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i really just handle life any more
it's just too hard. i've wanted to kill myself for ages. i mean i remember standing in front of the mirror when i was seven and think how nice it would be if i was dead. this can't be normal. and aside from the fact that i am totally screwed up, i have no friends, no talent, no family. there is no one who loves me, and yes, i am sure of this, BELIEVE ME. see as well as being depressed, i have this thing. it's a form of escapsism, really. i basically pretend to live in a different life, soemtimes it a futrue i hope that i could have had if i didn't kill my self. but then it like reality hits and it all comes crashing down. i know it not healthy, but can't i just live in my world? at least im happy there. i know i have to face reality, and postphoning my inevitable suicide, is pointless, but i just like it there. it makes me think that im normal, though, obviously im not. im not on here, because, 'obviously im just crying out for attention, and i don't really want to kill my self', so don't bother with that crap, i know, i've given advice to people as well okay. and don't say that someone must love me, or there's soemthing i must look forward to. even my fasasies are way too exetreme to be possible. the advice i want is simple,( and answer honestly, because either way, i WILL DIE, so deal with it): should i fantasise more and commit suicide, just a tiny bit more happier, or should i just kill my self, and spare myself any more pain? please, don't be stupid or naiive about this. i don't care about god. i don't care about the right to live, i don't care about thereapy. i just came on here for some advice. and if you do try and give me some crap rather than answer it, then thanks a lot. you should just let me suffer by myself, rather than mislead me. it not like im not trying hard enough to get by as it is, okay?
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Wow this really hurt me as I read this, because I could completely relate. A couple of years ago I felt the same way a about life and living. I also contemplated suicide a few times. My advice is, live. Continue to live. I'm not here to promise that there is suddenly going to be some light at the end of the tunnel or your whole life will turn around and everyone will suddenly begin to care. However, if you think realistically life is a journey and you never know what's coming next. As you read that you may be thinking, "Yes I do. Just more pain and suffering." As I said, I don't know what's coming next. So I can't say, "No, you're wrong." but I can say, "How can you be so sure?" Everyday is another opportunity to turn your life around or for your life to turn around. How can that happen if you no longer have a life? I say that you keep living on because of the uncertainty of tomorrow. If tomorrow comes and it's bad or painful, then live for the uncertainty of the next day, and so on. You also mentioned that you had no one that loved you. I know this might sound like the stupidest, cheesiest thing in the whole world, and you may not believe it at all, but I can sincerely and truly say from the bottom of my heart that "I love you." I may seem crazy or as if I'm just trying to keep you from killing your self, but I'm not. I truly love you. I may not know you, your circumstances or exactly what you're going through, but I love you. I hope you have a wonderful day tomorrow or if you are reading this in the morning, today. If you don't just remember that tomorrow brings a chance for anything and everything to change. If you would like to talk with me my emails are flyfunpixie@aol.com, Whoops830@hotmail.com, and suger_strawberry_shortcake@yahoo.com. I hope you do reach out to me because I would love to be your friend.
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I don't agree with people who say that everyone has some sort of contractual duty to be alive if they're not happy. That said, I cannot in good conscience advise you to take your own life without knowing very much, if anything, about you. If you're going to hang on for a little longer, will you at least talk to me? I'm not trying to trick you into psychotherapy or anything -- I'm a physics student and really have no interest in psychology -- but I just feel like someone should know you or and least know what you've gone through. After that, I know you can make your own decisions.
If you want to, email me. AdAeterna@gmail.com
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I've been through that. I'm 15 now. I've been trying to deal with that since I was like 11 or 12. I'm a cutter. And it got to the point where I did almost kill myself. Trust me, there is something worth living for. So you think no one cares about you? I don't know how old you are, but if no one loves you now then there will be people in the future. I mean, there is something because alot of people who have gone through the same thing as you and made it, have something.
There is a reason for everything that your going through. I mean, in the future you might meet somebody who needs your help with something similar. You can tell them your story how you made it and save a life.
I've been through crap, so have alot of other people. You know that. You know someone people didn't even try and just let it all go. Then others who proved themselves strong made it and are happy about that.
I have depression. You should talk to someone, even if you don't want to. When I had to, which wasn't too long ago, it felt horrible. I didn't want to tell some person my life story and think they can help me. But in the end, I think it helped. I'm not as bad as I was.
Just push yourself. Think about the future. I daydream all the time. So think about how you will be loved. College, how you'll make something of yourself and when you get married. Someone will love you then. Good luck!
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id fantasize. mine as well enjoy yourself before you go. and most people have some form of escapism. its called day dreaming.
you should really get some medication though. happy pills, something. there is something wrong with you and its called depression. alot of people have it, and its treatable.
good luck with this. and good bye if you decided to leave us. i hope your last thought is at least a happy one.
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Im glad you have decided to think about killing yourself tomorrow and not today? giving yourself the opportunity to find a solution is the greatest hope you have given yourself, know this that you are a champion but you need to believe it to be it..life is hard but compare to what?!! I can understand why you feel so low but giving yourself the opportunity to solve your problem is in my opinion something to admire. We have always admirerd the greatest minds for the incredible impact in their problem solving skills. You might fantizise about death and you never know maybe your area of expertise could be in death, forensic scientist, Coroner, Mortician, embalmer there are so many talents that even though you may have not yet realized but they are in you, you just need to learn how to bring them out as safely as possible. If you truly are ready to give up and not deal with a life that many would love to live then no matter what anyone here says will impact you. Your god may have failed you but who was your god? was it you yourself that thought you could accomplish it all? whas is your family? your looks that failed you? or has it been that you never had a god and never gave God the opportunity? Im not encouraging religion because that wont save you, but what is it that you beleive? In life you will never be able to control anything... friends, family, money hell even sex but you can control one thing and that is your Attitude and if your attide is to beleive that you are not a winner then you are that.. not a winner but if your attitude is to know that you cant win everything but that you will win then you have just turned everythign around. You are a Champion..now start living like one.
I hope this helps
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