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Hi. im 16. going to be a 10th grader. i dont know why, im just so depressed. there are always bad things happening around me.
when i was little i had a best freind, whos parents were freinds of my parents. we knew each other since birth, and we ended up liking each other and stuff. i dont know. but something happend to him, and he totally changed (we are thinking he was maybe raped or something.) anyways, i lost him as a friend in about ... 5th grade. that was the major begining of my depression. his parents then divorced (his dad is mental) a couple years ago and well now, his mom, who i feel like shes my aunt, is gunna die in 4 months of cancer. and my old freind (who i havent talked to in 3 years) is going to prolly go live with his mental dad who he hates..
then in 7th grade i finally got a bf. we were together almost 2 years, and then we had some issues, and he ended up being upset that we never did much, so he went behind my back texting girls (including my cousin) very inappropriate texts and everything. he broke up with me after i found out. that was DEVASTATING. it took me forever to get over that, and i still really havent. he says he still loves me and he was just fghting with himself and stuff. i dont know im not going back to him because he will hurt me again.
i now have a bf, tho i emailed him a break up (because i dont have his home number and his cell broke) and i like my best freind, who i've known for 4 years, and we are guuna go out. but no one makes me as happy as my bf who i dated for 2 years, or my old childhood friend who was like my brother and more than that.
i dont know if that relly has anything to do with my depression but i feel like theres no happiness in the world and idk why. im prolly not gunna commit suicide or anything, because it would devastate my parents, but i still dont see a reason to live, and i feel like im just here, dead, with no happiness. i try to depend on my friends to help me happy, but i cant because i feel bad that i depend on them, and i feel like i annoy them, tho they say idont. i just dont know what to do. i've lost all reason for life. i like music, but alot of it just depresses me. and it helps me sometimes, but i dont know. i also have a weird feeling of wanting to do drugs to get away from it all, or maybe because i feel like im on them, mindless or something. i know i'd get addicted too, but i dnot even know how to get any, and i'd get in major trouble, because im like... an honor student and stuff. so i dont know...
please help me. i just dont know what to do. and i dont wanna tell my mom that im depresed because she will worry about me,and also, depression runs in my dads side of the family.... so.. yeah.
just please help me (link)
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Hi, I'm the same age as you, in the same grade, and the same gender. Above all that I have had alot of the same problems. I have also had many more than you listed, I'm sure you have too. So if you would like to talk I'm sure we could help each other. My emails are flyfunpixie@aol.com, Whoops830@hotmail.com, and suger_strawberry_shortcake@yahoo.com. I would like to listen to you, talk to you seriously, give you advice, and if you would like, be a friend. Which is why I would like to talk to you via email. I am extending a hand of support out to you, a hand that is worn and used, but even so can be a support system to another. It is your choice whether to accept it or not. I truly hope you do because I would like you as friend.
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it's just too hard. i've wanted to kill myself for ages. i mean i remember standing in front of the mirror when i was seven and think how nice it would be if i was dead. this can't be normal. and aside from the fact that i am totally screwed up, i have no friends, no talent, no family. there is no one who loves me, and yes, i am sure of this, BELIEVE ME. see as well as being depressed, i have this thing. it's a form of escapsism, really. i basically pretend to live in a different life, soemtimes it a futrue i hope that i could have had if i didn't kill my self. but then it like reality hits and it all comes crashing down. i know it not healthy, but can't i just live in my world? at least im happy there. i know i have to face reality, and postphoning my inevitable suicide, is pointless, but i just like it there. it makes me think that im normal, though, obviously im not. im not on here, because, 'obviously im just crying out for attention, and i don't really want to kill my self', so don't bother with that crap, i know, i've given advice to people as well okay. and don't say that someone must love me, or there's soemthing i must look forward to. even my fasasies are way too exetreme to be possible. the advice i want is simple,( and answer honestly, because either way, i WILL DIE, so deal with it): should i fantasise more and commit suicide, just a tiny bit more happier, or should i just kill my self, and spare myself any more pain? please, don't be stupid or naiive about this. i don't care about god. i don't care about the right to live, i don't care about thereapy. i just came on here for some advice. and if you do try and give me some crap rather than answer it, then thanks a lot. you should just let me suffer by myself, rather than mislead me. it not like im not trying hard enough to get by as it is, okay? (link)
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Wow this really hurt me as I read this, because I could completely relate. A couple of years ago I felt the same way a about life and living. I also contemplated suicide a few times. My advice is, live. Continue to live. I'm not here to promise that there is suddenly going to be some light at the end of the tunnel or your whole life will turn around and everyone will suddenly begin to care. However, if you think realistically life is a journey and you never know what's coming next. As you read that you may be thinking, "Yes I do. Just more pain and suffering." As I said, I don't know what's coming next. So I can't say, "No, you're wrong." but I can say, "How can you be so sure?" Everyday is another opportunity to turn your life around or for your life to turn around. How can that happen if you no longer have a life? I say that you keep living on because of the uncertainty of tomorrow. If tomorrow comes and it's bad or painful, then live for the uncertainty of the next day, and so on. You also mentioned that you had no one that loved you. I know this might sound like the stupidest, cheesiest thing in the whole world, and you may not believe it at all, but I can sincerely and truly say from the bottom of my heart that "I love you." I may seem crazy or as if I'm just trying to keep you from killing your self, but I'm not. I truly love you. I may not know you, your circumstances or exactly what you're going through, but I love you. I hope you have a wonderful day tomorrow or if you are reading this in the morning, today. If you don't just remember that tomorrow brings a chance for anything and everything to change. If you would like to talk with me my emails are flyfunpixie@aol.com, Whoops830@hotmail.com, and suger_strawberry_shortcake@yahoo.com. I hope you do reach out to me because I would love to be your friend.
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