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eating disorders
hello. i am struggling very much with a big problem. it's almost like i've lost hope and i don't even know what to do anymore. let me first give you some background information. i use to be a little chubby, not like an obese person... but just a little chubby. about a year ago, i lost a lot of weight. but, to the point where i became anorexic and bullemic. i just became so obsessed. i just wanted to keep losing and losing.... and i just became super obsessed. i ended up weighing like 85 pounds. well, i have gained weight and now i have reached about 100 pounds. but, through my recovery i did a lot of binge eating... because of all the things my body was lacking. but, it's like, lately, i can't stop. and i don't want to get any fatter, because i'm really short. i'm like 5 feet. but, the thing is like, i have no self-control. i use to have so much self control and never ate anything i wanted. and now, it's like i have no self control. i really want to stop.... and i just can't. it's like when i feel like i've wasted my diet... i just want to eat a balanced meal every day. and i'ts just so hard, because i've lost conception of what is normal. and it's like one day i overeat and then the next day i don't eat at all, or at least barely. and its like when i binge, it's really hard to stop. and then, i feel so guilty after. i feel so bad and i'm so scared to talk to anyone about it because i'm afraid they will judge me. and the thing is that i work out... a lot. i work out really hard. but, then i feel like it goes to waste when something like this happens. if any of you have ever been through something like this, please please talk to me. i will even be willing to give you my phone number if you have anything that you want to tell me personally, or if you feel that i will benefit from having a conversation with you. if not, then just answer my question here, if you prefer. whatever you would like works for me. any help is appreciated. my prom is on saturday, and i really wanna look slim and nice. please give me some advice. thank you and God bless you.
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i am going through the exact same thing as you.
you literally just wrote what my the past 8 months have been for me, anorexia, bullimia, attempting recovery, etc.
i used to be able to not care at all if i didnt eat the things i wanted
and now i lose control completely, thinking well my body needs this anyways... etc etc
unfortunately, i haven't quite figured this out for myself yet
but after a peanut butter binge at midnight
waking up the next morning and the feeling of regret
basically in the middle of a binge
you just need to realize what youre doing
and think "is this what i really want?"
thats what i've been trying to do anyways.
if you need to talk, let me know.
im also struggling greatly with this
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Go back and read your full question again.
Notice how many times you use the word "control"?
You lost control, then you got it back, then you lost it again...
This is not uncommon. Eating disorders are often an attempt to make yourself feel IN control when you feel other things in your life are OUT of control.
If you think this fits with you then you need to figure out what those underlying problems are- THAT is what you really want to control.
The weight, the diet, the food is all just a way of tricking yourself into believing that you have the other problems under control. Get it? Like, if you LOOK good, then everything with you is OK.
Some reasons for needing this kind of control may be a history of abuse, low self-esteen, etc. Find out what it is that is really eating away at you (no pun intended) and then you can deal with your eating disorders.
PS- It's best to seek help from a professional on this. Especially if you feel your health is really in danger- don't play around, get help.
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Hi there
A lot of people don't actually realise but anorexia and bullimia arent the only eating disorders. There is also a compulsive eating disorder which is the exact opposite of anorexia.
To me it sounds like somehow you've almost gone from one extreme to the other. It is ok for you to eat 3 meals a day and exercise for a half hour a day to maintain a healthy diet.
First things first, you realise you have a problem. You should be proud of that. Not a lot of people can come to terms with a problem as serious as this. My advice... I strongly suggest you talk to someone in regards to your problem. School councellor? Friend? Family member? I bet anyone would be willing to help if you give them the chance.
I'm 100% sure that you wish you could wake up one day andnot have to obsess about eating. It gets tiring after such a long time
I hope I helped :)
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