very emotionally detached perosn and Im not depressed or anything. furthermore, I have asked some very trusted people who assured me I dont act or sound depressed. Even so, I keep getting that feeling of just saying fuck it and killing myself. lately I have been partying alot more than I used to and my life probably has never been better, but I just keep feeling like i should just end it. any reason after 18 and half years of little or no emotion, i might be feeling like this now?
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Hey there, you must be feeling frustrated and just about to give up on everything but my advice to you is to keep strong and fight this great obstacle that is stopping you from enjoying life to the fullest.
Ask yourself questions bro, take the time to sit down ALONE... just you and your thoughts... analyze your life by asking yourself questions such as: What happened to me in my past or what is happening in my present life that is maybe triggering these negative thoughts? do you have someone who you can truly trust and sit down or just talk to about the things that might be bothering you in life?
You are missing something bro, and you need to figure this out! take your time to really truly think about things and find the answer that will help you enjoy the amazing things life has to offer.
DO NOT whatsoever give up no matter how difficult and confuding life might be right now. I can help you bro, we can do this together... I am here for you if you need to talk and I will always give you the best of my advice that comes from my heart... I won't just say to pick up the phone and dial 911 which in a serious case you should do ( if you feel that you REALLY can't handle it anymore on your own) but I know you have it in you to be the happiest you can be... just take a deep breath and try to find the thing or things that you might be missing in your life right now... you said you have been an emotionally detached person... ask yourself WHY? and how can you slowly improve this... I know you might not seem depressed or sad to other because like you said... you have been partying like crazy! ha! lol but people just can't see how others feel in the inside... like I said, take your time to figure out the reasons behind your emotions and hopefully this will make things more clear for you... if you already know and you trust me enough to tell me why... leave me a message on here or E-mail me and I can further help you understand your troubled thoughts. I am not going anywhere bro, I am here just help me so I can help you... looking forward to hearing from you... take it easy and I wish you the best.
-atruefriend7
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I am a great deal older than most of the advisers on this site, so my advice will be somewhat different from what you have received and may continue to receive from others.
Statically one in three people suffer from some form of Depression. I myself suffer from clinical depression. This is a form of depression where my body does not produce the hormone Serotonin. If you were to ask anyone who knows they could not say if I was suffering from depression and were shocked when I told them.
Suicidal Ideation in itself is a symptom of depression. You say life is never better, but, you still have these feelings. This too is a symptom of still another form of depression. It is unfortunate that many teenagers suffer from depression that goes undiagnosed. Some parents see these as symptoms of the hormones brought on by puberty; or they look at this as a phase you will grow out of.
I believe a reason for so much teenage depression today, not that it is just diagnosed more; it is the world that today’s teenager must exist in. Never before has so much been thrust upon the shoulders of our children, at home, in school and even in their social circles. Then just for good measure pile on the pressure of getting into a good College. If you are suffering from some form of depression you have every right to be.
My advice: If you are having suicidal thoughts pick up the phone and dial 911. Tell the call taker what is happening and what you are thinking. You will be asked to stay on the phone with them. Do as they ask. While you are on the phone the appropriate help will be dispatched to where ever you are. This help will be in the form of Fire Rescue service which would include the closest fire truck a Paramedic Ambulance and or a Basic Life Support Ambulance and probably the Police. The Police are dispatched to help you. They are not there to hurt you in any way. They are there to make sure everyone is safe and to secure any weapons you might have. How do I know this? I am one of the responders as I am part of a fire department Rescue Squad.
If you are not at this time feeling suicidal then call your doctor and arrange to be screened for depression. Do not have a family doctor then go to your local hospitals emergency room. Cannot afford to see a doctor do not worry about that. Your local emergency room will see you without charge.
The most important thing you must do is arrange to see a doctor. Talk to your parents if available. If not arrange to see a doctor ASAP either by appointment or calling 911.
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Several people that are closely connected to my life have had similar thoughts as yours. You may just feel that your future may not get any better. This is not true unless you do something about it. You have the power to change how you feel. Yes, it may take alot of effort and hard work, but after all, it's worth it. Think about the people that care about you. Think about the people that may be feeling just as you. What can you do, to pull some good out of the bad?
Also, just to keep your mind at ease, you should try focusing your thoughts and energies on a hobby of some sort. Something that you can do to freely express all that you're feeling inside. Try various activities until you find something that is right for you, something you can look foward to.
I hope my advice helps You in some way :)
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I know that you say that you're not deppressed and that youve asked some people and they say you don't act like it. But I think that it would be a good idea to look at this link just to make sure:
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Now, about the suicidal thoughts, You may just be having some problems in your life that seem to have no end. The only thing you can figure out to stop the pain is to kill yourself. But killing yourself is something permanent, that you can NOT undo and, believe it or not, the problems you may be having are only temporary. I promise:)
And just remember that your thoughts do not have to become anything more. You do not need to act upon what is in your head.
I had an ex boyfriend who is a very quiet person who doesn't really share much of anything. A few months ago he started to, in his own words, "just not care anymore" It hurt to hear him say things like that. He also believed that life would either not change or actually get better for his family and friends if he killed himself. The only way we got through to him was showing him that we cared ( and making an ametuer video about how life would totally be suckier w/o him there :p lol, there was alot of laughing and crying.). He's fine now and has been going to college for a year now.
So, all I'm trying to say is that there is someone who would care if you die and it would hurt them. Think about that next time youre feeling that way and reach out to them. They will listen, I'm sure.
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it happens. you're 18, so you're still a teenager, which means you still have hormones that can cause said thoughts. you may not be depressed, but you may just be sick of life in general. your subconscience is probably trying to tell you that maybe this is as good as it gets, so there's no point. maybe you know it'll get tougher as you get older and these are the few years you have left of a really fun-filled life. a lot of people know that after you pass a certain age, life just starts sucking major ass. teengers think that life sucks then they're 13, and then most come to the realization that things can be so much worse, and they'll get like that.
i'm no professional, so i can't give you any real advice. try to go see a doctor and ask them. they can tell you what you need to know, and they can help. sorry thats a cliche response, but its what i got.
get to feeling better
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